Sunday, November 30, 2014



It's taken some time for me to put my thoughts together. I'm not about promoting my Culture by denigrating another. My Culture can and does speak for itself. But there are moments when I know there is NO possibility of me returning to my former lifestyle. And this is one of the reasons....

My Aunt was a member of her church for years, months and days. More than 60 years she labored in her church. My grandmother had been a member of this church, and where my mother had been baptized. Had mother stayed in her hometown, my brother and I would have been raised in that church too. This church was the family church.

My Aunt was fortunate enough to become elderly; and had all the issues elderly have. She developed Alzheimer's. If you know anyone with this disease you know they don't get better, only worse. Eventually she had to be hospitalized. My aunt lived for about 10 years with the disease. It was like her body forgot how to do what bodies do. She stopped engaging. Stopped speaking. Stopped eating. And eventually stopped breathing. The super rich have the money to put their old folks in those rent by the month places. We aren't rich. My Aunt had to use her social security and medicaid to pay for the nursing home. Not part of it... ALL. There was no other money.

When she died, the church that she had been a member of denied her a funeral. Actually, they were quite, stank about it. They said we didn't send the church any money. What money? All of my Aunt's money went into her care. Because we didn't donate money to the church we weren't able to have anything there. WOW! It's shit like this that keeps it real for me. Not only was my Aunt denied her service..... she wasn't allowed burial in a plot that she already paid for because it was on church property. My Aunt had been married twice and both her husbands predeceased her. Both husbands were interred in her family plot. She was to buried in the middle. But that didn't happen because she didn't pay her tithes. Who are they gonna put in there with them? A stranger??? Are they going to refund the money back to the family? This is some grimy shit,

Why do people get all shiesty over dead people? What does a funeral cost a church? My Aunt wasn't just some pew member. She lived walking distance from that church and went there daily. I remember being there as a small child and my Aunt and Grandmother cleaning all the wood in that old wooden church. I can still feel the burn and smell the Murphy's oils soap. Auntie cooked for that church, sang in the choir taught Sunday school, was an officer. She even cosigned for church loans! But she wasn't allowed to get old, sick and die in that church.

None of the people from that church visited her while she was sick either.

It's shit like this that makes me clear my days of xianity are done.


Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Here we go again


When it comes to politics and current events... I feel deeply. But I'm not one of these people who will dedicate a ridiculous amount of blog space to building on something that I know isn't going to change.

Racism is alive and well in the United States of America. White people have.... and ALWAYS had... carte blanche to kill Black people at will and face no repercussions. There is a underlying current that started back with Dred Scott and is still very much alive today: “The negro has no rights which the white man is bound to respect.” The only people who commit crimes and are promptly punished are people of color. White folks, not so much... unless they are Muslim. And that is the way it is. No amount of boycotting, marching, looting, protesting, is going to change that. Why do you say that Serenity? Because that is the way it has always been and those moves have been tested. They might have worked... a bit... back in the day, but the devil would be stupid to not have plans in place to counteract that now. Basically what I'm saying for the slow people is, “That shit won't work anymore.”

I am 44. In my 44 years, I've seen some things. I've had some experiences. My parents were as active in the Civil rights struggle as people in NJ could be. They didn't march in Selma because they didn't live in Selma. They did a temporary bid in the NOI. They boycotted all that they were told. They sent money to organizations that claimed to be using the money for “the Struggle.” They refused to buy their children anything that had a white graven image on it. They made sure that they were educated and sent their children to white private schools. How else are you going to show the world that you are an evolved Negro? My mother was a teacher and my father was a business owner. They thought they “cured” racism. But 10:14 & 34:40 is clear that racism cannot be cured.

The problem with the civil rights movement is that it was 1 sided. Black people wanted the things that white people had. They didn't want to be excluded from what was perceived as the “good life.” So all the movement was from Black to white. NEVER the other way around. Think about it.... Black folks already had their own schools but decided they wanted to be able to go to white ones. OK. So now white schools have AMAZING athletic programs that bring them ridiculous amounts of money while HBCUs struggle to keep their doors open. Even though more Black people go to PWI... more Black people GRADUATE form HBCUs. Bussing took the best and the brightest Black children and allowed them to go to mediocre white schools. The addition of talented well behaved Black children in their student bodies makes their ratings soar while back in the hood the ratings drop. Don't get it twisted. Your tax dollars will ALWAYS go tot he white schools before they the scraps they send to the Black schools. And when ratings drop, the government steps in and polices our babies... or shall I say, they indoctrinate them to think that government intervention is normal rather than the exception.

