Thursday, June 28, 2012



This year we have had 2 righteous brothers return to the essence in the Allah’s Garden cipher. Those deaths and peoples (5%, 10% and 85%) reactions, have really allowed me to cee how my perspective on death has changed.

When I was a Christian I believed in a glorious afterlife where I would be reunited with my 1st husband, uncle, Daddy, grandparents and childhood dogs. There would be no tears, I’d be eternally happy in my white robe with my white wings and halo. I would walk on streets paved with gold, sit at the mystery god’s feet and sing, eat and be happy for ever and ever. Amen! I believed that shit into adulthood.

One of the hardest things I had to face when I came into Knowledge of Myself was the fact that when we die, there is nothing waiting for us. There is no pie in the sky, there is no heaven, no hell, and there is no eternity in a box. There is just nothingness. Our degrees, 13:40, speak on this. I know folks do better and sleep better by thinking that there is a reward to come after death, or that their loved ones are waiting up yonder to be reunited with them. But that isn’t me…. Anymore. And that didn’t just come about overnight. That paradigm shift took some time.

But I see Gods and Earths who have had KOS for some time behaving like religious people. Saying shit like, “I know we will see each other again.” Or, “I know he is here with us right now.” To me that makes no sense. My understanding of returning to the essence means, your physical body breaks down into its elemental constituents. Now we know that doesn’t happen to most of us anymore, because people have to be embalmed because of hygiene laws. But we all know that bodies aren’t going to reanimate. “…In all the history of Islam it has never been revealed of a man returning from a physical death…” So what’s up with all the sentiment?

Folks can argue that it’s not the physical body, but the spirit and mind of whatever animated it in the first place. But tell me this before you argue that…. Where did it come from in the first place? Mind/body combo cannot be separated. When one is gone, so is the other.

Also… this is a pet peeve of mine…. Having return ceremonies in churches. I get that when many of us return, our families have no idea how to mark the event. What happens is the most responsible person in the personal cipher is usually a Christian or some type of religious person and we have these ceremonies in a church with a clergy person speaking on our lives and culture. Now this next statement may be highly judgmental but I’m not really caring... THAT IS SOME BULLSHIT. How are you going to spend years, months and days living out this culture only to return in a church? That is NOT mathematical. That is being unprepared.

I often wonder why this happens. I suspect most of the time it’s because we don’t educate our families about the culture. They don’t realize how inflammatory having a church funeral is. It’s the antithesis of all we build about. Letting a 10%er speak words on our behalf indeed. You think he is going to leave out the mystery god? Also we don’t have commitment rituals… and we don’t need any. But if you are true and living, you face reality. The reality is that we all will all die one day. We need to have insurance… Literal insurance to bury our Original asses. We need to have folks putting us away that know and understand our culture. Why not just cremate us and spread the asses then have a memorial moment. Is that not what the Father did? It is unsettling to see so many of our people being spoken on in death in a fashion they themselves would have never allowed in life. And that foolishness about the church is only a place, and the pastor is really speaking about the Gods? Really? Then why didn’t you sit your ass up in there every Sunday like a good Christian?

I’m just really spent and irritated at this moment. But it has sparked some planning in my Kingdom. The God and I have discussed what we want done when we die. And we have gotten life insurance so folks don’t have to beg on our behalf and hold fundraisers to properly put us in the ground.

I hope y’all taking note.


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Finishing What you start


I don’t like anything incomplete. I swear I don’t. I don’t like incomplete gifts. Don’t give me a top with no bottom unless I request it like that. If I do, chances are someone else is giving me the bottom part. I don’t give incomplete gifts either. If I purchase something for you, I do the entire outfit or I won’t just give you anything but my regards. I complete what I start. Even to my detriment. I can’t sleep well if I leave something undone. That’s just how I am. It’s innate. I was like this before KOS. And it has everything to do with today’s Supreme Mathematics Wisdom Cipher abbt to Wisdom.

Wisdom is wise words and actions. Cipher is completeness. I draw this up to mean that your ways and actions need to yield completeness. Meaning when you work, it should be toward a goal and you should work it until it’s done.

How many people have you seen go and come in the various ciphers that you frequent? I’m not just speaking to the righteous people out there. It seems to be a human failure to make promises that you don’t keep. (It’s no mistake that 11:14 is abbt Wisdom) When I was a church person, I’d see people get born again, join the church, join every auxiliary and then back slide into oblivion and never be seen or heard from again. Church people are so desperate to increase the rolls that they allow to happen over and over and over and over…… It happens with us too. People come into the cipher, promise to do all this work and bounce. That is not completion. The words/promises may be wise, but they did not yield a completed result.

We need to be mindful to guard against that type of behavior in our own selves. Notice I said own selves and not others. You can’t control another person’s behavior unless it’s your under age child. You can do that by doing the knowledge before giving your word.


Monday, June 18, 2012

Relationship Baggage

Peace Y'all,

This is not my normal build. And it is loaded with emotion. So if that turns you off, now is the time to bounce….

