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Friday, December 26, 2008

Murray Krima

I just completed my 1st non-Christmas December 25th. Interesting.

I have a friend who is always concerned about how I navigate the holidays. I’m a widow and I do not have family in Georgia. People mean well. I understand that. But they should be more respectful of my boundaries. Read on…

I go to my girlfriend’s home, for what she markets to me as a “Card Party.” I told old girl that I was not doing Christmas anymore. She was like it’s cool, her family didn’t either. I go over at 6:30 (the scheduled start time) and nothing is ready. As a matter of fact, there is garbage all over the floor. So I smile and help her quickly clean the rest of her apartment. Another thing that threw me was that my friend lived in the projects. I do not have any problems with folks that live in the projects, but I don’t think there is anything amiss in sharing that with someone when you invite them to your home for thw first time. There was no food either and only 1 table in the spot. Hmmmm? How are you going to have a card party with just 1 table? That 1 table then went into the living room and received a tablecloth. Damn! No cards. This should have been my 1st clue. Then all these people started arriving. Now this is confusing to me, because there are not enough chairs for all these re people. But that must have been discussed, because folks are arriving with folding chairs and food for the table.

Now you are probably thinking I should have taken my leave, but I like colorful people and my friend seemed really happy that I was there. Then she pulls out a box and asks me to put up her Christmas tree. This is when colorful annoyance turns to anger. If I say that I am not celebrating Christmas, then I ain’t celebrating it. Her uncle (with a full complement of gold upper teeth, not a grill) came to her rescue and put it up and also put some space between us because she couldn’t understand why I was salty. Then the festivities began to start. There was no less than 15 babies under age 10 in the house and they all participated in a bootie shaking contest. WOW. Not a dancing contest, B-O-O-T-I-E SHAKING contest. Then all the children ate on the floor like a nest of rodents. Then they were shipped off to the bedroom without adult supervision. But they weren’t allowed to close the door. I don’t have children, but I’m not understanding why you would not allow cousins to be to themselves. All my same age cousins were boys and we were always left alone to our devices with only minimal damages.

The food…. everything they offered had swine in it. SMH. I ain’t playing. The cake was made with lard and the pasta salad was made with chitterlings. WHO DOES THAT? I was scared to eat anything there but a store bought cake. I wasn’t right. But it was humor there too. There was so many people there that doors had to be opened. Knowing Black folk as I know them, I took my seat next to the front door (with all my possessions), JIC. There was a Dave Chappell-ish crackhead running periodically up and down the stairs outside the door. Everytime he/she/it moved passed the door, it wished us a “Murray Krima.” Then there was a phantom grandmother calling everyone’s cell phone calling them whores and rogues. The lady sitting nest to me was telling me about how she was going to get up in the morning and visit one of her sons in prison and another in the halfway house. She also said how she had to be leaving soon because she had to go home and finish Krima dinner for her ’old man.’ I ain’t making this up, y’all. I left because you know I had too. More and more people were filtering into this 2 bedroom apartment and I know family can get when they gather and get some liquor in them. When I started looking for th friend who invited me, I found her taking a shower. There had to be 50 people in her home and it was 9:30 at night, and she was taking a shower? Unbelievable...

I felt betrayed. She misrepresented her event. I know she was only trying to be kind to me and she didn’t want me depressed on the holidays, but she should taken me at my word when I said that I was cool with it. I have spoken with a few folks who don’t celebrate and they pretty much isolate themselves from the world proper during this time. I had wondered why they took this approach. But now I can see the wisdom in this approach.

What have I learned from this experience? (1) Always host my own parties. This way I can control the environment. (2) Do not be ashamed of my lifestyle. Those people were crazy and tripping, but they checked themselves when they got within 3 feet of me. (3) There I nothing wrong with setting and maintaining my boundaries. No matter how masculine that makes me.


Peace

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Today's Mathematics: Wisdom Culture/Freedom abbt Equality

Today is Christmas Eve. This is my 1st time not celebrating Christmas. I’m moderately bummed about it. I like Christmas. But I do not adhere to the belief of a mystery god; therefore have to give up that ghost (pun intended). Wisdom is wise words and actions of Original individuals. And Culture/Freedom refers to our lifestyle and just being mentally free of BS. (Forgive me for paraphrasing) So as much as I love this time of year because of the holiday, I have to man up and stand on my square and say…. I don’t celebrate Christmas.