My parents... who were born and raised in the 1930's South Carolina... often reminisced of their childhoods and they unintentionally explained that even though they grew up in segregation, they had everything they needed. They had schools... good schools. Not the 1 room shack of barefoot Black children that you see in old devil publications. But Real schools. They even took me to the actual schools that they attended. And both my parents had multiple pairs of shoes to choose from. They had churches, salons, barber shops, funeral homes, clubs, repair shops, banks, hospitals, gas stations, insurance companies and any kind of store selling any kind of thing you wanted. They had their own “Main Street” or business district in their neighborhoods and had no reason to go into the white neighborhoods, unless they worked there. Contrary to what you see in the media, the majority of Black people, worked for other Black people at that time. All those Black businesses would need employees. So Black people were not only providing for their families but also the families of a given neighborhood by providing services AND jobs. My paternal grandmother was a seamstress and supported, with her husband, 7+ children in their own house on their own property. My maternal grandfather had his own fields of cotton and soybean and used hire folks to pick HIS cotton. So all segregation did was to force the white man to take our money. Who lost there?

I was a little girl in the 70's. I remember that there were still businesses that Black people owned. There weren't whole communities of businesses... like a Black downtown.... but they were out there. You just had to be adamant about hunting them down. There was “Fresh as a Daisy” cleaners, that was owned by a Black man. There were NOI restaurants and corner stores owned by Black people. Wilroy's and Esmereldas were corner stores that took my candy money. Black Hair salons, barber shops and funeral homes will always be businesses that Black people support. I suppose we would be uncomfortable if our hair and dead folks got fucked up. And white people do have different hair and I don't trust them to know how my hair does. Back in the 70's and 80's there was still Black owned places. But the Rodney King riots brought it to the conscious mind that that shit was all over. People put out signs indicating that they where “Black owned.” But there weren't that many signs up. And do you know why?Asians came in our communities and quietly bought it all up. And we LET them.

I have nothing against Asians, Middle Eastern people, etc... they are POC... having their own businesses. I really don't. I'm not that level of hater. But when they came in, they disrespected the communities that they earned their gold from by insulting them and treating them like criminals even before they had committed crimes. If I walk into a store and people start following me and making comments, I'm a be pissed. You would be too. That cause enmity between the people. And that ONLY benefits the devil if we all are mistrustful and in-fighting. These Non-Black POSs don't live in the communities that they serve. That's different from the way Black people did it. Folks knew where you lived because you lived upstairs from your business. Braggs lives upstairs from his funeral home. When you go in there, you see the stairs that leads up to his living suite. The other POCs come in, take our money while treating us badly and serving us lower quality and go back to their neighborhoods. They hire their own people. All they do is use us. But we allow it. That government indoctrination made us blind, deaf and dumb... basically... powerless to stop it.

There is a prevalent attitude that anything you buy from Black people should be looked on with suspicion. I hear my people say that they rather go to white man/business to get things done. Why??? to quote Malcolm X... “Who taught you to hate yourself?” Black folks can do anything white folks can. So why do we believe that a white person's goods and services are better just because they are white?

OK... enough of the jaw jacking. I was just striving to bring some clarity and history to my point.... As Black people.... we have to take back our communities. How do we do that. IN THE POCKET. We need to go back to self-segreation and do for self. I know it sounds very revolutionary... very ugly... very scary... very unChristian... but the integration hasn't worked. And it will have to be very Moses-in-the-desert. It will take a generation of doing for self to shake off the old ideology and indoctrination of the devil. There is no way that we can do any different as a group.. not just individuals... unless we break those ties. Example... Precise and I are very comfortable. We both have jobs, cars, live in a nice home.. we look prosperous. And we are. How do we as a family affect the collective as a hole? We don't. Just because we have It good doesn't make it better for anybody else. And because we work for other people, it could all be gone tomorrow.

