tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17454982670276772962024-03-14T00:09:51.937-04:00Serenity's CipherSLSPEarth@gmail.comBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.comBlogger436125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-77170385410748101022017-08-18T09:48:00.000-04:002017-08-18T09:48:02.872-04:00Today's Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Build/DestroyPeace,<br />
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The core of who I am... my foundation... is 5% ideology and Culture. It doesn't change no matter what I dabble in. and where as I am not a static individual... I grow, change, add on new while discarding that which no longer serves me... as I might investigate different modalities... I am still a true and living Earth<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-40780372378082263252017-08-04T10:14:00.001-04:002017-08-04T10:14:56.604-04:00Today's Supreme Mathematics: CulturePeace.<br />
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I’ve been working a new job since November. I suppose I shouldn’t call it a ‘new’ job, but it feels that way. I already know that I won’t be staying here for a long time… But it is what it is. This is not the kind of job that will give me a sound retirement. And I’ve reached the point of my life where that becomes more and more important.<br />
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But what happens at this Justice is…. My Ethiopian boss is obsessed with my lifestyle. When he hired me, my head was covered. I didn’t bring it up and he didn’t bring it up. He assumed I was a Muslim and I didn’t correct him. This went on for a few months until a patient asked me about some Muslim thing. I looked confused and said, “I’m not a Muslim.” My boss heard it and said. “You have to be.” I asked him why? He said because you cover your hair. I said that other Cultures cover heads, no just Muslims. That shit blew his mind.<br />
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He comes back and mentions that he could not think of any other religion outside of Christianity, Islam and Judaism. How is this my problem? I countered by naming over 15. He was floored, and I don’t know why. Was he surprised because I knew something he didn’t or because or that I dared to be other than what was familiar to him. As a grown assed, educated, traveled man he had to know that there was more than just what he has personally experienced. he's a Catholic who hasn't been to church since his daughter was baptized. Anywho….<br />
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Over and over and over and over…. He keeps challenging me with Christianity. Telling me that I can’t be a good person if I’m not a Christian. This shit is driving me crazy. I keep telling him that this isn’t appropriate conversation for him to be having with me at work. That this country allows certain freedoms. But still he goes on and on.<br />
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I’ve said all this to say…. I’m a walking, talking representative of Allah’s Culture. Clearly I’m different. I only wear dresses and yes my dresses are long. I cover my head. I don’t perm my hair. And I don’t discuss why I’m different with folks unless I Cee that they are open to calm dialogue. I’m set. I’ve been a Christian and I’m not going back. So there needs to be no discussion. I’m not casting pearls before swine. So if I don’t Cee you to be a viable candidate for our Culture, I’m not going through the pain to introduce you. (I know…. Our duty is to the uncivilized) But I’m not about to have a unnecessary discussion that can lead to that can lead to unemployment.<br />
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Also I consider, that I people will judge the Culture that I don’t discuss, by me… interactions, how I carry myself and so on. I get that. And In that getting I strive to be the best Earth that people unfamiliar with Allah’s 5% will ever meet.<br />
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Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-13222206250875534962017-08-02T09:43:00.001-04:002017-08-02T09:43:24.501-04:00The Love of MoneyPeace....<br />
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I know it's been awhile. Life has been happening on an exponential level. And where I'm firmly grounded in my own Cipher.... It hasn't been easy.<br />
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What prompted this Build, is other people.... and how they Cee life. <br />
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I mentioned that I lost the job I had for 13 years. It was a surprise, but I weathered it. I saw it as an opportunity to take the devil off the last available part of my planet. I have already put my life in an order to where I don't live with devils, or socialize with devils. I basically only came into contact with them when I was working. But when that went away.... I saw my opportunity to change that situation. So I currently work for a Black man (he calls himself Black) from Ethiopia. Which is technically part of the "cradle of civilization." I saw an opportunity to reconnect with a part that I had never experienced... <br />
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My new boss is not much different from my old boss. The color of their skin is different, but their world view is similar. And their world view is similar to so many folks world view.... Money or the acquisition of wealth.<br />
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I like money as much as the next person. But I Cee money for what it is... a way to finance my desires. I earn it. I don't worship it. But many people don't see money in the same way. My boss for example.... he has two jobs making a VERY comfortable income on his own. In addition to <i>his </i>money, his wife is a pharmacist. The two of them are not hurting for money. But that is all they do. Make money. I have asked them what they do for fun. Neither of them have fun. They don't read books. They don't travel unless they have to. They have no extra curricular activities. They are even hard pressed to tell me what they enjoy. Now they may be just bullshitting me... But they aren't shy about asking me a ton of personal questions about what I enjoy and my lifestyle. So that would have me conclude is their sole purpose in life is to acquire wealth and possessions.<br />
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That sounds like hoarding to me. If your goal in life is to only have shit, then you're a hoarder. If your aren't going to use or enjoy the shit you rack up then why earn it? Some people like to work and work so they have millions in the bank. I'm not here to tell you what you should be enjoying. If looking at a fat assed bank account every month gives you wood, then get at it! But I don't think that's accurate for most people.<br />
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Money is a means to something else. I often make the joke that I work for cable. I love cable television and I need a nice TV to watch it on and a comfortable space to enjoy. That's true! But I also work because I like not having to worry about bills. I work because I like to have have nice clothes. I like to to travel. I like to learn new things and take classes. I will take a class, that I have to pay for, for no other reason but I enjoy the content. There is a bunch of shit I like to do. And I need money for that. So I'm clear why I work. But other folks want and want, but don't have a plan outside the cash how to achieve their goal. Example: Say, you want a house. How are you going to get one? are you going to work and save up a couple of hundred thousand dollars and buy a house? If that's your plan, then get Jamaican with your work because you're going to need to. But if you plan to get a mortgage.... Do you know how? Have you done the research? Do you already know what the house will cost? Where you want it? How do mortgages work? What else is involved? Maybe a house is too big for folks to comprehend. A car isn't. so are you going to buy your car outright? Or are you just putting money aside forever and eventually something will happen to allow you to purchase a car. Sounds crazy doesn't it. It is. And that's the point I'm making. People want money. But when I ask for what? They don't have any real answer. I suppose just to have it. But money will not fix all your problems. If you contract an incurable condition... Money won't stop you from dying. yes you will have a nice funeral but dead is dead. Eddie Long went out like a champ. But his wife now has all his money. You can't take it with you.<br />
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Money is an illusion. There are a ton of apocalyptic movies out there, where devils actually tell you you're money is just paper. And the federal government will print more money as they deem necessary. If a nuclear bomb drops on Washington D.C. and destroys the US, providing you live, all the money you have been working for won't get you shit. Because it will be gone. Literally. Money is a government backed concept so when the government goes... your money goes with it. Should that happen, what do you have to fall back on? What would you do for fun? How would you support yourself? Where is the pleasure in the acquisition of wealth then?<br />
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I'm not saying don't work. But I am saying the work ain't the end all be all. Make sure there is plenty in your life that you enjoy. Because is what makes life worth living!<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-68422512888828511202017-05-11T12:07:00.000-04:002017-05-11T12:07:29.786-04:00Gender RolesPeace<br />
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It is important for folks when they find they gender role to be true and honest in expression. For it affects your destiny.....<br />