The action of not celebrating Christmas this year has been the cause of much meditation for me. Probably more so than others that don’t observe. I have been very careful not to demonstrate the outer trappings of a religious holiday. I loved the singing and the carols. This time of year I like going to church and seeing the decorations. I like decorating my own queendom. Then I found myself considering whether or not it would be apropos to incorporate the secular aspects of the holiday in my cipher. I’m still on the fence about that. Clearly this needs more consideration. It’s hard to ask others how they negotiate around things. I’m convinced that most Black people are paranoid. And when you start asking questions, no matter how innocently you mean them, they start shutting down on you. And got the nerve to get aggressive to boot!

We have everything we need within our culture. We have our observances and celebrations. We know better than to buy into this wilderness’ foolishness and devilshment. But I ain’t lying when I say that even though BS kills us as a people…. It can be quite enjoyable. But is that ‘fun’ worth what it does to us as a people, as a Nation? And even though I don’t celebrate this so-called holiday, I’m still going to take the best part. I’m going to take a paid holiday and the time off. I’m going to partake of the sales (so to speak). And I plan to visit with my family.

B.U.T. when all is said and done, you have to be able to live a life on you own terms and according to your own system. And that is my Equality.


Peace.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Today's Mathematics: Wisdom Wisdom abbt Culture/Freedom

2- Wisdom -is the wise words spoken by the black man, black woman and black child. Wisdom is the black woman who is the moon, because she receives her light from the sun which is the black man and reflects it on to the star which is the black child. Wisdom is the manifestation of one's knowledge.

4- Culture/Freedom is one’s way of living, meaning one’s language (wisdom) and customs (ways and actions). The Original Man’s culture is Islam: freedom, justice, and equality, which is peace. Free to practice one's own culture, which is Islam. Without conflict.

A friend of mine said that today was a sister’s day because the manifestation of 2 represents woman. I like that. Since every month has a 22nd, I’m going to take it as a personal day!

But back to the manifestation…. I cee today’s math as being we should take care of the words that we Earths utter to each other. At a previous gathering of women I attended, there was another Earth present who has all kinds of animosity towards me. And I knew it, though I don’t know why. (Nor do I care) But every time I made a suggestion or offered support, she slammed me. Now other Earth’s in attendance witnessed the drama but did little to counteract it. I can understand why. They don’t want to get involved with something that’s not their business. I probably would do the same thing. But I wanted to get things on track. And being the older of the pair, I waited until we were breaking and asked her why she felt so strongly against me. She said she thought that I though too much of myself. I agreed with her. I do, but that’s me. I’m too old and unwilling to change is how I explained it to her. But the truth of the matter is I am very confident and I recognize that that can offend the less confident. So I joke about it, but never change it. Ask a confident person where that confidence comes from, and you will a long road of insults, let downs and abuse. She chilled after our talk and we were able to move on.

I could have showed my ass when the Earth confronted me in front of the group. I’m at that age where I know how to irrefutably put people in their places with a smile on my face. But I chose to be more diplomatic.

We women are guilty of being hard on each other while giving men the benefit of the doubt. We need to do better. Earth is the home to Islam. Islam being our culture means we have to watch the 2 that we speak to other 2's.


Peace

Love Hell or Right

Maybe it’s because it’s the end of the year and I’m getting reflective. This is going to sound incredibly crazy. Incredibly. I am typing this and still can’t believe that I am saying this. It’s stupid yet causing my soul to explode if I don’t let it out. Here goes….

I really LOVE this Nation!

Okay. You’re probably wondering why I feel this way at this moment. I have been part of this nation for a year now. I should have felt like this at the start. And you’re probably correct. But I can and only will speak for this Earth. New things can be scary.

I guess it’s like when you get a new job. You’re happy for the new opportunity but after a minute you see the inconsistencies within the cipher that you didn’t originally realize when you were honeymooning. Then you get angry and frustrated. Then finally accept it; maybe even find a way to be happy or love it. I have walked through this same process with the 5% Nation of Gods and Earth’s. I was initially excited to rejoin this Nation. Thrilled when I got lessons passed the math. But then I started coming amongst the righteous people. Witnessed inconsistencies. Got angry. Found my lessons hard to memorize and my folks disappeared. Twice. Saw unnecessary infighting. Got conflicting information. Have been lightly insulted. Made and lost friends, etc.

