Tuesday, April 17, 2012

3:AF/Worm Moon


I have been remiss with my monthly actual fact building. It’s trifling of me to be in that error since it was my idea! I will beg your pardon. So let’s get on with it, shall we?

The Indian Ocean is 29,321,000 square miles. Peace.
March’s full moon is called the Worm Moon. Peace

Wisdom Born Understanding Wisdom Knowledge Cipher Cipher Cipher is abbt Build/Destroy through Knowledge God (which happens to be today’s Supreme Mathematics).

The Worm moon is the moon that heralds the end of winter which brings forth the Asiatic New Year and spring possibilities.

I see these to correlate that One can be successful (29:40) when one Understands (3:SM) one’s Universe (21:SA). Yeah, I’m dipping and dabbing all over 120 for this one.

Within personal ciphers/Universes, the only constant is change. Yes you will get things were you want them, only to have them change irrevocably. You think you will live in a home until you die only to find that you have a better opportunity in another state. You think that the major you labor for will yield you a job in said field and that is often not the case. Ask a person in their Culture Ciphers if their life is as they planned in their Wisdom Ciphers or younger. Chances are, it’s completely different. So the only thing on can depend on is change.

Change has 2 sides: a change for the better (Building) or a change for the worse (destroying). Even that is relative. The best way to be successful in your undertakings is to strive to direct change for the positive. That’s all you can do. I bear witness that intended positive direction can lead to negative repercussions. But at the end of the day, I know my intentions. And if I intended good and received.. not good, I will still be able to sleep well at night.

So there is my build, y’all.


Monday, April 16, 2012

That Chick


I freely admit this is a rant. So feel free to skip it….

I hate people sometimes. I really do. One of my dealbreakers in any relationship is lack of reciprocity. If I do something for you…. especially something YOU asked me to do; you better be willing to pay it back. On Demand. I am a good friend. Not everyone that has my cell number is considered my friend. Some folks are just associates. I go all out for the people I care about. I need that for that to be mutual in order to maintain ‘friendship’ standing.

I need to clarify that I am not a "That Chick". You know that female who is always in need of aid. I can say that in complete honesty. I have had all manner of bad shit happen to me and I bare it on my own back. I don’t go off all ham needing other people to hold me up. In fact, I am the one usually holding other people up. So let me get into what is pissing Serenity off today….

I have a ‘friend’ who doesn't think twice about calling me last minute requesting that I ride with her to AL, LA or some other mystery god forsaken locale. And I went it every time she asked me. AT MY OWN EXPENSE. I buy my own food and entertainment and sometimes chip in on gas. She once wanted some barbequed swine and I drove 6 hours to SC to procure it. I’m a good friend. When she was sick, I cooked real food for her family for a week on my own dime. When she was taking care of her mother in another state, I cleaned her house and looked after her husband and children. (and she has a son that I don’t like) But when I asked her to ride with me to niece’s baby shower more than 2 months away, she couldn’t be bothered. Guess who is getting cut off?

I have another ‘friend’ who, when I was single used to invite me to everything going on in her home. I was invited to breakfasts and dinners and parties. I spoke to her at least 5 times a week and we used to hang out like pseudo-ballers. And now… Nothing. Now that I have a live in God, she doesn’t want to be hang out with me. Now that’s not me projecting. Those were her words. She doesn’t feel comfortable around him. She met him once… In a grocery store parking lot…. He didn’t say much and gave her the hug she asked for. But now she acts like he threatened or molested her. Yeah… I can’t.

There is are Earths in the cipher that add on regularly with each other and NEVER include me. Not that I need to be included. But it’s disconcerting to find out that such social equality existed and I was purposefully not included. What, I don't have feelings?

There are folks that would argue that they are jealous. But …. No. Folks say that to help them sleep through the night. Others have said that I intimidate people that’s why they don’t want to be around me. And I have had the experience of paying for services and not getting what I paid for because the people are scared of me. That’s some punk bitch shit right there. Your scared of dealing with me so you take my money and don't give me what I paid for? You really think that will work in your favor?

I have never been the type of female to have a load of female friends. Call it however you see it. I was raised in a house with 3 other men and I was the baby and only girl. That means I never shared anything with another female. I am more used to how men do things than the politics of women. And growing up I had female friends but not a lot. Yes I used to sit on the phone for hours at a time, but with the same circle of friends. And no I haven’t always kept the same friends but it has never been more than say 4 or 5 friends. That includes cousins. And I have had the experience of going into situations were I knew no one and still managed to get by. So it’s not that I need this interaction. It just would be nice.

Recently I was told it’s because I’m strong that this shit keeps happening to me. Really? That’s some bullshit if I ever heard of one. So because I strive to keep my business in good working condition, and not need to rely on others outised my personal cipher (and very few within) this precludes me from social equality? SMH…. I hardly believe that. But whatever the reason is, I want all these chicken heads to welcome and accept my finger with a gooey turd. I’m done with y’all pathetic asses.