There's about to be a whole lot of co-ops and collectives coming

Schools... We cannot start schools without the devil's involvement. But we can home school our children. I'm not talking about high school only graduate parents who read on the 6th grade level teaching the babies, but we can find people who have experience in different specialty areas and form an educational collective so that Our children can get the best Black centered education that money can't buy.

Economics... While we are waiting for folks to get their shit together and have brick and mortar business we can develop a system of bartering for goods and services that we use. You fix my car, I will make you a new suit. See how that works. Folks without greenbacks can still have nice things.

And when these brick and mortar businesses go up, we will support them and give them feedback. We won't be house niggerish and go look and if we see something we don't like leave, never go back and talk about them like a do behind their backs. My father used to complain about that all the time. People would come to his office, get mad at something easily rectified, leave and never come back. But they would never tell him so he could do something about it. He'd just be confused and wondering.

And business owners will give their absolute best to their patrons. And not treat them like a dollar.

We need to grow vegetable gardens. We need to learn how to can and put food up. We need to know how to make clothes.. and moonshine. We need to know how to build stuff with lumber. Seriously, do you know how to build a carport? A tree house? A doghouse? If the answer is no, you damn sure can't build a house to provide shelter for your family. Learn how to do something useful damnit! What happens if some apocalyptic event happens next week? Will you survive for even a month?

Personal Improvement: I suppose this should have been written 1st. But we die because of a lack of knowledge. I adore being Black. There is absolutely no shame. In fact, I'd like to be darker with nappier hair. Do you know why? Because I KNOW.. not suspect... not hope.. not imagine... but KNOW that Black people are the source of everything on this planet. I read. I study. I observe. I experiment. And I am willing to pass on what I've learned. But I'm not willing to fight folks to wake up.

Also stop looking to the government for life. You should NOT be getting your health care, your cell phone, your apartment, your food from the government. You should be providing that for your self.

And we need to have an attitude paradigm shift: We have to be nicer and more considerate to our own people. Old people cannot look at young people with disdain and yell at them. Young people cannot look at old people with disdain and think that there are not useful. We can't look at people with prison records and tell them they ain't shit. People with prison records have to accept that their options are limited and have to be innovative about earning honest gold. Black women cannot look at Black men and instantly judge him to be a dead beat dad a cheater and/or a potential abuser. Black men cannot look at Black women and only see a hole. Think all Black women are beneath them. Black men and Black women are EQUALS.

It's not about getting back at white people. White people are all about self-preservation. They look out for themselves. And we should look out for ourselves rather than begging and pleading the white man to look out for us. We expect them to do for us what we won't do for us. Does that sound right to you? Let's get our shit together because that is the only way we can end this cycle of abuse that we receive at the hands of the devil.


Wednesday, November 19, 2014



The church I grew up in had a tradition of asking folks for Bible verses if they came to meeting late. Depending on who was running the meeting, you might have to build on them. But for the most part you just had to quote them. I'm not sure if other churches did this. I have only been a member of 3 churches in my life and only the 1st one did this. It was funny to observe because you saw late people going through their Bibles before they hit the door.

120 has Bible verses. And you do have to quote them as well as build on them. 19:40 is one of such degrees. It has 2 Bible verses. Which I think is interesting since T.H.E.M. Was the one answering these questions. Shouldn't he be using the Koran? I get the people he was talking to were unfamiliar with the Koran, but at some point.....

Anywho.... I adore Ezekiel (God's Strength) 3:18! It sounds amazing when you quote it with emphasis! Like Samuel Jackson in Pulp Fiction. Strangely it was also Ezekiel but verses 25:17. Ezekiel was sure pissed off.... But the verse.... and I'm not writing it out here. You wanna know, look it up.... commissions an uncomfortable duty. We must counsel the 85 or, as the same degree tells, be punished with a severe punishment like being beaten with many stripes.

I hate the thought of doing that. I hate that I am supposed to walk up to folks, all unsolicited, and tell them about themselves. Can I tell you what would happen if someone did that to me??? I got your wrath Ezekiel. But since, as civilized people, we are held responsible for the uncivilized and punished, I have to get over that stage fright.