(1) I was studying my lessons the other day and realized that I had the lessons I had been working on. Not a suspicion, but HAD them. That was a comforting feeling. I have not 1’d the 120 yet, but the ones I have, I have and the 3 on them. Feels good.

(2) I looked at myself in the mirror, and thought to myself that I am more attractive (at least to myself) in ¾ than I was in whatever percentage I was rocking prior. And even without makeup, it’s still a good look. I had been previously convinced that I had to maintain a certain standard for acceptance. Make up was supposed to make me more attractive and more polished. Even my old Earth has a lot to say about how I dress now. But her complaints are due to lack of understanding vs. not being presentable. I look good regardless of whether or not I am wearing makeup and I have found creative ways to express myself without exposing myself. And the men still pause.

(3) Lately I have come to the realization that certain men are not going to come around to my way of thinking and lifestyle. That was initially depressing. But then I reconsidered my thoughts in a different light… Does it really matter? Does it matter that individuals whom I have only social equality with agree with something as personal as my point of view? No. On the flip side of the same album, I realize that I have to do what’s right for Serenity, regardless of whom or what. And I refuse to be ashamed to stand righteously on my own square.

I have more understanding in general too. Not just on Nation issues, but life as a whole. I cee things with the clarity of new glasses. I think and consider more from a mathematical perspective. And not that I didn’t have one before KOS, But I have made plans for the righteous future. Shaking off the mystery god was way more difficult for me than for others. The mystery god had been working for me. But with my clearer vision I cee that that was an illusion. A comfortable illusion, but an illusion all the same.

So what’s next for the Queen? I plan to 1 the 120 by the equinox. That is March 20th 2009. I plan to go to the Show and prove in 2009. I plan to add on with a true and living God. I really want to have seeds too in 2009. I have been in the last decade been preparing for how I’m currently living. Though not consciously. I am seizing the best part. I am so excited for what wisdom cipher cipher born will born into Serenity’s cipher, square and universe.

Keep checking for updates!


Peace.

Friday, December 19, 2008

I.S.L.A.M.

This has nothing to do with today’s math. At least I don’t think it does….

I was thinking about Supreme Mathematics manifestations, i.e. the order that they are displayed. Clearly there is a pre-existing order to the math (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,0). But the knowledge, wisdom, understanding, culture/freedom, power/refinement, equality, god, build/destroy, born, cipher. There is a reason for the order.

Knowledge is the foundation of everything in existence… et al. Well ‘1’ begins the numerical system; therefore it’s the foundation. Wisdom corresponds with ‘2’. You cannot have wisdom without having knowledge 1st. And Understanding is a clearly drawn picture in one’s mind through knowledge and wisdom. It’s clear that 1,2 & 3 are in the appropriate order to build.

Can you really be free know who you are and express your lifestyle without 1 2 & 3 beforehand? And Power/refinement… Isn’t that a product of being free to knowledge your culture? Equality (6) comes along to show us balanced living and is 1+2+3. So it’s clear that 1,2 &3 was needed (as always) before hand and in that order. God (7) comes through as always to represent. I find it interesting that God comes in at 7 in the Supreme Math as well as the Supreme Alphabet. God is omnipotent. Build /Destroy comes along at this point because now that we have built up our spheres we need to know how to righteously govern it by building and destroying. Born is 9. 9 months to bring a child into this realm and 9 stages to manifest mentally. And a cipher indicates completion.

I draw this up to mean that mathematics is not just approaching life according to the ideal that each date brings; but to manifest our existences in an orderly fashion that is right and exact. Older people say you have to crawl before you can walk. I see this adage as a meaning that we all have to go though a process while walking our baby to adult to elder steps through this nation. And the learning doesn’t stop after Pluto.

Well…. Gotta get on my grind….

Allah was a genius, and I sincerely love his mathematics.



Peace

Today's Mathematics: Knowledge Born abbt Knowledge

What is my knowledge borning? In my own life? In Allah’s nation? I usually like to think of the phrase as making the unknown known. But I ain’t feeling that this afternoon.