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And I’m a preface this by saying I’m a female and I’m going to mark this Build like a female. Everything I’m saying can apply to men or others, but you have to translate it. And that’s your job. Not mine.<br />
Men and women are different. It’s not just our genitals that make us different but just about everything in life.... We each have our own natures and that is right and exact. We don’t need everyone to be doing the same things. Men go out and hunt. They don’t need to be distracted by the pretty flowers. Women can see different spectrum… That’s useful when we are striving to find medicinal plants. We can taste different aspects of food too. Also good for determining if food is spoiled. Our hearing is more precise. So we can hear our babies when they are in distressed and specifically our own babies. Our outlook, our jobs, our familial responsibilities..... Every fucking thing…. All different. Don’t drink the KoolAid when they tell women to think like a man. There is nothing wrong with how we think. And men think disturbing thoughts.<br />
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I’m a female. Born that way, identify as a female. Therefore I need to act like a female. I had this realization more than a decade ago. I used to wear pants and sneakers all the time. I’m naturally tomboy hard and that was coming out like gangbusters. Lesbians approached me more than men. So much in fact that was getting offended. I’m not homophobic, but I wanted men to approach me and not women. I was giving off an energy that was contrary to what I wanted. Also, my cycles became irregular. Think about it, if I was trying to be a man, why would I need a cycle?<br />
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So, I started wearing only dresses and skirts. Well….. If you are wearing skirts, you need to wear heeled shoes and not sneakers. Now that I have on a dress and shoes, I can’t walk all butch, and I can’t walk anywhere I want. I now have to be ladylike. And the men responded. If a man saw me in a struggle with pants on, they let me struggle. But if a man saw me struggle in a dress, they came to my aid. They opened doors…. Reached items I couldn’t reach… helped me over puddles and gravel…. carried heavy packages for me…. Spoke to me in a more respectful manner. I will not trade that for anything. It’s what’s kept me in skirts/dresses for nearly 15 years. But I had to get myself in a position where I could also RECEIVE male energy. That is something that women do all the time. It not only affects the women receiving the energy, but it repels the men giving it. If a man offers me a seat on the bus/train, I ALWAYS take it. Even if I don’t need or want it. Men need to take care of women and women need to feel cared for. I want that man to always offer a seat to women. Maybe there is a sickly, or elderly, or pregnant woman who needs a seat. I want that man to know she won’t rebuff him.<br />
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My point is..... If you are a woman and want to be a woman.... embrace the whole package. There is nothing wrong with it. If you strive to be a man because you perceive you have to, then you will truly become a man. You’ll lose your curves and they will be replaced with muscle. Your voice will deepen. You will develop facial hair. You will attract all the male issues and problems into your life and you have not been taught or socialized how to handle them. In the end you will crack up. <br />
I went to Catholic school. Nuns aren’t feminine… at all. You can actually tell how long a woman has been a nun by how masculine she looks. If she has a high voice and hips, she’s a neophyte. But those long term nuns… deep voices, no curves, goatees and masculine demeanors. They got Jesus. They don’t need another man. Priests in turn, are effeminate. Now this is a tricky issue because a lot of gay men turn to the priest hood. But they have no need to be masculine unless they are striving to move up the priestly ranks. So they lose the base in their voices and other things.<br />
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There is nothing wrong with being “high maintenance” or a “gold digger”. Don't let those titles offend you. What man wants a busted looking woman? Women naturally make their surroundings comfortable. We nest. Our nests need to be comfortable for our babies. So High maintenance? Bring that shit right here! And women are not natural providers. Men are. So a man with some means? Bring that man to me! It’s his job to provide for me and our children. I, in turn, will give him a home that he can be comfortable in. <br />
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I’m a Black woman. But I’m not a strong Black woman. I work and make money. But I don’t provide for my family. That’s my husband’s job. But my job is to care, and take care of my family intuitively. And I do that. When I was single and had to do the man thing for myself.... I allowed myself female trappings of crying when I had to do man’s work. That was a sacrifice to wash away the male energy. And I went all in on the girly to counteract the masculine. And I was single as long as I chose to be. Don’t be confused... Men want women. Not women that buck, but women who are soft. And I’m not saying doormats. There is a mighty power in femininity. But in this age, we are not taught how to use it. If your expectation is you have to do for self because you don’t want to rely on a man. Then you’re reality is you won’t get one. <br />
You don’t just commit to a destiny with your words. Your actions play a part as well....<br />
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Peace<br />
Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-6744121692520782222017-04-05T11:28:00.000-04:002017-04-05T11:28:03.467-04:00Manless WomenPeace…..<br />
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This is not going to be a well-received post. It really isn’t. But what can I say? I’m a truth speaker. And maybe this might soothe a torn relationship.<br />
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My father used to tell me all the time that I needed to hang with women that were in the same “life situation” as me. Meaning, if I had children then I should be friends with other mothers. If was married, my friends should also be married. And so on…. He said that women in particular could be jealous of a situation that they didn’t possess. That statement bothered me immensely because my friends were starting to get married and have children. That meant that I would have to get brand new friends that I had no Koran with, and that unsettled me. But Daddy didn’t give life advice all that often and…. It was usually right on target. Through the years, it turned out to be exactly the truth. It never stopped being unsettling though. Especially since I’m a person that doesn’t make friends easily. But I find that even now… having friends outside my station leads to unnecessary stress.<br />
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I’m a married woman. That means I have responsibilities to my husband and household. I can’t just drop everything and hang out with the girls. I need some advanced notice. My husband expects things from me. He wants to spend time with me when he comes home from work. And he wants a home cooked meal. He understands that I need time out to be a girl (I am VERY girly), but I also need time with him and the cat. And that is something single women need to understand.<br />
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My husband is not subjugating me with these expectations. I knew this before I married him. And in knowing all that, it’s disrespectful for me to flout those agreed upon expectations. So…. Now…. I have to mitigate my relationship with my manless-women friends. I’m sorry ladies, I need to know well in advance if we are going to hang out during family time. It’s not that I need to get permission to hang with you, but I have to make some adjustments. If we are going out on Wednesday, I have to pre-cook dinner. I’ll have to find some extra time with the God during the previous week. Maybe I let him watch the game in the bedroom rather than banish him to the man cave. And, most importantly, I will tell him in advance that I’m going out. That’s super fair. But for him to just come home and I’m not there, no food is cooked and I don’t get home until he’s asleep is not fair to him. And if he did that to me….. there would be a super problem. <br />
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And I don’t need to hear your mouth telling me…. Someone’s wife…. How to control MY husband. Let me let you in on a little secret. Happily married women don’t tell other women how to ‘control’ their men. We may tell each other things that we do to make our spouses happy, but we understand that every man is different. and I get there there are situations where single women aren't necessarily "single" in the mind. I was previously widowed, I still behaved like a married woman for years after the event. Also women who are in polygamous relationships are somewhere in the middle. But both of those situations, the women have men.... It's just part time or something else. But if you have NO man… you really have nothing to share to those of us that do have men. I’m just saying….<br />
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Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-10491586851683608972016-12-22T12:06:00.001-05:002016-12-22T12:06:53.181-05:00Christmas....Peace.<br />
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It's the holiday season for most folks. It isn't for me, though. But somehow I think you knew that. Gods and Earths don't celebrate Christmas.... or we shouldn't. I get the xmas has 2 sides: the religious side and the secular side. We aren't religious people but the secular side is no less religious. You just exchange Jesus for Santa Claus. Santa has a back story and there are practices. How is it different from Jesus? That being said.... I stopped celebrating Christmas long before I went under instruction...<br />