So what does this look like exactly? Does it look like me walking up to chicks who are showing entirely too much ass, and tell them they need to cover up? Is it going to a rib shack and telling all the patrons and employees that swine kills? Is me knocking on doors like a Jehovah's Witness and asking folks if they know who the true and living God is? Is it standing at the bus station handing out righteous tracts? It kind of is. But that's not my style. It's also not my style to laugh and point at 85ers behaving badly. We all have to find that within us to reach people in a useful way.

It's important that when you talk to the 85, you speak in a way that you words don't get disregarded by your audience. How many times have old people come at you in cold currents and you just go numb? And that's a shame because old people have a lot of sage advice to offer. But when they give good advice with bile, folks turn off. I've seen Gods and Earths do this very thing. Give good advice badly. And rationalizing it off by saying, “Well so what. They needed to hear it.” No... What they need to do is listen and consider, not just hear. That is casting your pearls before swine. An exercise in futility.

I remember back in the 80's Gods would stand on street corners heckling you about any infarction they saw not really offering solutions. It was annoying. “Yo! Little mama get that swine off your lips and seek the true Gawd!” Does that sound like Good Orderly Direction? I flipped them the bird and kept it moving. I'm not righteous because of those Gods. I'm righteous in spite of them.

So here is Serenity's plan... I'm funny. Indeed I am. What I do is greet people in a warm current and make jokes. (And I have met a plethora of UNFUNNY Gods and Earths) Get them laughing and slip a lesson in it. BOOM! Duty done. All the 85ers I share space with all know a little something something about my beloved Nation. Even the people I work with know the difference between our Peace sign and the hippie one. And they know why. When I leave for the day they all say, “Peace” to me. It's a little thing but it counts. Every now and then my boss refers to or calls me Serenity. Just as long as Serenity is NOT on my paycheck we good....

So what are you doing?


Monday, November 17, 2014



This time of year is confusing for a lot of Gods and Earths. For some it is absolutely not. I guess for those G's and E's who have completely immersed themselves in the culture and refuse to adjust or conform to the world around themselves, this time of year is no different from any other time of year. But I'm not one of those Earths. I live in BOTH worlds.

This was something my 7 told me I had to make my peace with once I got 120. Even though we share our lives together, we do have areas that are uniquely our own. He equipped me with the tools to stand on my own square while abroad. And that is one of the many reasons I appreciate him as a God and as an Educator.

There are holidays that exist in this country and at some point we have to ask ourselves if we are going to participate. I would think for this Culture to be 50 years old would make it easier to navigate because there are old people who have already worked out the details. You'd think that. But the reality is a lot of folks keep this close to the vest and don't allow it to translate to the rest of their families. But that's another build. I have this worked out in my life. So I thought I'd share How I do holidays. Remember, this is how I do it. You neither have to agree or disagree.

I observe all national paid holidays. I am an American citizen. I was born an American citizen. I am not a citizen of any other country, nor do I want to be. So when it comes to patriotic holidays, I celebrate. Memorial Day, 4th of July, Labor Day... all that. I grill or travel to a grill, I even have a dedicated outfit that I where on these holidays. I also do Thanksgiving. That is a FABULOUS holiday. It celebrates eating, sports and gratitude. Who can complain about that? I suppose Native Americans can... and that's their right. But as for me.... I'm eating.

Christmas is another beast entirely. Christmas is a Christian holiday that secular people celebrate; unlike Easter. It's easy to avoid Easter. But Christmas... not so much. I don't put up a tree and I don't buy many presents. The only present I buy is for my mother. My mother is old and a ride or die Christian. She isn't changing her ways. And it hurts her when she doesn't receive a gift from her child at Christmas. So I buy one for her. That's my mother. I will spend the day with my family. It is one of the few days in a calendar year that they will gather. We don't do anything particularly religious. We eat, laugh, joke around, other folks will exchange gifts, eat some more and then disperse. One of my cousins has a degree day on 12/17 so we will linger for that and then it's a wrap. So that's a weekend of family. I happily do that. My family knows I'm not a Christian and it has stopped being weird.