I have plans and ambitions for my seeds. But that’s all a moot point since I don’t have seeds. Planning is always good. People who fail to plan, plan to fail. So borning in my sphere does not bear witness to the womb. The only thing left is mentally through Allah’s mathematics.

Lately I have been building with a God that asked me what is my contribution to this nation. That gave me pause for thought. As a toddler in this nation, I am very focused on getting my lessons. I am even slipping into “I can do it myself” mode. But I am not at all concerned at this point with what I can do. Hmmmm? Maybe I need to rethink that.

I got skills already that I would not mind sharing with the collective. I’m done (for real) with school, I have experiences that I can add on with. I sew, quilt, crochet, cook, bake, uncook, anally clean, have 1 on dentistry, natural health and I sing. I can and am willing to share what I know. But for real, I have come in contact with people who discount anything that you have/do if your pedigree ain’t right. So what I’m new! Does this mean that everything I learned before has no current bearing? Example: I know how to quilt, learned how to quilt from my ancestor Earths, and have made more than a few quilts. Why do I have to give references to prove that I know how to do this? I can show and prove this ability, but still get the fisheyes from chicks who have no clue what a square is. I don’t have a problem discussing my background. I do have a problem with being interrogated.

The above was adding on with Earths. Adding on with Gods is different and tricky. Gods adding on with Gods means that they are being social. But when Gods and Earths add on together…. It can be nice, it can be nasty, it can be mutually beneficial…. But it is always tricky. Gods argue this point to me at nauseum, but I refuse to believe that men and women cannot have a purely platonic working relationship. Gods seem to differ with me on that. And that’s peace. But it’s scary too; because I may know/have something that I can share other than my body and bank account. I know some stuff, damn it! And no I am not trying to be God. I don’t subscribe to that. I don’t even like it when folks be wanting to refer to women as Goddesses.

Now adding on with the Nation is different. But I’d still have to work with Gods and Earth’s proper. Hmmm…. This made more sense when I was getting started. The bottom line is I want to contribute my service, but find it hard to find my place.


Peace

Monday, December 8, 2008

How doth thy soul propser?

My family is Christian. I was raised Christian. And just like most people who were blind deaf and dumb when they where babies, I believed what I was told by the people in power (parents, family friends, teachers, etc.). Even though I was given that information in a certain fashion, didn’t mean that I processed it in the way they wanted. I didn’t. I didn’t know that I was processing off the grid either. I thought everyone saw it the way I did. This was my error… and theirs.

I never believed that GOD was this altruistic, beneficent loving grandfatherly entity that was concerned about me. There were too many people out there who suffered that believed in GOD. But churches will tell you that its not GOD… It’s them. They did something that GOD is punishing them for. So you know where the concept of GOD’s grace and forgiveness went for me, right?

I believed that GOD was neither male nor female. That in order for GOD to be omnipotent, It could not have a body. Like air. Also, Prayer seemed stupid to me. Prayer just seemed like a way to vent. Think about it… if GOD is so powerful and already “knows your heart” then why would one need to pray to share what’s on your mind? Does that make sense? And what kind of all powerful entity can be swayed by prayer, fasting and whatever? Your GOD can be pimped?

So why did I go to church as long as I did? Many reasons. My old Earth is and always has been a holy roller. People in her cipher go to church; her church. Cased closed. Oh you can say what you want about being “your own person”, but that’s for folks whose mother was not that important to them as was/is mine to me. It is this blogger’s opinion that if you truly love and respect people, you don’t want to see them disappointed, upset or hurt. Truth be told…. I am still a little scared of her. I liked the fellowship of church and I love to sing (and am not bad at it). And church, done right, can be a vehicle for community empowerment. I married a man whose beliefs mimicked my mother’s. So I went to church with him. We moved away from our family and friends and then he returned to the Essence. That left me for the first time in charge of how I disperse my Energy.