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My mother and I have issues.... But she always got the gift giving holidays right. Birthdays and xmas were awesome in our house. I was very lucky to have parents who had their finances in order. Except for when I asked for a Walkman... that cost $700 back then.... I always got whatever I asked for. Lucky little girl I was!. Mommie was good about keeping her secrets so you really didn't know what was happening until it did. One xmas, she was in the hospital and still managed to pull off wrapped gifts, breakfast and everything!<br />
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B.U.T..... As I got older, xmas fell off. Xmas is really time for children. At least that's how it's always been for me. I was the youngest and once I was too old for the childish celebration, it stopped entirely. My mother would decorate the window instead of putting up a tree. And she would return a gift if you didn't buy her one of equal or greater value. We didn't even share a meal as a family anymore. Christmas is for kids. My 1st xmas of being a wife, my husband and I put up an elaborate tree. I bought a ton of presents to make xmas morning exciting. He bought 1 gift. It wasn't exciting to me. Again, I was slapped in the face with the fact that xmas was for kids. My late husband did buy me a nice and expensive gift but it wasn't his nature to do up the holidays or birthdays like my biological family. We got into the habit of travelling on xmas so there was no need to decorate.<br />
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After H1 died... I still remained a dutiful christian for a few more years. I only put a tree up once. I had a xmas party so you need a tree for that and a man I was dating decided to give me a real tree after I told him I never had one before. It was kinda cool... until my cat peed on it. That year I had 2 1/2 trees and only 2 gifts for me under any of them. This is not my idea of xmas so I gave it up. I knew I probably wasn't ever going to have children so I'm not going through the effort.<br />
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Now that I'm a righteous, true and living Earth.... I hardly think of xmas. I don't celebrate it. I would love to work through it and get paid time in a half! The God and I literally stay in bed all day and eat Chinese food for dinner. The only gift I buy is for my mother. So she doesn't tell folks her heathen daughter doesn't love her. She sells that shit really well because I don't go to church with her... and I'm not. That's xmas for me. New years looks pretty much the same... I don't stay up anymore. I love being this age. The age of "I really don't give AF!"<br />
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I earned my flag on Christmas Day in 2009!Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-33359304666888685862016-12-16T11:19:00.001-05:002016-12-16T11:19:42.997-05:00Today's Mathematics: Knowledge EqualityPeace.<br />
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A couple of days ago, I visited an old friend. This woman and I share a profession. She actually practices said profession, where I just hold the degree. Still and all it was a pleasant visit. We had been cool in the past and quickly got caught up. BUT.... there's always a but right? She, in her way, judged me for not pursuing my career.<br />
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This judgement is not new to me. My godmother said for all in the cipher to hear that I am a huge disappointment to my mother. I mean she said it as casually as one would remark about the weather. And she wonders why I don't call her. I'm used to hearing this over and over again. But on Tuesday, it kind of pissed me off. <br />
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I don't get why folks feel comfortable judging other folks. I'm not going to say I don't judge folks... But I don't really. I mean if I see someone I don't know wearing something shady, I will in a passing, wonder where her friends are. But when it comes to people I know, I trust them to make their own decisions. Because at the end of the day.... Their decisions really don't have any affect on my own life. I can show and prove it.... I have a friend who makes soooooo many poor choices. But that's her life to live. Not mine. I mentally support her through the consequences of her actions; but I have no dog in her race.<br />
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So my professional friend in her effervescent pity of my life had to get them words. I asked her how her husband was. She said fine. I let her know <b>my <i></i></b>husband was fine too. I asked her how her family was. I let her know <b>my<i></i></b> family was fine as well. I asked her when her last vacation was. She said she hasn't had one in years. I let her know where I had recently visited and where I'm going next. I asked her about hobbies that I know she likes. She's too busy to busy to do any of them. We used to belong to the same book club, so I asked her what she was reading. She's too busy to read. See where I'm going with this? But after about 30 minutes, she got the picture I was throwing. In a last ditch effort she strived for shade and asked me about my finances. She knows that I had a period of unemployment. I let her know that at no point in my extended vacation did I miss a meal or want for something I needed. I also reminded her that in our 15 year friendship, never have I asked for a penny or a ride to the airport. I just wanted to laugh with an old friend.<br />
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But this is a righteous 5% blog. So I should be able to draw up the situation in degrees right? Well..... I can. I counteracted her judgement by forcing her to acknowledge the Equality of our lives. Yes she is working the career that we went to school for. But is she living better than I? I've been to her mansion. She has to work <b>HARD </b>to pay for that. My home is modest in comparison, but even after being unemployed for 8 months, I was able to meet my financial responsibilities. She couldn't do that if the tables were reversed. But that is the Equality of our lives. She's not living better than me. And she needed to be shown that.<br />
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There's a reason I haven't seen her in 6 years.....<br />
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Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-22390017663389092862016-11-24T09:41:00.000-05:002016-11-24T09:41:03.941-05:00ThanksgivingPeace. <br />
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I celebrate Thanksgiving. I fix a big vegetarian meal with far too many starches and a ton of desserts, I assemble some friends (because my family ain't shit when it comes to Thanksgiving) and we EAT! I know a lot of G's And E's stand with the indigenous people of this wilderness and fast. Well...... I don't see it like that.<br />
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When I 1st went under instruction, I found it interesting in the Student Enrollment, that when numbering the Original people in the US, they added the Native Americans separate. Hmmmm..... Are they not our brothers and sisters in the struggle? Did not the devil do devilshment to them as well? Should we not be ALL counted as one?<br />
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HELL NO!<br />
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I don't hate Native Americans... perse'. What I have for them is nothing. Feelings of concern have been counteracted by feelings of animosity. him/devil has shit all over Native Americans... giving them diseases, out right exterminating them, stealing their land, putting them on reservations.... that should earn my sympathy. And it would. If the Native Americans hadn't shown and proven themselves to be hypocrites. <br />
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Native Americans held African slaves. For reals. They treated their slaves the same way white people treated slaves. When slavery ended in the US... the Native people kept their slaves since they were considered separate country within a country. When the developed their treaty with the US that would absorb them into society proper, yes they freed their Black slaves but refused to let them be included in the concessions the US government was giving Natives. I suppose they didn't want the Black folks to dilute their benefits. As if there wasn't enough to go around. We like education and healthcare. And if we were living on reservations.... Life would be LIT AF!<br />
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Fast forward to today... Native Americans refuse to let folks who have the appropriate DNA play in their reindeer games. What the fuck is the government giving them that they need to keep it so close??? I get them not wanting people to appropriate their culture, but when you keep it secret, you don't give folks the opportunity to care about your issues. But you can't hold folks responsible for caring about something they have no Knowledge of. As I look through civil rights footage, I don't necessarily see them. I know they were probably hiding in plain sight, but if you don't formally stand for the cause... and I mean stand with your body, money, time, children etc... just not standing in your living room and on the internet... then you didn't do shit. YET... they want us to care about their plight. If it wasn't for the Dakota pipeline issues, I would be unaware of their presence. Until they start protesting Thanksgiving. And this goes for all they different groups with their protests.... stop stealing Black folks ideas. Set your own precedence. We would like to be able to bite every now and then, rather than having to come up with fresh ideas all the time. <br />