I absolutely do Halloween. I do it. I love it. I dare someone to tell me candy and costumes are bad. I give candy to children because I remember the joy of trick-or-treating as a child. There are only a few religions who treat 10-31 as a revered day and precious fewer as a day to do evil to others. Satanists and Luciferians don't do bad things on Halloween. Anti- Halloweeners need to find some chill.

Stray days like Valentine's Day, St. Patrick Day, Cinco de Mayo etc. are on a day-by-day basis. If something fun is going on, I do it. If not, I chill. I like Valentine's Day. It's a romantic girl holiday. Yes the Facebook excuses of why should a dude have to do something on that particular day to me aren't valid. Dudes are just being cheap. I bet on their birthdays when they get a gifts and extra attention, they aren't complaining. It's the same premise. If there is a parade for St Pats, I'll go. I like a good parade. I'll even wear green and drink the green beer. I like margaritas and nachos on 5/5. This is the USA. And in the USA you don't have to be the nationality or ethnicity of a certain group to celebrate. Here, anything goes. But I never claim the other Culture and I won't be disrespectful. I just enjoy the fun parts.

I cannot tell you the last time I stayed up through New Years Eve. I used to insist on doing something, but when I was widowed it was a very painful time to be alone. I started sleeping through it and do you know what? I'm good with it. I even turn my phone off so that my sleep won't get interrupted with all the calls and texts that come in after midnight. The next morning is a good time to start reaching out to folks.

Kwanzaa....? Does anyone know how to celebrate Kwanzaa? I have all the pieces to set up a table. So I do that. We may build on the the Kwanzaa principles and how they coordinate with the day's Supreme math at dinner. That's pretty much it.

When I was a little girl I looked forward to a new Easter outfit... And I still do. I always get something new for Easter and my birthday. That isn't a religious tradition. It's a Serenity tradition.

Nation Days, like the Father's Bornday, Show and Prove and Day 1, I'll celebrate as they were. It's more of an observance than a celebration.

I actually celebrate the change of seasons. It's something I was taught to do a long time ago. It makes sense to me because as tenants of this planet it's important to keep in touch with the natural order of things. So I celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes. For many Original Cultures, the spring equinox marks their new year. We also need to be mindful that depending where on the planet you live the seasons are different so one person's spring equinox might be another's autumn.

The bottom line is we are a show and prove Culture. For whatever reason you do what you do.... make sure your reasoning is sound and mathematical.


Monday, November 10, 2014

Today's Math Knowledge Cipher abbt Knowledge


In case you didn't know... today is my degree day!!!!! I'm excited like all small children are... but I 'm not really looking for any gifts.. per se. I've have gotten to the age where I will buy what I want when I want it. No need to wait until a holiday. I am just supper happy to be here doing what I do and have people who care enough about me to send me a shout out. That's grown.

Birthdays make me introspective. And being that today's Supreme Math is Knowledge Cipher, I think it's appropriate for me to be that way. The number 10 is the end of of a cycle and the beginning of another. It stands to reason when you get to the end of a cycle you stop look back and make determinations about whether you were successful in all your endeavors. Have I done everything I intended to do for the last year? Almost. And the important things that didn't get accomplished, I didn't have control over. Oh there are some tasks that I haven't completed... some not started. The importance is low and it will happen.

My activity with the local Cipher stopped. Not really my decision. And you know what? I'm okay with that. It's been nearly 6 moths and I don't miss it at all. This is not my 1st time being asked to leave Ciphers. When I was a church goer, I was asked to leave multiple congregations because my vision of Christianity was not their vision and since divergent visions aren't allowed.... I didn't miss them either. The duty of a civilized person is to teach the uncivilized. I can do that without the Allah's Garden Cipher. Yes, it is easier to move as a group, but not impossible. I can and still am laboring to Show and prove the Black Man is God; the Black Woman is Earth; and babies are the greatest. I still volunteer primarily with my college alumni chapter, and eventually with my sorority and a bit on my own. I'm still Earth regardless of whom or what.