One of the many inconsistencies about church that irks me to madness is how folks manipulate the Bible. Jesus…our righteous brother… the hardest working zombie in all of history… did not teach Christianity. Paul, who was never a disciple of Jesus, actually initially persecuted the Christians, claimed to have astrally met Jesus on that Damascus road, (if I made the same claim, could I start my own religion?) brought what it is that we know as Christianity. This is all very incorrect. Jesus was a Jew teaching Jewish reform. But let me get on with this and not get sidetracked. Christians pull out the scripture (Romans 12:2) that reads “Be ye not conformed to this world; but transformed by the renewing of your mind…” Conforming is what Christians want you to do. If you have your own thoughts on Biblical issues, even if you have a divine epiphany, you are libel to become excommunicated. That sounds like conforming to me. And why does excommunication even exist in an organization that is supposed to bring salvation to the masses? I cee that scripture as meaning that we should be striving to come into knowledge of self. But that doesn’t fill the coffers of the church now does it? I’d like to pair the Romans scripture with Proverbs 4:7 “… and with all that getting, get understanding.” It’s the best part.

This Christmas season prompted the writing of this blog. I ran into a woman that I used to church with. She is no different from any other previous church person I meet. Instead of inquiring about my health, career, life, any damn thing; they want to know where I worship. The answer that instantly jumps into my head is Bedside Baptist, but I don’t say that. I take it to be the end of our conversation. But as always in parting they offer to pray for me. That always makes me smile. Not because I am happy to be prayed for, or that I’m gonna break out into a spirited rendition of “Somebody Prayed for me/Had me on their mind/Took the time to pray for me…. (told you I liked the singing part) but because it’s a mirror showing me my freedom from that type of foolishness. I suppose I could enlighten them on a few issues, but they have been trained not to hear. And why cast my pearls before swine?

Peace

Thursday, December 4, 2008

For My Babies.....

My Dearest Babies,

I first want to thank you for choosing me as your mother. I will make a series of promises to you now that I want you to know in advance and I want you to hold me accountable to them.

First and foremost I will love and protect you unconditionally. I promise to light up every time you enter the room. I will not hold you responsible for the ‘bad’ day that I have if you are not at fault. Even if you commit the most heinous of crimes, you can ALWAYS be certain that I am still your mother and I will always love you. Wherever I am will be your home. Even after I return to the Essence, my love will be available to you.

I will fiercely protect you from any devilshment that comes against you. I shall be willing to lay down my life in that protection of you. I will sacrifice for you to see that you have what you need and some of what you want. You will be spoiled; but from love and not from material things.

But all this love and devotion comes with a price. Because I love you, I won’t lie to you. Your childhood will be appropriate, but without all the little lies that people give children. This world that we live in is unfriendly. You need to learn to fight, and you need to learn that early. I will have your back for as long as you need me. And I will shield you from some of life’s unpleasantness, but not all of it. You need to learn to deal effectively will all life’s situations. I will raise you to view the world honestly and mathematically so that you can make decisions for your self based on facts and not emotional whims. But I shall encourage you to make changes in your reality that you do not like.

I want you to know me as a person and not a superhero. I want you to come to me with your problems, but I want you to share your joys too. I shall never give you the impression that I have all the answers. I don’t. But I shall work with you to help you find the answers that are appropriate for you; not what I think you should do. You need to know that your mother has human faults and that she is a person desirous of affection. I shall be your 1st example of appropriate human interaction. You will see me interacting positively with your father an all members of our cipher. That does not mean that you will never witness me arguing with people. You will. But you will not witness the violent foolishness. Just effective problem solving. And where I’m certain I shall make mistakes, I shan’t hide them from you. I will never talk down to you or treat you like a second class citizen.

In the beginning I shall make most if not all the decisions for you. But as you get older I will allow you to make more and more decisions for yourself. Yet always know, beloved child, that you will be responsible for the consequences of your actions. There will be rewards or penalties for your actions once you reach the age to make said decisions.

You father and I shall provide the foundation for you to soar and achieve all that you desire. I will never seek to control, compete with or manipulate you. I shall neither smother nor shelter you. I shall not shirk my responsibility as your parent by trying to be your friend. We have a lifetime of friendship once you are an adult. During your formative years, I will parent you.

Though I vow to parent you, I will not physically abuse you. I believe in spankings, but I believe there are other options as well. I shall not jump to conclusions. I shall always talk to you prior and following administration of punishment and shall never punish you out of my own anger.

I will teach you everything I know. And if there is something additional that you wish to learn, I will see to it that you have the opportunity to learn. I will not expect you to walk the path that I walk. I recognize that there are many roads, highways and byways to the Source. I walked my own path; you will have to walk yours. I want you to grow in knowledge, beauty, and peace. It is my wish that you become a well adjusted, positive contribution to society with knowledge of self.