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So yes, native people are Original people. Just because they're brown, don't make them kin...<br />
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Enjoy your Holiday.<br />
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PEACE!<br />
Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-35339129103437837862016-11-17T10:21:00.000-05:002016-11-17T10:21:40.837-05:00Today's Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge GodPeace....<br />
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I know its been awhile since I built. Y'all know that I HATE typing from home. There is just no comfy place to sit down and really get my thoughts out. I think it's because I see building as a scholarly pursuit and scholarly pursuits should happen at a desk... outside the home. That's just me. Home is for me to take off my headwrap and chill.....<br />
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But I got a gig! A Justice Cipher Born! It's part time, but it's laid back. and I can pay my share of household bills with the money I earn. It will be tight, but I think I can manage. If I can't.... that's what the God is for! My boss is an original Black man from Africa. I mean directly from Africa. Ethiopia actually. I've never worked for a Black man before. I've worked for a Black woman... not pleasant... But never a Black man. That sounds crazy when I say it, when I type it... But it's true. The closest I've ever worked for a Black man, that wasn't my father, was in college and grad school. And that didn't really count. Those jobs were just a work study exploit. <br />
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So far, so good... When I interviewed, I wore my headwrap, as I did to all my interviews. He didn't bat an eye. At other interviews, they would openly stare at my head. I kind of expected that, but what can I do? I'm a headwrap wearing Earth! There was a discussion about how I don't wear pants and my coworkers were shocked. But the boss said that was an honorable decision that I, and American woman, has made. <br />
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Even though my new boss is a Christian, I will still work for him as I've worked for no other. I want to see this man succeed. Because he employs only Original people and the patients are Black. I don't know if that's by design... I've been here long enough to get a paycheck that cleared. He comes across as a caring person and he's not made a power move on me. I don't think I'm Halle Berry, but that is a recurrent problem I have and I don't know why.<br />
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So keeping with Today's Supreme Math of Knowledge God abbt Build/Destroy.... I see my boss as having God potential with low God probability. He is not ever gonna go under NGE instruction, but remains eligible. And where as I have little Knowledge about the expectations of working with a Black man I will give him my best to Build this practice.<br />
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And since I'm employed again y'all.... I'll be posting more!!!<br />
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PEACE!Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-76572484241582537002016-08-30T11:45:00.001-04:002016-08-30T11:45:17.740-04:00Mommie...Peace,<div><br></div><div>My mother is old. She's 78 but acts 108. I'm not saying that to be mean. But it is what it is.</div><div><br></div><div>Mother and I have never gotten along. We love each other because we are related. But we wouldn't be friends without that connection. She doesn't like anything I've done with my life. But I love the life I've crafted. I find it fulfilling. But to my mother, I'm a great disappointment.</div><div><br></div><div>My mother isn't going to change. It's impossible for her to change. Not only has she set in her ways... That set is about circa 1998. When she looks at me, she doesn't see a grown woman, she sees a 14 year old child. For some reason she refuses to accept that I'm grown. She makes demands on me that are really ridiculous with complete expectation that I will comply. </div><div><br></div><div>Example: She, for some reason, can't stay alone in her home where she has lived for 20 years at night. So she pays someone to stay with her. It's a sweet gig too. Someone gets paid $300/week in cash to sleep! But when the babysitter can't make it, it's my job to sleep here. That might seem reasonable if I didn't live 4 hours away. She expects me to drop everything and come here to sit on a couch all day. That is some bullshit.</div><div><br></div><div>The 14 year old thing comes into play because I have to tell her where I'm going and when I'll be back. Again, that may sound reasonable until you realize that if she thinks I shouldn't go she expects me to not go. No reasons given. I'm just supposed to not go. Incredibly frustrating. She'll steal items that she doesn't like me wearing. And she buys me clothes I'll never wear. </div><div><br></div><div>There is also no food for me here ever. I've been a vegetarian for 17 years. Is there fruit and veggies for me when I'm summoned? No. And when I go and purchase them she gets offended. She expects me to eat the food she provides. And the provided food is meat and swine laced.</div><div><br></div><div>I suppose this sounds like I'm whining... And I might be. But what most bothers me... And this is so selfish... She's no longer a mother. I can't call on her for advice. Her advice is antiquated and not useful in this technological age. The job market is different... Relationships are different. The world has left her behind. She's not a useful parent anymore. And it's not that I need one. But it would be nice to have....</div><div><br></div><div>I just needed to vent.</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>Peace</div>Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-69436386322332702982016-07-29T17:42:00.001-04:002016-07-29T17:42:44.039-04:00Rants....Peace.<div><br></div><div>I'm telling you right now that this is a rant. I'm pissed and I feel like sharing. If you think I'm talking to you.... I don't fucking care. What are you gonna do about it? Any ways.....</div><div><br></div><div>I'm an Earth. True and living. I display 3/4ths when I'm abroad. It's what I do. It's what I CHOOSE to do. I always wear something on my head. I always have most of my body covered. I don't generally wear pants. That's Serenity. </div><div><br></div><div>Just because I do it like this, doesn't mean I'm open to your commentary. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm old school. When I was a teen, this is how Earths I saw/knew displayed themselves. I wasn't Earth back then, but I built with Earths and was truly impressed with the ideology behind 3/4ths. When I went under instruction, I covered my head and never looked back. I stopped wearing pants 4 years before I went under instruction and stopped eating meat 10 years prior. I say that to say that I was already in the civilizing mindset.</div><div><br></div><div>There are Earths that want to argue me down that I'm doing it wrong. That 3/4ths is in the mind. That my God would prefer a pretty Earth. Ummm.... Fuck off and mind your business. </div><div><br></div><div>I don't see 3/4ths as a fraction. I see it as both are are applicable. You know the way when people say "and/or" they mean both. I don't need to diminish my Understanding by Culture. Both Understanding/Culture manifesting at the same damn time leads to my outward appearance. And I stand on it like my heels were attached with gorilla glue.</div><div><br></div><div>This Nation doesn't ask much of its women. We aren't required to learn 120. It's nice, but not required the way it is for Gods. But we get the privilege of being the public face of our beloved Nation. When I walk next to the God, only I look different than the 85. The God doesn't. My Refinement and wrap set me apart. I even have my head covered on my drivers license! I had to get permission to do that. I'm prepared to proclaim to the government that I'm a 5%er! But other Earths ain't feeling it. I <span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">wonder why? Seriously. I can't imagine not wanting to represent. </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Now here is the rant... It pisses me completely he fuck off when other Gs and Es have something to say about me!!!! Really? Like all the fucking way really?!?!?!?! I don't call Earths on their display. That's between them and their Gods. What the fuck do YOU care how I represent? I'm not your Earth. Jokers done talked to Precise about me! Man..... Some people are lucky I don't always carry my God You Now.... Again.... Mind your fucking business. I'm minding mine....</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Notice I didn't say Peace....</span></div>Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-66137489182339222672016-07-22T08:09:00.001-04:002016-07-22T08:09:28.829-04:00To know, to Dare, to Will and to Keep Silent...Peace. <div><br></div><div>The said title refers to a Wiccan phraseology. Don't worry. Serenity ain't about to jump ship. It seems so appropriate to the times in which we are living and jives with 5% ideology that puts knowledge before you act.</div><div><br></div><div>I'm thinking about the times we live. There are 2 Americas. White people have come out of their racism closets to be loud and proud. The media would have you believe that half of the country is homosexual. Police brutality have reeked havoc on the Black community and we are told to ignore it. Our politicians are lying to our faces and breaking laws but are still being forced upon us. Folks working square 40 hr/week jobs can't afford to support themselves and families. Education is robbing us by not teaching everyone fairly or costing us our livelihood with student loans. </div><div><br></div><div>We have decided to fight back... But publicly. Meaning, we are organizing and sharing plans via social media. And this is where my problem lies...