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Small Deaths


This should have really been yesterday’s Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Knowedge abbt Wisdom; but you know. Stuff gets old. I suppose I could back date it or set it to display next month…. But I am not going through all of that. Just bear with me…

Have you ever really considered what doing the Knowledge to Knowledge entails? It means question what you know or what you think you know. Because there will always be some ways and actions that come because of it. Is it Wisdom or just some bullshit. That’s on you.

Since this whole Martin vs. Zimmerman case, has brought out all kinds of memories and thoughts in folks. Devils are just that; weak and wicked. They never take responsibility for their own actions. They blame it on other folks. Black folks are scary so they have the right to kill us before we kill them…. Even if that wasn’t out intention. It’s what we get. I have never been convicted of a crime, I don’t have illegitimate children, never been on assistance, I have 2 degrees, I’ve been married, my parents were married and college educated, etc. I beat all the stereotypes. BUT… It doesn’t matter I’m Black. And because of that, it is allowed to treat me anyway that a white person sees fit. And should I complain, I am told, “Well it’s not our fault. You Black people – insert bullshit assed statistic---.” Not cool.

The Martin vs. Zimmerman thing is extreme but not uncommon. him/devils do this everyday and sleep very well afterwards. And yes Trayvon physically died on February 26, 2012; but Original people die little deaths every day. And my question is do white people die these same little deaths?

I was 7 years old and in the 2nd grade at a white private religious school. The teacher was giving a presentation on the importance of eating breakfast. She decided to go around the room and ask every one what they ate for breakfast. I was one of 2 Black children in the class…. And parents stop assuming that your child will get a superior education at white schools. Mental death i.e. “white indoctrination” begins there… The teacher got to me first because of the position of my desk. She asked me, “Did you have breakfast?” Now why would she ask that? I was 7 and in a private school. I wasn’t there on a voucher or financial aid. If my mother could afford to send me there she could afford to feed me. I was the only student, other than the other Black student that was first asked if we ate breakfast. I said, “Yes.” She then asked, “What did you eat?” I said, “Grits.” Yes grits. Because that’s what I had for breakfast. I grew up in NJ, but my parents were from SC. We ate grits. Most of my Black friend’s parents were from somewhere in the south and they ate grits. The friends that weren’t directly tied to the south at least knew what grits was. The teacher asked my 7 year old ass, “What are grits?” How the fuck am I supposed to know that at 7? I came along in the era where you ate what was put in front of you no questions asked. I had no clue and told her as much. I offered, “It’s hot and creamy. Mommie putts butter and cheese in them.” But that wasn’t enough for the teacher. Some white child raises his hand and says, “I know what grits are. It’s what you feed to horses and pigs.” Everyone in the class screamed… except the other Black child… and started to make fun of me. The teacher didn’t stop them. But she did ask me if that was true. Again…. I am 7, and I never had any horses or pigs. I said, “I don’t know.” Which was my honest answer. At recess the other Black child came to me and told me that he had had grits for breakfast too, but when he saw how they clowned me, he omitted them when asked and just said bacon and eggs.

Later that evening, after dinner had been eaten, my brother and I were upstairs cutting a fool in our play clothes. BECAUSE…. The first thing any Black child is told to do when they come home from school, church, anywhere significant is to, “Put your play clothes on.” And you are aware play clothes aren’t meant to be seen by outsiders. I heard the doorbell ring. And of course like children we were screaming. “Mommie the door!” as she was walking to it. She looks through the curtain and curses a bit… Back then Mommie cursed like a sailor. She wasn’t the good evangelist she is now. And now that she’s old, she’s trying to get into heaven…. She opens the door to my teacher and principal are standing there with groceries. I recognize the voices, but I know not to come downstairs until summoned. So my brother and I sit at the top of the stairs listening to what’s going on.

“We brought groceries because your daughter told us that you couldn’t afford to eat properly and was eating animal food.” Did I fucking say that? Mommie took a deep breath and called for me to come downstairs. By this time I looked like a hobo… I had on play clothes and had been rough housing with my big brother, my hair was crazy!… which only fueled these people’s suspicions. Mommie brought us all in the kitchen and I explained what I had said. She looked at the white people and asked for confirmation. And they said yes. Mommie, in a calm manner that I was unfamiliar with opened our full cabinets and refrigerator to show them our food. Then she pulled down the container of grits with the Quaker on it to show them. She explained it was corn and then she cooked some for them to try. As far as the horses and pig thing goes, I learned that my mother had some familiarity with porcine and equine diets and made that knowledge born to these devils. She also asked them in her sneaky way if they lived in a house as large as ours. They admitted that they rented. She asked if they had college degrees. The principal did, but the teacher did not. Oh, Mommie gave it to them in a fine mist. They left with new information and the groceries they brought.