I am looking forward to meeting you. Hurry up and get here!


Peace,
Mommie

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Never Thought I'd be in Agreement....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Covenant_marriage

I know that most of the Gods I come in contact with and a lot of the Earths I come in contact with are against marriage. I am not against marriage, but I don’t feel the need to be married either. I have been married before so I am able to form my opinion from experience rather than observation. But this blog is not about cohabitation vs. marriage.

The main argument I hear against marriage is that you don’t want the government all up in your business. My rebuttal to that is that the government is already all up in your business. You have a birth certificate, you probably went to public schools, you have a social security number, you have filled out a W2 form, you have a driver’s license, pay taxes, have student loans, etc. The government is already thoroughly up and through your isht. But the above link is disturbing.

Covenant marriage. WTH? Okay if marriage is coming to this then I’m all for cohabitation. The difference between this and regular marriage is that you would agree from the onset to terms that would make it more difficult to get divorced. But you can choose whether or not to get this type of marriage or the standard type. Why can’t you have regular marriage with that understanding?

I agree that it is very easy for folks to become unmarried. I’m not going to lie, while I was married, I kept in mind where I could get an uncontested divorce for $400 and on the DL at that. My late husband kept a gun in his night stand. He said it was for protection but he’d only look that direction when we argued. As Chris Rock once stated, “You ain’t really in love if you have never thought and planned how to kill your spouse and cover it up. And the only thing that stopped you was an episode of CSI.”

All jokes aside, lawful marriage should be standardized and not differ from family to family. This is another reason why people get heated over gay marriage. My personal opinion on gay marriage is I’m neither for nor against it. I’m not gay and I have no business telling gay people how to handle their business. But again, I digress, but not really.

Folks do not have the right to tell grown people how to do something that’s totally optional as long as other people don’t have to ante up any cash. And I found this concept and link by following a Republican thread! Those jokers speak out of both sides of their mouths. They claim that they are for less government but find away to get involved personally with a lot of personal foolishness. In order to qualify for this, folks must have premarital counseling. What bodies give premarital counseling? You guessed it…. Churches! Think about it from a practical standpoint… Folks who aren’t married yet, don’t have joint insurance. So getting counseling from a psychiatrist or psychologist who could sign off on the marriage would be expensive, unnecessary and irritating. And if you aren’t being pushed by your church to do this what would be the motivation to sign up for this? I don’t personally know anyone who goes through the expense and rigamarow to have a wedding, set up a household and have children just to say one day… “I’m out!” for no reason.

Don’t people think that marriage should actually break up sometimes? Sometimes you get unhappy and/or grow apart. I don’t see the point in continuing in that arrangement. Your spouse might decide to have gender re-assignment or join a cult. Those are pretty much deal breakers. But the covenant marriage only allows dissolution due to abuse, felony or adultery. That’s it. And now you are joined by the hip to a person for the rest of one of your natural lives. I bet there is fine print. I bet that there is punishment for the party that commits the crime that invalidates the marriage. And how is this covenant marriage supposed to guarantee that an actual marriage exists? My own parents were legally separated for 20 years before they got divorced. Hell, they made me during the separation and each had other relationships. But they had all the qualifications for a covenant marriage.

I’m proud of you if you’ve read this far. I am rambling. But trying to keep this cerebral without injecting a whole lot of emotion is trying, yet I persevere. The constitution of this country clearly separates church and state. That applies to everybody. Now we know that the government is not always on the up and up and they lie, steal and cause trouble amongst people, but the Constitution… that document, that has supposedly held this country together since its founding, says that the government is NOT allowed to force religion on people. This covenant marriage is some bull because this is an open door with which political and religious fanatics can force their foolishness on the masses. Look at the states where it is getting on the ballots: California, Florida, Georgia, Indiana, Iowa, Kansas, Maryland, Minnesota, Mississippi, Missouri, Nebraska, New Mexico, Oklahoma, Oregon, South Carolina, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, Virginia, Washington, and West Virginia. It’s already law in Louisiana, Arizona and Arkansas. The Bible belt and the mid west. These are people that the Republicans consider the “Real Americans.” They should have learned form the most recent election… No body lives in those states.

