Thursday, November 8, 2012

Me-Made Earth


Yesterday I got into an internet argument with a God. I allowed him to upset me. I must be punished for that foolishness and have no problem punishing myself. So I sewed… which was not the punishment. But the silence was. No TV, no music. Just me and my thoughts and the machine.

There I was laboring on a blouse for about 3 hours with no other noise than the machine, got me to thinking. And I was thinking about my role as Earth in this nation and how I got here.

I am of the unpopular opinion that Earth is NOT secondary to God. I’m not caring how folks feel about that opinion. We are different and perform different functions and tasks. No task is more or less important than what the other does. Deal with it.

But the main thing that I was focused on is that no other person made me Earth. I made my ownself Earth. I did so by acknowledging that the Black Man is God. Now that may seem like I’m defeating my point. That by making said declarative statement means I am saying that the Black man made me Earth. Nope. You don’t Understand the statement OR you don’t Understand God.

The Black man is God. Making that type of declaration changed my life. I lost friends and relatives. It put my job in jeopardy. It makes me a public target of ridicule and confusion. Making that declaration forced me to give up everything I knew and jeopardized my immortal soul. LOL! I had to acknowledge and learn to navigate Yakub’s world manifest without the security blanket/illusion of white Jesus to help me sleep at night and keep me from worrying. Yes; I think I did quite a bit on my own.

Think about how it was before KOS. If you had a problem, give it to Jesus. If it got better, thank you Jesus! He likes money as a gift. If it didn't, well that’s god’s will or you did something wrong. Maybe your faith wasn't strong enough or you hadn't paid your protection money. If you did something you were ashamed of, you could just pray all your troubles away. And don’t forget about the good feeling you get when you go into the sanctuary, singing shouting and cutting a fool. I do miss that part. But you know… I can get that very same feeling at a dope party. Who knew?

My man did not find me in the gutter, pick me up, civilize me and make me Earth by making me his queen. We were two, already civilized people who fell in love. To be honest, I met Precise after I had started taking degrees. I was in the 1-40. But of course he will chime and say…..

Again, I’m harping on the fact that not all Earths share empowered Understanding. If they did, there would be more Earths in this nation. This beautiful and fulfilling nation. And I can see Gods have a vested interest in maintaining the status quo. Coupled with the tendency for women to either NOT HAVE 120 with their own Understanding or not every try to teach another woman our numbers will remain low and foolishness, like polygamy, will abound.

But is that just a woman problem? People have a tendency to do as told, when told. If someone tells you something, that’s all that is needed to show and prove; not doing the Knowledge for self. They think “doing the knowledge” is demanding the person giving you the information to validate it for them as well. REALLY? That’s reminds me of the carfax commercial. Folks are demanding to see documentation that the car is legit from the people striving to sell it. If you bad enough to buy a car, you should be bad enough to buy your own subscription to the service. I have known of folks tricked out of their blue book because they bought a vehicle based on faked carfax information. And I have no sympathy when you don’t do the knowledge for your self and take someone else’s words on face value.

I have had a pseudo Earth claim I lied about something but couldn't go anywhere passed just calling me a liar. When I questioned her she told me I didn't have the right to do that. So she can lay a claim at my feet, not substantiate it, but I’m wrong? Even though she could not prove her claim, folks believed her because they like her or wanted to. That’s some bull. I check when my mother or God tells me something. I’m not rude about it. I just do my duty. But that’s what we have these days. And it’s not just a Nation issue. It happens all over. But we in Allah’s nation are supposed to be above that. We are supposed to be a beacon of light for the 85. Our light needs polishing.

So that I’m not just jawjacking…. What can be done? Educators… Explain PRECISELY what “doing the knowledge” means. And make them do it from time to time so they get comfortable. Non-newborns… Get at your own information. Earths….. No where does it mean you have to have the same Understanding as your God. Precise has made statements and holds opinions that I don’t agree with. But he is entitled to his cee, as am I. Does that mean we have to break up? Emphatically no! But I don’t go challenging him on everything he says either. That’s just common sense. If you did that all day you would have no friends or people who wanted to be around you. Be respectful. Also… I am the type of Earth that stays sharp with my lessons. I think about them. I recite them. I draw up different Understandings. It’s not just for me. It keeps the God sharp too. He’s not going to let his Earth be sharp and he’s not.  The sign of a real God. Steel sharpens steel Boo Boo. Don’t be so dull that there is no point in building. Pussies are soft. And if that’s all your striving to be then cool. But if you are a true and living Earth… Woman Up!


Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Sex Shaming


This is not one of my normal builds. But it is something that I KEEP seeing and it KEEPS pissing me off. Sex Shaming…

Sex Shaming is when external folks try to make another feel bad about their sexual proclivities. Now I get the shame part if it causes harm to another. If you are a rapist… get shamed. You molest children…. Get shamed. If you hurt another person… get shamed. But folks go too far….

When I was in grad school, I had a roommate who was bitching that her new roommate (after I graduated) had been having sex on her sofa. I could not understand why she was pissed. But I let her vent. Hell, I had sex on that same sofa. What is the big deal? I had slept on said couch, had monthly accidents on that couch, why not get my freak on on that couch? Communal stuff. Shit happens…. Needless to say the next time I visited her, she had a new couch.

Another chick was shamed because she had slept with over 20 men. Actually she was shamed by her pastor and her fiancĂ©’s mother. Why is that shameful? So she likes sex? Big deal. She is in her late 30’s. I could see if she was 18 and at 20. but even that isn't shame worthy. Is she having unprotected sex? No. Had she ever had a disease? No. Did she support herself with a square job and her own crib and car? Yes. Did she have a bunch of kids? No, she didn't have any. So why is it shameful for her to have that sex number?

I was reading an article about a person (they didn't mention the sex of the author but I assume it was a female) had a huge problem with her brother and sister in law having sex in a bathroom while staying as guests in her home. Folks be like, they should wait. WHAT? The reason I assumed it was a female was because she heard the commotion on a baby monitor.

This is my question…. Why do folks find sex so shameful? It’s why you’re here. This last election cycle showed the Republican males were very invested in what happens with a woman’s body. Only the males, though. Republican females were strangely silent on those issues. I wonder why…..

Sex is an activity like any other. It’s enjoyable and one should keep an eye out for safety. That’s it. Solo. Single. No more lo less. I run and I like it, but I watch where I’m going, carry ID, $ and pepper spray. No one shames me for being a runner. Well teenage boys do but that’s another build (and what the pepper spray is for).

Why are clergy so invested in the sex lives of their flock? That is absolutely none of their business. I have cursed out church folk for trying to get in my personal life. And truth be told, the ones who were the most interested also were the ones to make a power move. Seems like clergy should be PRO-sex. More sex = more people. More people = more protection money payments.

Why are folks so interested in whether or not gay people marry? Why do you care if you aren't gay? So somehow your gay neighbors (and we all have them) will somehow attack you if you don’t guard against them legally joining their lives??? That is cray cray. Gay people marrying is no different that any other marriage. Do have a problem with interracial marriage? Interdenominational? I object more to GMO’s than to gay marriage. It ain't my business. What folks object to is what they are doing in their beds and that is none of your business unless you happen to be invited.

I have never understood why ‘virtue’ was a desired attribute for women…. But not for men. Somehow it is preferable to have a frightened inexperienced girl underneath them than a grown assed woman who knows how to get her and the man off. I’m not a man so I don’t get it. Is it undesirable for a man to have a woman with experience? Usually when I hear that foolishness I chalk it up to small equipment. And I know that’s a sensitive topic for dudes. Why do men have issues with women who have been with other men when they have been with other women? There is no Equality in that.

Assigning any special feelings to the process of copulation is done by the people doing it and not the people telling you about it. If I had a child, I would encourage them to wait for love, but if they didn't, I wouldn't have a problem with that either. I would never shame my child, my friend, my mother, my sibling, my coworker, anybody for choices they make that affect them and only them. That’s how you be grown.

You wanna masturbate? Get the lotion. You want to dress like a baby and get spanked? Do it! You wanna have an orgy? Order enough food! (I have heard orgies partakers become ravenously hungry, and you know it makes sense…..) Are you a pillow princess? Lay back. Are you gerbil jammer? Just get it back out alive. PETA will judge you. Whatever you are into…Do YOU!

When folks hear my annoyance with this phenomenon they assume I am a total slut. When I was single I would have dudes disrespectfully try to put hands on me. LOL! They learned. I ain't that chick to put hands on. I’m not saying I’m a slut, I’m not saying I’m not. That’s my grown woman business. And you need to keep your nose out of it.