</div><div><br></div><div>How tf are you gonna tell the devil your plan to undermine him and dont think he's not going to thwart your plans??? If you are going to boycott something... Don't tell them up front. devils know how to handle boycotts. It's not new. It was new in the 50's. Today... Not so much. I support the boycotts but the ones that appeared on my phone rather than discussed on Twitter and Facebook. And really.... Boycotts? Time for innovation. Boycotts, marching and protesting was last century. How about suing the shit out of folks for mistreatment? You probably won't win, but the other party will have anty up for the representation. Supporting Black banks is admirable... But who CONTROLS the federal reserves of which the bank is amenable? I've had the experience of having funds in a Black bank that failed. You lose money. How about coordinated destruction of.... Well I'm a let that one go. The NSA us real and looking at shit. </div><div><br></div><div>My point is this... 1950's & 1960's tactics didn't work then and aren't going to work now. If they did... Then we wouldn't have problems now. We need to come up with new unexpected strategies and.... We need to keep our plans QUIET.</div><div><br></div><div>I can Build on anything....</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>Peace</div>Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-58103867722879437752016-07-04T21:28:00.001-04:002016-07-04T21:28:58.869-04:00Today's Supreme Mathematics: CultureYou celebrate Independence Day but think Juneteenth is stupid? GTFOH!!!!<div><br></div><div>Know your Culture!</div>Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-84040778770275852852016-06-30T10:35:00.001-04:002016-06-30T10:35:31.425-04:00Today's Mathematics: Understanding CipherPeace.<br />
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I know it's been awhile. I hate blogging from home. It never feels comfortable to me. But I love sharing my thoughts and views far too much to just stop blogging. It's just that I'll probably be doing it less....<br />
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Today's Supreme Mathematics is Understanding Cipher. I feel it's apropos for a Build on this Jessie Williams controversy. Oh I'm not really going to comment on what he said, nor am I going to get into the light skin biracial debate. Those are internal convos for Black only audiences. What I am going to comment on is white people's response....<br />
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I saw a post where Mr. Williams was called a "nigger" by every white person that responded. Hmmm.... I know white people call Black people niggers. I don't like it, but I can't fight every white person that says it. They don't like it when we call them devils and beckies. becky.... a simple term that is an insult, but actually quite entertaining. Anywho.... Why are white people having an issue with what the God said? Every word was true. But it is their nature to cause discord so him/devil is doing what he is designed to do... Causing trouble amongst the righteous people.<br />
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Another question I have is, why are white people watching the BET awards? It ain't for or about them. We aren't watching the Country Music awards. No white person has ever won a Lifetime Achievement Award from BET. So they can't be watching the show to see their own excellence. They are spying on us. Lurking in the dark to rob us of our Culture. And as soon as we say that publicly... They mad.<br />
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Another sneaky tool of the devil is validation. Many Black folks look to white folks for validation. These sleeping black folks want white people to agree and cosign with their activities and views. Stop it.<br />
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White people have their own spaces and actively work to keep entry restricted from said places (unless we are doing menial work). But when Black people do the very same thing, they have a problem with it. Why? Black people don't need 'help' from the white man. White people REFUSE to leave us to our own devices. 8:14 speaks on this. him/devil fear that we will will excel without them. and even if we don't excel and just maintain, that means that we never needed them in the 1st place. And for people who are as ego driven as devils, that is a thought that is unacceptable to their borg collective. That one concept will cause them to self destruct.<br />
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I, an original Black Queen, I Understand the devil and his Cipher. I absolutely do. I have no choice. We all do. We live in his wilderness... We buy his food and products... We have been educated in his institutions... His face is on our money... he forced us to Understand him. But the devil doesn't have the same Understanding of who we are. Therein lies OUR power. That's why they have to observe us in our personal spaces. He knows that if we know he's watching we will flip the script. <br />
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When slavery ended, white folks didn't give us a thought outside their own comfort. And you know what we did when left all alone? We created our own communities, businesses and culture. I still remember that scene for the old Roots miniseries, when white people broke into Alex Haley's father's home and were struck by the high level of civilization of the surroundings. Even saying that they don't live that clean. And it's true. I've been to enough white people's homes to know they don't live better than Black folks. But that's not information they want you to have. I really love how white folks can't find "Black Twitter"!!!! Even went as far to say it doesn't exist. HA! And every single fucking time we excelled... white folks ruined it. Black Wall streets... destroyed. I would dare say every race riot was caused when Black folks decided they were through with the devil. Even integration has destroyed Black Culture. Integration gave Black folks the ability to use white services... At the expense of our own services. The subliminal pin that got lodged in our heads was, white stuff is better than Black stuff. Example: HBCUs. 1 + 1 = 2 no matter where you go. But white folks want you to believe their spin on knowledge is superior. Today HBCU enrollment is way down. Down to the point we are beginning to lose them even though tuition is cheaper than at PWIs. SMH.... another example is busing. Black students were bussed and integrated white schools and not the other way around. Have you ever seen a picture of white people being escorted into a Black school? No. It didn't happen. So the message is that all Black schools are inferior to all white schools. You have no chance in life if you do everything Black. You have to leave Black communities and go white to be successful. Actually that's the measure of success. Big. Fucking. Lies!<br />
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I done took the devil off my planet. I'm Blackity Black y'all. I want that for all of us.<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-91123672101441278512016-04-21T17:59:00.002-04:002016-04-21T17:59:16.108-04:00RIPPeace!<br />
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Prince died today! I'm a moderate Prince fan. I had plenty albums... yes albums! But for some reason, folks made you choose between Prince and Michael Jackson and I chose MJ. It is what it is. I stayed following Prince because he never got any stranger than he already was. Even through those "Artist" years. We all know that MJ went way to the left...<br />
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But the point of my build is this.... DEATH is the true litmus test to how much of a 5%er you are.<br />
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My sister-in-law and I had a conversation a few years ago that crystallized this for me... She asked me where did 5%ers believed they went when they died? I said we don't have an afterlife and when you die your dead. I also pointed out that we don't have a mystery god to give us the illusion of comfort. She got super quiet and said... "I don't like that!" Folks know religion is a gaffle but they find comfort in the illusion. a lot of us, talk the talk... but when shit gets real... we flip flop. If that's you... we aren't alike.<br />
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When my father died, I was new in this Culture. About 3 months along. I was looking for comfort something that never came. Finally I had to accept that my daddy was gone and I will never see him again. That shit hurt. But I didn't break. When my brother died.... I was years into the Culture. I already knew. And I was okay with it, because I had to be. Death is inevitable and there isn't a damn thing I can do to intercede. When you're gone... you're gone. Be respectful... but accept it. <br />
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"...In all the history of Islam it has never been revealed of a man returning from a physical death...."<br />
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Y'all.... I lost my job. I'm pissed but not really pissed. I'd been working there for 13 years, so I had a semblance of job security. HA! But the job was beneath me. I took this job in 2004 because I wanted to get back into the working world. My 1st husband died in 2003, and when he died I wasn't working. I started this job a year after my late husband died, just to get back to the regularity of going to work every day. I only meant to be there 6 months... Then the economy tanked, and I was stuck there. I had been applying for jobs the whole time I was employed. Here is the funny thing about Georgia... They don't want to consider you for a job if you have a job. I know... go figure. <br />