When they were gone, I got one of many speeches I have gotten through the years on how to navigate the world abroad… The white world. She told me to be ever vigilant. That white folks had to think of themselves as better than us; and it wasn’t the case. Everyone was equal, but people fell into different socioeconomic categories. And to remember that white folks would always think they were better than Black folks, simply because they were white. That I had to live in a way to show them that I was just as good if not better. That is a LOT for a 7 year old to take in. I asked her why white folks felt superior just because of skin. They could have easily been born Black and we white. Mommie smiled and admitted that she didn’t have an answer to that question. Another shocker. Mommie has all the answers. She could be a seer or an oracle.

Here are the lessons I learned that evening…. (1) White folks consider themselves the default. Anything you do that they don’t seems exotic and somehow wrong. (2) Folks will make up shit to fill in the blanks. The white boy and Black boy did this to me. So that is a universal rule. (3) Your own people will sell you out. Had the other Black person in the class admitted that he had the same breakfast then the white folks may have thought that this was a “Black” thing and not that I was in need of assistance. (4) I learned about the concept “white privilege” and “Black tax”. (5) I learned that there were multiple worlds and that non-white people live in all of them, while white people only live in their own world. (6) I learned that my crazy, hot tempered mother could negotiate the world of white folks. (7) I learned that I had to behave differently around white folks. (8) I learned that my mother already knew this because she had done it before. (9) And I learned that white people will insult you in the name of helping you.

I encourage y’all to post your stories no matter how long. I will also be posting more small deaths. And if there are white people reading this, don’t feel insulted. This is one Black woman’s experiences. Y’all can post your experiences too.


Monday, April 9, 2012

Liver Flush

Peace Fam,

This weekend I finally completed a liver flush. The last time I completed a liver flush was in maybe 2008ish? What is a liver flush? I’m glad you asked. Here we go….

The What’s and Why’s:
The Liver is an important organ to cleanse. With the exception of the skin, the liver is the largest organ in the body and performs over 500 functions, far more than any other organ in the body. We cannot be healthy or recover from illness without a strong, clean well-functioning liver. If the liver is unable to carry out its full function, not only does it become congested and weak; all other organs will be more challenged as a result.

The flush I performed could be done at home. This flush can be done in just 24 hours, so it is easy to fit into a busy schedule. It is recommended that you have done a full 7-day cleanse prior to this flush, mainly to take the toxic pressure off your organs and to be sure that your body is alkaline. This is why I waited until after I completed my 21 day juice fast.

Cleansing the liver of gallstones dramatically improves digestion (agni), which is the basis of your whole health. You can expect your allergies to disappear; at least that is what I was hoping for. This year’s allergy season has been whipping my ass. I was kind of hoping for a reduction or remission of my eczema as well. Allegedly, it also eliminates shoulder, upper arm, and upper back pain. I can’t speak on that since I didn’t have that affliction to start out with. It claims to give more energy and increased sense of well being. I’m not going to say I experienced this since I was feeling good off my juice fast.

It is the job of the liver to make bile, 1 to 1 ½ quarts in a day! The liver is full of tubes (biliary tubing) that deliver the bile to one large tube (the common bile duct). The gallbladder is attached to the common bile duct and acts as a storage reservoir. Eating fat or protein triggers the gallbladder to squeeze itself empty after about twenty minutes, and the stored bile finishes its trip down the common bile duct to the intestine.

For many persons, including children, the biliary tubing is choked with gallstones. Some develop chest pains, allergies or hives but some have no symptoms. I have seen pictures which had me wondering if my liver and gall bladder looked like this. If the stones haven’t had the time to calcify, then you won’t be able to see them on x-ray and the only way to know is via surgery. Yeah…. Not gonna happen. So I figure that even if my hepatic apparatus isn’t choked, it can’t hurt. It’s advised to cleanse your liver twice a year.

This is what a clogged gall bladder looks like. Would you want this? No. This picture alone made me want to do this flush.

The Hows:

~Eat a diet high in alkaline-forming foods and low in fats for at least 3-5 days before cleansing
~it helps prepare the liver by having a glass of fresh apple juice every day for 1 week prior to cleansing. Apple juice helps to dissolve the stones.

Epsom salts: 4 tablespoons. I didn’t know you could ingest Epsom salt prior to my 1st cleanse
Olive oil: 1/2 cup
Fresh pink grapefruit: 1 large or 2 small, enough to squeeze 1/2 cup, you could use lemon juice too. But ½ cup of straight lemon juice seems harsh and mixing it with EVOO, seems more like a salad dressing

Choose 2 days in a row for the flush, since you will need to rest and be near a bathroom the next day. Take no medicines (if you are on Rx meds check with your MD – s/he will say no- 1st), vitamins or pills that you can do without; they could prevent success. Eat a no-fat breakfast and lunch such as cooked cereal, fruit, fruit juice, bread and preserves or honey (no butter or milk). This allows the bile to build up and develop pressure in the liver. Higher pressure pushes out more stones. I just fasted the whole day.

