Philipians 4:7

Peace.

Yesterday I was riding behind a car and I its bumper sticker read… “Let go and let God.” Then it went on to list a scripture. Philippians 4:7. Well I decided to Google that script. “And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” And I remembered…..

When I was a Xian… before KOS… I remembered the feeling of standing free in the church with problems over my head and on my shoulder and allowing myself to “Give them to the Lord.” I remember how free and good I felt. I would leave the building feeling uplifted, happy and tired from holy ghost dancing. Would my problems go away? No. But I had the feeling everything was gonna be alright.

Coming into KOS, you have to put that foolishness aside. And it IS foolishness. But it is a seductive foolishness. When you have KOS you know that it is impossible to give your problems away. You don’t have $$$ to pay a bill, just because you give it away doesn’t mean the bill will get paid by the mystery god. Folks say my heavenly father has many mansions on a hill in glory. Well my physical father had money, but that was his money and it didn’t mean I was going to get any. My mother has money and I KNOW there is no way I can put my hands on that. So what exactly do folks mean when they say that? You can call on All the jehovas you want…. Jirrah, nissi, tsidkenu, shalom, rappha, etc. nothing going to change until YOU do something. It’s just the way it is.

I suppose the reason I am so salty is because I am currently going through some personal challenges. And I would like to just give my problems to the mystery god and have him write a check for it. But I KNOW THAT IS AN ILLUSION!!!!!! 10 years ago while a devout, tithing xian I watched my husband, who I had finally got him broken in to where I wanted, deteriorate and die, literally, before my eyes. No amount of praying, tithing, fasting, anointing him with oil, touching the hem of the preacher’s garment, touching and agreeing kept him from dying. “Well,” everyone said, “it must have been God’s will.” That was the beginning of the end for me. There weren’t any more born again moments for me. His parents were super religious too. So I guess Psalm 37:25 didn’t work either.

Folks don’t want the responsibility of anything. My husband had an illness and he died from it. That’s it. My father had an illness and died from it. That’s it. People die from illnesses don’t they? In either situation there was nothing I could do to aid them. But religion has a plan… Blame your faith for what ever happens. Had they gotten better… gods will. But they died… my lack of faith or maybe I wasn’t in communion with the mystery god. Does that make any kind of sense to you?

“The Peace that passes all human understanding.” Peace is calmness. And we know Understanding to mean a clear picture in your mind based on information and personal experience. So let me get this…. Calmness is enough to allow an individual to transcend a result of which they have knowledge and experienced. Isn’t the definition of insanity doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results???? I actually only hear that definition from churches. But Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. So hoping and expecting something different to happen from a situation where you have seen the outcome is somehow NOT insane??? REALLY?

Hoping and Expecting is the flip opposite of Knowledge and Wisdom. That is your definition of trick-knowledge right there...
Knowledge + Wisdom = Understanding.
Hope + Expectation = Faith.

I suppose if you look at the verse… Philippians 4:7…. Paul (a man who is chiefly responsible for xianity as we know it, and who btw NEVER MET JESUS) (5:14) was interacting with a church that he started in Greece. You know Paul was a great delagtor. He ran all his churches from jail with letters. (And you thought criminal king pins were doing something new. I guess there isn’t anything new under the sun….) If you do the Knowledge, that church was in a prosperous area. Philippi literally means a friend of horses. And that was the industry there. Paul was receiving “gifts” from them. (Player Player!) I draw this up to mean that one must understand the Culture of the mystery God.

That is how the 10% rolls. They sell hope; plain and simple. And whether they deliver is something that CANNOT be determined. But the hope is NOT free. And the 85 is happy to spend their hard earned gold, (28:36) on the pipe dream. (30:36) The only thing they get is the good feeling that makes no sense.

I’m angry because my own people perish because of a lack of Knowledge of self. And they move through this existence like a ship without a sail. Folks think that because I have Bible Knowledge that I am going to come back to the fold. But it ain’t going to happen. I have 120 on cap; that doesn’t mean I’m going to join the NOI and apply for my X.