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I say this job was beneath me, because it is a job that only requires a high school diploma. I have 2 degrees; one of which is a doctorate! I was REALLY wasting my time there. But as much as I felt like it was beneath me... you know what is even more beneath me? Being homeless and hungry. Not being able to pay my bills and have stuff... To have to live with my mother.... The job allowed me to remain autonomous. I'd rather work, than not work.<br />
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So this is my mathematics.... After taking a week to plot all kind of evilness against my former employer, including a voodoo doll I made in his likeness... I have gotten to the point where I have organized a job search. Georgia unemployment is 14 weeks. 14 WEEKS!!! That's 3 1/2 months!!! and its not a lot of money. I will be living close to the cuff. I have done the Knowledge. I've decided my next job will make use of the degrees I earned. That's the most important thing for me. What was the point of all my education? It took a long time to earn and I am still paying for the doctorate. I've made a list of the places where I would like to work. I'm going to use the resource of the unemployment office to do the things that I cannot do at home. Like make copies and such. I'm not too good to use the unemployment office. My actions will be rooted in the Knowledge that I am a qualified applicant for all the jobs I'm applying. The Understanding will come with the manifestation of my new job. I won't be willing to take another shit job until week 12. Then all bets are off. I've got grown woman bills to pay....<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-23312112573674052822016-04-11T08:39:00.000-04:002016-04-12T16:02:07.136-04:00Today's Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Knowledge Peace,<br />
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Today's Supreme Math is Knowledge Knowledge abbt to Wisdom. I see that to mean, Be sure of what you know before you act on it. Acting on it is often done via speech. It so pisses me off when people who don't know what they are talking about, talk.... and keep talking. <br />
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You gonna tell me about my Culture? Okay... why? Because your mama's old boyfriend from the 1980's was righteous? Awww.... Isn't that sweet. Oh your going to tell em how to sew? So helpful... But you don't know that there are different feet out there nor do you know how to make 1 adjustment. Oh you didn't know you can make adjustments??? Puddin'..... You gonna tell me how to run my office? But you don't know how to work the software or how to run at least 1 report. You've been working here what 2 years and I have been working here 15? So thoughtful. Oh, you're gonna tell me how to get along with my mother? You haven't met her and you assume that in my ENTIRE life I've never tried to have a conversation with her? Right..... Oh, you're gonna tell me how to keep my man? But you don't have one? So sweet. Oh, your going to tell me how to care for my natural hair? But you JUST went natural 3 months ago and now you're an expert. Oh, You're going to advise me on how to cook raw food, but first you need to borrow my vitamix?<br />
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Sometimes taking the best part means just to keep your mouth closed. <br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-76640143001554957572016-03-15T09:03:00.001-04:002016-03-15T09:03:36.024-04:00Reflection....Peace.<br />
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I know I've been quiet. I've been fasting/cleansing. And whenever I do that I like to get into a quiet space to do some personal contemplation. I use the revelations to carry me over to the next cleansing event. This season... Not many new revelations. But the 10:36 always, Always, ALWAYS comes to mind.<br />
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I've been sick this past year. Sick enough to submit myself to western medicine. But guess what? They found nothing. They said I was stressed and overweight. That is really not a useful diagnosis. That is what they tell people when they have no idea what's wrong with you. I know this to be true because I have practiced western medicine. But there is a certain comfort in knowing that my issues cannot be identified by the physicians. It means my cure does not lie with them.<br />
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I've been a pescatarian for nearly 20 years. That's a long time. I currently don't have the problems that a person of my age has. No early signs of diabetes.... no high blood pressure... no cholesterol.... no arthritis... no nothing. That confused the physicians more than my symptoms. That is because I eat the right foods.<br />
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Food is an integral part of a given Culture. By choosing to not eat the way most Americans eat, and to not eat fast food, I have stepped out of standard American Culture. And instead of being punished for it, I have been rewarded. Justice. But I have not completely stepped out of Standard American Culture. I may not dress like American women, But I do work a lot. I stress over the acquisition of wealth, and I probably watch more TV than righteous folks would agree is healthy. I strike the balance. So I don't have a lot of the problems that are plagued by Standard Americans. But I do have some.<br />
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As far as my health is concerned, I took it back to the root. Making my diet even more stringent. And using treatment modalities that are specific for my race and gender. Not there yet, but it's coming. <br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-54598979460862429612016-02-10T15:33:00.002-05:002016-02-10T15:33:55.005-05:00FormationPeace....<br />
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This whole Beyonce Formation thing is ridiculous. But what it does do is provoke people into paying attention... is shows and proves that that him/devil does not like to be excluded from any Cipher. Even places that him/devil doesn't want to be. Yonce don't give a fuck and is woke af. I would call her "Earth" if she would just cover her ass consistantly... Just on her OWN gold, her great grandchildren won't have to fill out a job application to live in luxury. Never mind what her rich ass husband brings to the table.... I'm so over him/devil. Took him off in 1 day without falling victim to the devil's civilization....<br />
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But what the song Formation does do, is highlight the Culture of American Black people. I also saw a post on instagram that had me laughing that did the same thing. Black people have Culture. We have been in this wilderness for over 500 years. How long does it take to develop? We have our own ways of doing that folks TRY to mimic but ALWAYS get it wrong. And other Cultural elements we share with the devil and he bastardizes it and sells it back to us for a profit. <br />
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I think the problem is white folks are so used to being included. And they don't like when they aren't included. They get offended when they are left out. Example... the Formation lyrics say nothing to aggravate white folks. It's their confusion that has made them react as they have. Example: devils are griping on the internet that the song promotes violence against police.... point to the lyric that says such. I'll wait. And if you tripping about the song at the superbowl, then why are you complaining when there was no police car on the field? They also don't like when we have thoughts they haven't sanctioned. They really feel like we should do and feel what they tell us to. My boss is good for telling how I should feel about the work he assigns me that isn't on my job description. I should feel happy to be on call 24/7. Or I shouldn't be offended when people assume my white coworker is my supervisor and she isn't. I often inform him that for work that isn't on the JD won't happen and he only rents my body. My mind is my own. Devils filter other folks actions through the visor of their own thoughts and motivations. And we see how they think. Black power is not White power with a darker tint. But they refuse to understand. Its not in them to. Black History month is our thing. You don't have to like it... because they don't. It's for US to celebrate. And white history is shoved down our throuats every day of every year. <br />
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We have a Culture. We may not see it, because we are busy living it out daily. Jews and Muslims don't look at what they do differently and say... “Oh! we are doing Culture.” Nope. They just go on with their business and they do themselves. And that's what we do as Black folks living in America.<br />
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Peace!Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-69813648224913442362016-01-04T16:00:00.002-05:002016-01-04T16:00:54.955-05:00CulturePeace.<br />
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Today's Supreme Mathematics is Culture. Culture is defined as the way of life. When 85ers think of the term “Culture” They are thinking not of what they manifest but of what others manifest. The connotation of “Culture” is often external. Unless you way of life is different from the population in which you reside, you don't just go to thinking that you have a Culture. It's just what you do. It's like how white folks in the US think that what they do is the default and everybody else is exotic.<br />