The bottom line is… Don’t allow this foolishness to happen! People who want to be together for the rest of their live s will be. They don’t need a difficult divorce to force them together. Then when you look at couples who have been married for a long time and instead of being awed at their commitment you will just say, “Ain’t like they can do anything about it.” If you see this issue on your ballots, shoot it down. I’m not only speaking to non-religious people, but all people. We need to be mindful of maintaining our personal freedom and expression of such. What’s right for some folks is not right for everybody and other folks don’t get to make determinations for gown people.

Peace

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

10* 1-14

"10) Why does Muhammad and any Muslim murder the Devil? What is the duty of each Muslim in regards to four Devils? What reward does a Muslim receive by having and presenting the four Devils at one time?
Because the Devil is 100% weak and wicked and will not keep and obey the laws of Islam. His ways and actions are like those of a snake of the grafted type. So Muhammad learned that he could not reform the Devil, so they had to be murdered, because they know that he is a snake and if he was allowed to live he would only sting someone else. Each Muslim was required to bring in four Devils and by having and presenting the four devils at one time his reward was a button to wear on the lapel of his coat, also free transportation to the Holy City of Mecca to see their brother Muhammad."


This is a very scary degree for folks that look in the windows of this Nation. People sans 3. But the term ‘devil’ doesn’t have to literally mean the colored man. The devil is 100% weak and wicked. And if we are honest we all have ways and actions that aren’t 100% righteous. Those w’s and a’s are devilshment and now is the time to end that foolishness.

I can only speak for this Earth. I have devils within. I have a huge problem with anger. I have a friend who says that's not unusual for a Scorpio. Most of my life’s troubles can be traced to anger. 4 qualities that make up my anger’s process is (1) impulsiveness (2) seething (3) grudge holding and (4) planning.

Do something to me to incite anger and you will not witness a pretty scene. My life’s experiences has taught me that allowing my anger to explode and acting on that never yields the results that I’m looking for and often causes more problems. Think of children that throw tantrums. Those children are angry, but what does that expression get them? Punishment. I learned early on to channel my anger so that I could receive maximum satisfaction from it. I must admit sometimes I can be impulsive and do the 1st evil thing to reciprocate the devilshment. Yes I feel vindicated, but often I’ll get angry at self later because there might have been a more ruthless alternative that I overlooked.

I also seethe in anger. I have sat in unoccupied rooms alone causing premature wrinkling due to anger. I’m certain on those occasions I have damaged vasculature being angry like that. I don’t always sit, though. I remember being so angry with my father that while preparing food for myself and my then fiancĂ©, that I accidentally cut through my hand and bled all over the meal I was preparing. My then fiancĂ© came in the kitchen looked over my shoulder and quietly and easily moved me away from the counter. I was sooooo spaced out that I didn’t feel the injury.

There are still people that wronged me in childhood, if these said people stepped in front of my car, I wouldn’t brake. I am well aware that is not right and exact. I'm working on it. To me the planning is the worst and last stage. If it gets this far, the other party is going to have a problem. I have never been able to put the brakes on my anger once it gets that far. I will need intervention at this juncture to prevent me actually realizing my goal for foolishness. Not many are bold enough to step to me at this point. Only person that consistently can see all the deviousness signs is my Old Earth. And we no longer live close to each other. She relies on intuition. Her accuracy is eerie.

Example… And this is personal… Don’t judge me…. Just 1 the example…. An ex cheated on me and knock up some child. I say child but she was technically legal. Anywho… trying not to add on emotions…. He tells me this on the phone. We had been in a relationship for a total of 9 years, though not sequential. He knew better than to present himself and this information at the same time in the physical. I made a few a jokes and assured him all would be well. Not with us, just him and his situation. After a good night’s sleep (and it was good) I awoke angry. I bypassed the seething stage. This was full blown planning. I supposed I seethed in my sleep. After a few playful calls and emails (from him, not me), I was on my way to his home wearing a black outfit with a brick and a golf club on the passenger seat. For the life of me I don’t remember how I got to this point. I needed intervention. My mother called repeatedly on the cell but I knew better than to speak with her. I was on a mission. Then, my tire blew. That epiphany and/or intervention and triple A turned me around and put me back at home where I needed to be. The ex didn’t get off so easily. His mother was visiting from out of state for a party he was giving on Labor Day of that year. I was invited but I decided against attending. I said that we had dated for 9 years, I knew this man’s proclivities as well as his social security number, date of birth and address. I had his lights and water cut off. Knowing full well that he would not be able to get them cut back on until after the holiday. I’m not proud. But satisfied.