2:00 PM. Do not eat or drink after 2 o’clock. If you break this rule you could feel quite ill later. Get your Epsom salts ready. Mix 4 tbs. in 3 cups (750 ml) water and pour this into a jar. This makes four servings, ¾ cup (185 ml) each. Set the jar in the refrigerator to get ice cold (this is for convenience and taste only, because all of this is nasty tasting).

6:00 PM. Drink one serving (¾ cup) of the ice cold Epsom salts. If you did not prepare this ahead of time, mix 1 tbs. in ¾ cup water now. You may add 1/8 tsp. vitamin C powder to improve the taste. You may also drink a few mouthfuls of water afterwards or rinse your mouth. Get the olive oil and citrus out to warm up.

8:00 PM. Repeat by drinking another ¾ cup (185 ml) of Epsom salts. You haven’t eaten since two o’clock, but you won’t feel hungry. Get your bedtime chores done. The timing is critical for success.

9:45 PM. Pour ½ cup (measured) olive oil into the pint jar. Squeeze the citrus fruit (grapefruit, lime or lemon) by hand into the measuring cup. Remove pulp with fork. You should have at least ½ cup. I juiced mine, but in the past I have purchased grapefruit juice. Now I can see that fresh is best. Add this to the olive oil. Blend well, until watery (only fresh grapefruit juice does this). Now visit the bathroom one or more time, even if it makes you late for your ten o’clock drink. Don’t be more than 15 minutes late. You will get fewer stones.

10:00 PM. Drink the oil and juice you have mixed. Take it all to your bedside if you want, but drink it standing up. Get it down within 5 minutes (fifteen minutes for very elderly or weak persons).

Lie down immediately. You might fail to get stones out if you don’t. The sooner you lie down the more stones you will get out. Be ready for bed ahead of time. Don’t clean up the kitchen (make someone else do that). As soon as the drink is down walk to your bed and lie down on your right side with your knees pulled up close to your chest. Try to think about what is happening in the liver. Try to keep perfectly still for at least 20 minutes. You may feel a train of stones traveling along the bile ducts like marbles. There is no pain because the bile duct valves are open (thank you Epsom salts!). Go to sleep, you may fail to get stones out if you don’t. Try to sleep in this position. Sleep on a towel in case you shit yourself in your sleep. The amount of Epsom salt taken is a LOT. 1 tablespoon would have been enough to bring out diarrhea.

Next morning. Upon awakening (6:00 am) take your third dose of Epsom salts. If you have indigestion or nausea wait until it is gone before drinking the Epsom salts. You may go back to bed. Don’t take this potion before 6:00 am.

8:00 am (2 Hours Later.) Take your fourth (the last) dose of Epsom salts. You may go back to bed again.

After 2 More Hours you may eat. Start with fruit juice. Half an hour later eat fruit. One hour later you may eat regular food but keep it light. By supper you should feel recovered.

The Results:
Even though I did as listed above, and I butt peed for 2 days. I did NOT get any stones. Am I disappointed? No. It just means my liver and gall bladder is stone free. I’m okay with that. The 1st time I did this, I got stones. A LOT of stones. Each subsequent time, I got less and less stones. Since I hadn’t done this flush in a few years, I kind of expected some stonage. But nope, nada, nothing. I’m okay with that. Did I feel better? Did my eczema go away? No. Remember I was feeling kind of great from my fast so I can’t tell. Also this…. When you are juice fasting, you aren’t really ingesting anything that requires the use of your gall bladder. So if there are stones in there, I assume (remember I’m a dentist not a liver specialist) they either stay there or dissolve since there is nothing to trigger the release of bile. This is another reason why you shouldn’t break a long fast with just anything. Your body is not ready for it.

Some folks poop on a colander so they can collect the stones.... Why? Just look in the toilet. And definitely don't photograph this nastiness. But without the photos I couldn't show them to you could I?

An interesting observation the God made was I have a clean diet… I’m a pescatarian, I fast regularly, I drink a lot of water, and I don’t eat out as much as most Americans. I’m relatively clean internally. Why would I develop stones?

The Conclusion:
I’m good and clean on the inside parts. Yay Serenity!!!! Whoot whoot!

I highly recommend liver flushing at least 1/year if you are healthy and have a clean diet. 2/year if you don’t.


Thursday, April 5, 2012

Now What?

I have a simple question based on today's degree in the 1-14....

Now that you have taken back Jerusalem, what will you do with it?