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When folks think of groups in the US with a dedicated Cultures you think of Jews, Muslims, Mormons, Rastafarians.... and us! Though most folks don't know us like that since we don't have their numbers. Jews don't eat pork or shrimp. They don't work on Saturdays. They only marry each other, etc. Muslims cover their heads, some of them. They don't eat pork either and pray 5x/day face down on rugs gender separated. Mormons have a million children and do the poly-marriage thing. They also dress like little house on the prarie. Rastas have dreadlocks and smoke the ganga while eating seeds and guts. Dang Serenity that was offensive! Well 5%er all have done prison bids, have no real jobs and seeds enough to plant a garden! It's what him/devil says about they various US Cultures that aren't them.<br />
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But this Build piggy backs off a previous Build. The Do You Hide in plain sight post. I have noticed with this 5% Culture that I more and more each year have changed my lifestyle to a point where folks don't recognize me anymore. Folks who have been with me all along are cool. But when I run into someone I haven't seen in 10 years, they seem shocked at my appearance and new customs. <br />
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I was never one to show my hills and mountains.... they don't need my help. They show themselves.... So it's not like I some reformed hoe. But I was a standard BAP pretty girl. I had the luscious perm/weave. I had the right clothes and stiletto heels. My nails always 10 perfect pair. I had the perfectly made up face. I drove the lavish cars and had the lavish hobbies. Many of those same traits are still within me, but the manifestation has changed. I look different... really different. I got my work ID when I started this job 13 years ago. It doesn't even resemble me now. Different hair. Different clothes. Different me. Security periodically asks if I'm wearing another's ID. Don't get it twisted. I'm still fly as hell and you can wear good heels under a long skirt. And my headwraps... I have one to match every outfit... be giving chicks fits!<br />
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I eat differently.... No one... NO ONE loves swine more than I did. My last meated meal was a pulled pork sandwich. I loved fat bacon... and ham... and ribs.. yes ribs!... and chops... and loin... and (ashamedly) chitterlings! I actually asked for my graduation meal to be chitterlings.... My mother made them, but was pissed, but she made them. I loved lamb and my favorite snack.... Slim Jims! My plate looks entirely different that it once did. That's Culture.<br />
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I no longer do the Standard holiday thing. But more importantly, I'm no longer super loud about not doing it. But I have gotten the message out significantly so folks don't even ask anymore. Thanksgiving and the the American holidays is pretty much it. No xmas. No Easter (though I still get an outfit for Easter). None of that! And it's just how I live...<br />
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No grace. I just eat my food. No Sunday obligations. I can hold malice in my heart toward another without feeling bad. I fear no divine retribution. I don't live with the illusion that someone on a cloud is looking out for me. When you don't do the mystery god, YOLO takes on a different intensity. I manifest my Culture not just “in the mind” but out in the open. When you internalize Understanding, eventually it comes out of you. You become a Walking Understand. And isn't that what 3/4ths is? An Understanding that comes out of you so profound that it becomes your Culture. <br />
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Peace Bootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-52520985356576985032016-01-04T09:44:00.001-05:002016-01-04T09:44:03.272-05:00Hello 2016!Peace!<br />
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On the interwebs, it seems like 2015 was a pisser of a year for a lot of people. 2015 was the year my only brother died. That was the worse thing that happened to me in the calendar year. I thought about making some 2016 New Year's resolutions... But then I realized there wasn't much I wanted to change about myself. All the changes I want are external. And external changes aren't 100% completely in my realm to change. So this year I'm not making any resolutions!<br />
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4 days into this year.... I feel pretty good. <br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-63974743728975580952016-01-01T16:12:00.000-05:002016-01-01T16:12:00.480-05:00Faith/KnowledgePeace.<br />
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What is the Science? <br />
Today's Kwanzaa Principle is Faith – Today's Supreme Mathematics is Knowledge<br />
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The traditional Kwanzaa greeting is habari gani. Which means what's the news in Swahili. I don't do non-English. So my greeting will be.... What's the Science?<br />
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Faith is a touchy concept for many 5%ers. We say we live by the principle of “Show and Prove.” We have no place for faith. I agree and disagree. We have no place for religious faith. Just take the spookiness out of the word and this is in fact something we do. Like the way we use Islam. <br />
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The reason why we do faith is because we do hope. No one controls every aspect of their lives 100%. there are some things that we do, where we are unsure of the outcome. One of my mother's favorite phrases is, “step out on faith.” I Understand what she means by it. There are situations where you must throw caution to the wind and YOLO. There have been so may times in my life where I didn't Know what to do. But I Knew I had to do something. Every time but once, I've gone to the car dealership, I've been worried about what my credit will do. But I went anyway and I have always come home with the car of my choice. There was no white jesus involved in any of it. But there was faith in my own abilities to get what I wanted. Every time I've applied for a job, I did so not because I was certain I was going to get said job, but because I knew I wanted or needed one. I always have a job when I need one. Every time I get behind the wheel of my car, I assume (another form of faith) that I will arrive to my destination safely. Doesn't always happen. But I can't let the uncertainty hold me back. If I waited until I was 100% sure of everything in my life before proceeding.... I'd of been dead before I Knowledged 120. <br />
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You can't be certain of meds because they have side effects... some they don't know of yet but they let people take them. You don't Know which foods are genetically modified or moderately poisoned. When you go to a restaurant, you didn't see the people preparing your food. But you still eat it. When you date an individual, you don't Know if they aren't a crazy ax yielding serial killer. While waiting for the bus in the dark at 5:30am I don't know if I'm going to mauled by a rabid possum. It could happen. It has happened to others, but I still go to the same spot. That's faith. <br />
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Faith, the way I'm speaking on it, is expectancy. If you prepare a recipe according to it's directions, you have a level of assurance that it will look like the picture when you're done. When you complete an experiment you have assurance of the result. That is faith... non-spooky faith. I'm not saying go in every situation with know knowledge of whats going on. And I'm not saying don't use SM and the “show and prove” ideology. I am saying that sometimes faith is warranted. <br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-35433263266910548062015-12-31T11:49:00.000-05:002015-12-31T11:49:04.107-05:00Creativity/Understanding KnowledgePeace<br />
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What's the Science?<br />
Kwanzaa principle: Creativity<br />
Today's Mathematics : Understanding Knowledge abbt Culture <br />
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This Build was hard for me. I not a creative person. That may seem inaccurate if you know me because I'm a crafter, and a cook. But I'm not creative. I see something that I like and nigarig it. Rarely do I come up with original ideas of my own. If I can see it, I can recreate it. If I taste a recipe, I can figure out what's in it. But again... copying not creativity. Creativity is not my gift. But because I can craft, folks think of me as creative. I remember when I pledged AKA, I got real crafty with the projects we had to do. But it was craftiness and not creativity that drove me. One of the big sisters actually asked me to be on her committee because she thought I was creative. One of my line sisters piped up and said, “Angel is the go to person to get isht done. But she is dead with ideas.” If it wasn't true, I would have pinched her in the stomach.<br />
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The definition of creativity is the use of the imagination or original ideas, especially in the production of an artistic work. I might be artistic, but my ideas are NOT Original... But neither are a lot of folks. One of the things I ALWAYS say to G's and E's in person is that we cannot draw up folks the same way we used to. This is not the 1980's. In the 80's I was a teenager and there were Gods Building all over the place in various and sundry Ciphers. Looked like Parliaments popped up indiscriminately on any potential corner. Times have changed. And with those changes, we as righteous people need to change and be creative about how we reach folks. Ain't nobody just gonna see us in the streets and start adding on. I'm not saying it couldn't happen. I am saying it's unlikely. If you hand someone a flyer who doesn't know us what we stand for all they are gonna do is google us and find out that we are a prison gang who killed Michael Jordan's daddy. Is that how you want to be portrayed? I don't. My own cousin who has my cell in her phone decided to buy a book and make judgments regarding the Culture without EVER asking me 1 questions. Imagine us laughing and joking and she is harboring several misconceptions. IJS....<br />