Maybe changing your mindset is the key to problem elimination. Whatever. But I can bare witness to this fact… Problems ALWAYS eventually work themselves out. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Problems are ALWAYS temporary. B.U.T. Religions capitalize on that fact and make it sound like their mystery god is the reason why the problems resolve. GTFOOH

If you read this far, I’m proud of you.

It’s nature not religion.



Peace

How doth thy soul propser?

My family is Christian. I was raised Christian. And just like most people who were blind deaf and dumb when they where babies, I believed what I was told by the people in power (parents, family friends, teachers, etc.). Even though I was given that information in a certain fashion, didn’t mean that I processed it in the way they wanted. I didn’t. I didn’t know that I was processing off the grid either. I thought everyone saw it the way I did. This was my error… and theirs.

I never believed that GOD was this altruistic, beneficent loving grandfatherly entity that was concerned about me. There were too many people out there who suffered that believed in GOD. But churches will tell you that its not GOD… It’s them. They did something that GOD is punishing them for. So you know where the concept of GOD’s grace and forgiveness went for me, right?

I believed that GOD was neither male nor female. That in order for GOD to be omnipotent, It could not have a body. Like air. Also, Prayer seemed stupid to me. Prayer just seemed like a way to vent. Think about it… if GOD is so powerful and already “knows your heart” then why would one need to pray to share what’s on your mind? Does that make sense? And what kind of all powerful entity can be swayed by prayer, fasting and whatever? Your GOD can be pimped?

So why did I go to church as long as I did? Many reasons. My old Earth is and always has been a holy roller. People in her cipher go to church; her church. Cased closed. Oh you can say what you want about being “your own person”, but that’s for folks whose mother was not that important to them as was/is mine to me. It is this blogger’s opinion that if you truly love and respect people, you don’t want to see them disappointed, upset or hurt. Truth be told…. I am still a little scared of her. I liked the fellowship of church and I love to sing (and am not bad at it). And church, done right, can be a vehicle for community empowerment. I married a man whose beliefs mimicked my mother’s. So I went to church with him. We moved away from our family and friends and then he returned to the Essence. That left me for the first time in charge of how I disperse my Energy.

One of the many inconsistencies about church that irks me to madness is how folks manipulate the Bible. Jesus…our righteous brother… the hardest working zombie in all of history… did not teach Christianity. Paul, who was never a disciple of Jesus, actually initially persecuted the Christians, claimed to have astrally met Jesus on that Damascus road, (if I made the same claim, could I start my own religion?) brought what it is that we know as Christianity. This is all very incorrect. Jesus was a Jew teaching Jewish reform. But let me get on with this and not get sidetracked. Christians pull out the scripture (Romans 12:2) that reads “Be ye not conformed to this world; but transformed by the renewing of your mind…” Conforming is what Christians want you to do. If you have your own thoughts on Biblical issues, even if you have a divine epiphany, you are libel to become excommunicated. That sounds like conforming to me. And why does excommunication even exist in an organization that is supposed to bring salvation to the masses? I cee that scripture as meaning that we should be striving to come into knowledge of self. But that doesn’t fill the coffers of the church now does it? I’d like to pair the Romans scripture with Proverbs 4:7 “… and with all that getting, get understanding.” It’s the best part.

This Christmas season prompted the writing of this blog. I ran into a woman that I used to church with. She is no different from any other previous church person I meet. Instead of inquiring about my health, career, life, any damn thing; they want to know where I worship. The answer that instantly jumps into my head is Bedside Baptist, but I don’t say that. I take it to be the end of our conversation. But as always in parting they offer to pray for me. That always makes me smile. Not because I am happy to be prayed for, or that I’m gonna break out into a spirited rendition of “Somebody Prayed for me/Had me on their mind/Took the time to pray for me…. (told you I liked the singing part) but because it’s a mirror showing me my freedom from that type of foolishness. I suppose I could enlighten them on a few issues, but they have been trained not to hear. And why cast my pearls before swine?

Peace