The God and I just got back from the metro NJ/NY area for Show and Prove. We had a really nice time at the S&P. On the way back, one of us neglected to put my luggage in the truck. We managed to drive all the way back to Allah’s Garden and didn’t notice it wasn’t in the truck. I was angry…. Very angry. But I knew that once the anger passed, I would find humor in it because that’s what I do. I asked the hotel to forward it to me at my expense. They declined. Luckily, my sister works in the city where my luggage was stranded. And she was able to ship my luggage to me through her job at no charge to her or me. So once I get my bag everything will work itself out.

This is part that has me annoyed…. A “friend” of mine made a comment that slapped me completely upside the head… She asked me if I was going to leave the 7. But she didn’t just say, “Are you going to leave him?” She called him all manner of trifling nigger and she has never even met him. (The 7 will hurt a woman’s feeling and/or administer physical justice. I don’t want them to meet because she might cause him to want to slap her) I had to restrain myself from not slapping the taste out of her mouth, myself. And that mercy is very unlike me but (a) I was at work and (b) I was the one who voluntarily offered the information… because it started to be funny to me.

Well I learned valuable lessons from the interaction….
Don’t take relationship advice from single people.
Don’t discuss my business with just anybody.
Don’t hold the man to standard higher than the ones I hold for myself.
Don’t be so quick to kick a good man to the curb.
I don’t have to defend my man to anybody. And I won’t.
And I need some married friends….

This chick has no man. None. She used to have a man, but she broke him down so deep that he slithered away from her. And he was the only dude that I know would put up with her foolishness. So how is this man-repelling heifer going to tell me how to keep my man? And my man is God, at that! She needs to shut the fuck up. That took me back to my parents’ tumultuous and ridiculous relationship. My mother has single friends and those friends were never happy for the others when they had men. Suffice to say, none of them have relationships with men. Oh, they all tried. None succeeded and now they are all old, and all alone. But they have each other. They are so close it wouldn't surprise me if I found out that they were lesbians together.

Another thing about this chick is she is a straight shit talker. Just a ridiculous mouth for a woman or anybody. A mouth like a split pocket. No refinement at all. And if I say that… me…. Who can and will curse a mug out at/in a church that is saying something. And it’s not that this woman is uneducated. She has a bachelors and 2 master’s degrees that she earned on her own dime. But she either never got the message that there is a way that you talk to people or she doesn’t care. Even when she is representing her job, she is crass. I’m thinking this is how she is, and I tend to give her passes for that reason and also because she is really very young and has limited life experience. I’m not sure she realizes this. I’ve seen other people do this too. But she went too far. She even had the nerve to ask me if I was going to leave him. Really? Over luggage! I had to check her. And I don’t think I ever did that before. She was very surprised and tried to recover to no avail.

Lets be real, I’m not leaving my man because he made a mistake that could be fixed. No. Not at all. But misery loves company and hurt people hurt people. I’m no longer in her company. I need to find some married friends.

This got me to thinking…. Women are really hard on men and make a lot of claims that I don’t believe are accurate. “All men are dogs.” Since animals rarely breed willingly outside their species, if a woman is getting dogs then that means she is a bitch. “Black men don’t want to work.” That isn’t something that you can really say unless you know ALL Black men. That’s just saying you interact with some pure fools. But I don’t. All my men work. If that isn’t your experience, then that says more about you than it does the genre of men. Women also hold men to a higher expectation than they would like men to hold them. If men are supposed to be the providers (and I’m not saying they aren’t supposed to be), then the women need to show and prove 14:14…. Like a mug. Make them biscuits from scratch honey and get on your hands and knees to scrub the floor. You want your man to stay with you in a nasty house while eating burger king.

I take full responsibility. I should not have discussed my personal business with outsiders. And it wasn’t like I was telling our personal intimate business. I was actually in shock that this happened and on some level I was working it out in my mind but out loud with other people. I’m not saying I should not have done it; I should have been more particular about who I built with. Yet another lesson learned.

Keep taking the best part.


Wednesday, June 6, 2012

5 AF:Flower Moon - Think Like a Woman!


May’s moon was a Super Moon. A Super moon is a full moon that appears 30% brighter and 14% bigger than a normal full moon. The source that I have been getting these full moon names from calls May’s moon the flower moon because flowers are abundant during this moon.

The Actual Fact that coincides with this moon is “Hills and mountains, 1,910,000 square miles.”

I will draw these up in combination to mean that there is Power in nature’s beauty of hills and mountains of women.

The slang for breasts and ass in our nation is “hills and mountains.” And 1,910,000 abbt Wisdom…. The Black woman. I have no problem acknowledging another woman’s beauty. I do no fear that it diminishes my own, nor am I afeared of being called or considered a lesbian. I know a few lesbians; I don’t meet the criteria for membership. But a woman should be able to offer more than a beautiful countenance and a shapely body.

Yes, your appearance has Powerful magnetic, but it’s a weak charge. Once possessed, a man can easily tire of it, or find another more beautiful. A woman must posses other traits that will show forth her Equality (5:SA). She could be intelligent, she could cook, she could sing like an angel, she could keep a clean house, something damnit! Otherwise when the bloom falls from the rose… and it will… there will be something left to keep said charge STRONG!

Enjoy the Show and Prove! Look for me there. I Blog While Brown too.