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So what do we do to develop more creativity? We go back to the drawing board (31:40). We have to do the 1 and figure a venue for where we could reach people. And we need to release that mindset of only reaching the dregs of society. Not saying we shouldn't reach them, but we would do ourselves well reaching the moneyed and the educated. We need that balance. We shouldn't forget the past, but we shouldn't dwell in the past either. We need to do more to get more. It's Nation Building.<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-74733502808552474812015-12-30T10:50:00.000-05:002015-12-30T10:50:05.785-05:00Purpose/Understanding CipherPeace<br />
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What's the Science?<br />
Kwanzaa Principle: Purpose<br />
Today's Mathematics: Understanding Cipher abbt Understanding<br />
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Purpose is one of the most difficult thing for folks to come up on. I have lived all of these years and still am unsure about what my 'Purpose' is. There have been times where I was sure what it was and it changed. <br />
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Purpose is defined as the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. So what exactly is my purpose? Well to Understand that, you have to Understand who you are and where you are. And I suppose since a person changes, and their surroundings and situations change… their purpose will change. <br />
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When I was a child, my purpose was to learn life and get an education. When I was/am married, my purpose is to be a good wife. When I was single my purpose was to enjoy my singlehood to the fullest. My purpose also changes when I change environments. Some things I'm solid on regardless of whom or what. I'm Earth. In all environments. But I don't insist on using my righteous name in all situations. To be perfectly honest.... I've never changed my name so Serenity can't cash a check. So there's that... My mom is old. She calls me what she calls me. It is what it is. My purpose when I'm with her is to be a good daughter and a good care taker. As the God's Earth, my purpose is to care for him and look after his needs. As an employee it is my purpose to meet the expectations of my job descriptions.... You your purpose is really dependent on your Cipher. <br />
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But still.... I'd like to find my life's personal pupose.<br />
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PeaceBootzeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01664655090937726673noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1745498267027677296.post-67164893405110200892015-12-29T10:58:00.000-05:002015-12-29T10:58:08.966-05:00Cooperative Economics/Wisdom BornPeace<br />
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What's the Science?<br />
Kwanzaa Principle: Cooperative Economics<br />
Today's Supreme Mathematics: Wisdom Born abbt Wisdom<br />
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Another Adult principle here..... Again, a family's finances are in the hands of the adults. <br />
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A co-op is defined as an autonomous association of persons united voluntarily to meet their common economic, social, and cultural needs and aspirations through a jointly owned and democratically controlled enterprise. Sounds like Social Equality again does it not? People coming together for one common goal. In this case finances. Financial maintenance is always something that adults need to do, no matter how remarkable the child. <br />
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When I was 16, I got my 1st legit job at a clothing store. I really liked that job. But I didn't appreciate that I had to pay to cash my check. Woolworth's charged $5 flat rate to cash a check.... yes Woolworth's... google it.... I wanted ALL my money. Who wouldn't? Well I took my little $80 paycheck to the local bank to start an account. But guess what? My underaged self could not open a checking account on my own. Luckily my father's office was around the corner And he was there. I ran in there and asked him, “Daddy I need you to come with me and bring your wallet!” You had to know my dad to know how he would have responded. But he came and we ran around the corner and he backed my 1st bank account. Here is the thing. He, being an adult, knew how banks worked. He put me on my own account but linked me to his business that also held an account with that bank. He caught all the fees on my bank account. I can only guess at how the bank would have shafted me without my daddy. <br />
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And that is the essence of today's principle. We as a people have all we need to create our own Universe separate from the him/devil. If we would only trust each other. I know that is a hefty order. We don't trust each other and for good reason. WE are always looking for “hook ups.” You don't know how many of my personal friends want to come patronize the office where I work. I don't advise it. Not because I'm ashamed of the product we produce, but because I don't trust jokers to pay. They figure they can get a hook up from me... and they can't. I don't ask for hook ups... don't give them either.<br />
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When I used to go to church, I used to be a Steward. Which means in addition to looking after the pastor, his family, and the church we collected and counted the money on Sunday. A Destroy Power I was dating at the time used to want me to cash his personal checks on the money and “borrow” gold from the church's coffers. Wasn't his church. I would never do it and we stopped dating. Another dude looking for a hook up. <br />
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We also drank the Koolaid and have come to think of the products that WE make as inferior to him/devil. I do a lot of things.... When I'm in seamstress mode. Folks don't want to pay me for the same work they will pay the cleaners for. And I have to wonder why. I have been sewing 30 years. I make nearly everything I wear. Folks can't tell either. So clearly I know what I'm doing. But if I didn't have a day gig... Sewing wouldn't feed me.<br />
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I have just been using me as my examples. I am the best Knower of my life and situations. But we as a people need to put that slave mentality to bed once and for all. Because it's kind of crazy to patronize a business where all the employees are Original but the owner is devil and be cool with the product and service you receive but you wouldn't trust those same Original people without the overseer.<br />
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I was really encouraged by the push this year to support Black-owned businesses through the holidays. I wonder if folks really did only spend green with Black? Probably not. But it sounded good.<br />
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We could do it if we wanted to. There have been several instances of us in the past doing our own thing. There were Black Wall Streets and prospering all Black communities in states all over this country. Back in the Jim Crow era... and be mindful, JC Era wasn't that long ago. My 60+ year old coworker was old enough to participate in that whole separate-but-equal bullshit.... We HAD no other choice but to practice cooperative work with each other. But integration ended that. Black folks were free to take their money to the devil and did. Now the only Original businesses we still patronize are the hair salons/barber shops, funeral homes and churches. The other stuff has not real permanence. Non-Black people have taken over businesses that used to be ours.... When was the last time you saw a Black corner store? Or gas station? Or Liquor store? Even soul food is a front. Asians got that now. Hell, Asians are cheaper than the shade tree mechanics. <br />
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The reason why Black owned businesses have to charge more than the other folks is because we don't have access to the networks they do because we haven't developed them yet. Asian people have cornered the market on Beauty Supply Stores. Those stores cater to Black women. It would seem to reason that Black people would have a better Understanding of what our needs are. B.U.T. Asians have cornered the market on the stock. Black people cannot stock stores at the same prices as Asians can. And we will not pay $15 for a product that costs $5 in another store. It's crazy to even ask. I do my own nails... long story. But I go to Sally's to by my supplies. There is an Asian super store that sells nothing but nail products, but when I tried go there to get my supplies, no one wanted to help me and when I tried to interact with the staff, they refused to speak English to me. So I pay 5x as much for my stuff as I would in the Asian place... it's still cheaper than going to the nail salon.<br />
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With regard to Today's Supreme Mathematics, the power to make our desires into a reality lies in our own actions. If we want to see Black business prosper, them we have to support them. No matter how you feel about it, we are the only ones who will. And it's not that we don't have money, we make all the other folks rich, but for some reason we refuse to support Each other. <br />
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