Now… If I could kill these 4 aspects of my anger at one time can you imagine the peace that would reign in my cipher? Not just for me, but for anyone that passes through. I’m talking about complete control and banishment of these devils. Never to be triggered again. To never hurt another. Another reason why I wait to bare fruit. I would hate to get angry at or with them. The button on my lapel could be the countenance on my face and the peace that pervades my being. Everyone could cee it. And I could exist in a blissful place such as Muhammad’s presence. And do you notice that the lesson says nothing about returning from Mecca.

Imagine….

Peace

Friday, November 21, 2008

Today's Mathematics: Wisdom Knowledge abbt Understanding

Wisdom is wise words (or actions) spoken by the Black man Woman and child. Knowledge is the foundation of everything in existence. Understanding is a clearly drawn picture in one’s mind using knowledge and wisdom.

I am so tired of people besmirching Barack Obama. The man has not even been inaugurated. I see it in every group that I come in contact with. I expect more from the conscious and righteous community. I find it all incredibly annoying. I hear “Barack Obama is and Uncle Tom”, or, “Barack Obama is no different than any other president because he was put in place by the ‘powers that be’”. Here is my favorite stupid @$$ed question…. “What is going to do for Black people?”

Barack Obama has done all he is supposed to for Black people. He got elected. Case Closed. We are square.

Read this excerpt from Wikipedia….
“The President of the United States is the head of state and head of government of the United States and is the highest political official in United States by influence and recognition. The President leads the executive branch of the federal government; his or her role is to enforce national law as given in the Constitution and written by Congress.”
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/President_of_the_United_States

I invite y’all to peruse the entire article and the constitution before y’all keep talking no speaking this bull. (Talking implies you understand what you’re talking about. Speaking is just uttering sounds.) The job description of the President of the United States says nothing about hooking Black folks up. What happens to the person who works at Macy’s or Burger King or any damn place that gives his friends the hook up? That employee gets fired. I’ve seen the hooker upper get in legal trouble depending on the level of the hook up. Is that what you want from/for our new Black president? You want him to lose his job because he tried to us Black folks a solid? What kind of person wants to put another person in that predicament? Where is all that ‘Black love’ here? No other president has been faced with these foolish expectations. Why Obama? Oh I forgot. Because he has to prove that he’s Black enough. Clearly y’all not drawing this up properly.

This is just an example of the folly of putting wisdom before knowledge. It will lead to misunderstanding. But done correctly 1 + 2 will born 3/understanding.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Today's Mathematics: Understanding Knowledge

I have a Halloween costume on. I am dressed as a Queen of Egypt. With the Eye of Horus and the whole born yards! I look good, yet 3/4. Folks have mentioned that dressing for Halloween is uncivilized and is a trapping of the devil. I say, since I'm enjoy the process, it is a requirement of my job and y’all ain’t paying one of my bills, my suggestion is that you shut the f@ck up! Was that lady like?

Let’s understand the knowledge…. Though the costume is a requirement, I was allowed to choose whom/what I wanted to be. There were plenty of slutty, degrading and expensive options that I could have chosen. But I chose to embody an Original Queen. And I have said ability to sew (according to the 14*1:14). It cost me less than $10 for the fabric. The wig was the most expensive part at $20, but my locs aren't long enough to play the role. A slutty version of my costume that wasn't as elaborate, in a thin fabric, cost $95! So how is my costume not right and exact?

One of the aspects that I have noted during my tenure in this wonderful nation is that god/earth bodies are lacking the fun gene. Ciphers are intolerably serious. I know that they are supposed to be, but I never really witness gods and earths just letting their hair down and having just some good clean fun. I had more fun when I went to a Christian church. Laughing and joking are always prefaced with the idea that it must end if someone comes amongst us. And to hear folks dis holidays/birthdays/observances that have evolved into meaningless fun, is sad. Even the father had his fun. And according to some sources, he threw a Christmas party for his nation family.

Lighten up People!

Happy Halloween!



PEACE