I'm healthy and happy. There aren't very many things in my life that I'd change that aren't changed if you know what I mean. For quite sometime, I have been striving to live deliberately. Meaning do and be what speaks to me as successful. If you imagine yourself living in a particular home, wearing particular clothes, driving a particular car, etc make that a reality. Manifesting a vision is always successful because it comes with life lessons. You can decide if you like it or not. Did it work for you? And it satisfied curiosities so that you aren't wondering what if... I've been doing that and I'm planning to make a few tweaks here and there.

So here I am at the end of a cycle and beginning another. Renewing my history for another 366 days (next year is a leap year). And it's all good.


Sunday, November 9, 2014



9:14 says that we would permit the devil to come amongst us and do SOME trading.... Why are we permitting devils do it all? What do YOU have to trade? What do Original people in general in this wilderness have to trade? So who are you trading resources with?

I have a business card that says: Dentist, notary, seamstress and midwifery student... But no one is knocking at my doors. It's not 'trading' if you give it away for free.

Everything about 9:14 speaks to me about self sufficiency and the kind-heated nature of Original people. Self sufficiency because we are the ones who should be controlling... or as the degree reads... permitting... trade to happen. In this world, Power is synonymous with money. Moneyed people, have the best toys. Moneyed people have all the items to trade with and for. Money people grant jobs either by employing or using their resources to buy from others and enriching vendor pockets.

Also, according to the degree, clearly devils are segregated from Original people. So that is natural. But what isn't natural is them running the segregation process. him/devil still makes up 10% of the world's total population. No amount of eugenics towards us or birth bonuses for them have been able to change that 1 fact. When devils come around they are to be killed quickly, that is, unless they have gone under study. But if that work hard to strive to emulate us... i.e. become civilized... then they can come around. But if they fuck up... OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! Why is is we allow the devil to hold sway on every level of our existence. From the language we speak to the clothes we wear, to how we conduct ourselves in public. Yes we are kind hearted, but this permissiveness has gone on to a fault. We could benefit form knowing when to cut the devil off.

Oh how we have fallen.....

Just some thoughts that run through my mind while meditating on 120.


Friday, November 7, 2014

7:14 Lies I've Been Told


I probably built on this before. So if this is a repeat... my bad. It happens. And it will be a build mcnugget....

I hate to admit this... But up until maybe 5 years ago.... I thought all of Africa was savage. It's true. I was thinking it was all Tarzan and those people lived in huts sleeping on floors and wild hyenas were just roaming around at will picking folks off. Ridiculous I know. The parts that didn't have the animal savagery, were war torn with people fleeing half naked with bloated bellies who needed missionaries to save their immortal souls and bring clean water. And when I'd see African people here, I'd be like “I know your glad you're here” I'd hear people, Black and white tell me that maybe slavery was a good thing because we got out. And this is after me having 120! My late husband was a travel agent and Africa was a place that we we were in agreement about NOT wanting to go.

That was foolish.

I have come to learn that Africa is as modern as the US. Parts are the shit and other parts just shit... like the US. And do you know what prompted me to into that realization??? The Real Housewives of Atlanta. They took a trip to Africa and it wasn't jungle it was posh and citified. They were staying in a luxury hotel getting all pampered and eating well. The jungle part was a guided tour. That made me pause and do the 1 to Africa. Some areas are bush, but the people who live there know there are other options and many take the road more traveled. It's no different from how Amish want to live off grid or other Americans who want to live in the projects.... its a want. There are jungles and savagery right here in this country.

And then I came across the first sentence of 7:14 and realized... They got me. I fell for the okey doke for years, months and days. And I am not an uneducated or unsophisticated person. The devil does his work well. I, and probably you too, have lived in the US and been indoctrinated to accept lies. We are not the 'sole controller' if we function in a trap of lies that someone has set for us. I was watching some election commercials and I just want to scream at how campaigns put outright lies out there for the masses. And folks BELIEVE them. But who's responsibility is it to make us informed? Is it the people who want a job from us or are we supposed to do the background check on our own? If you buy a bag a shit from the elected officials, what do you think they will give you back? Doing the 1 for self is so important.

But doing the 1 isn't the only thing we need to do. We need to consistently take stock and self evaluate to find the places... the nooks and crannies... were foolishness and misinformation dwells. We need to find these spots and shine the light of Knowledge and Truth on them. And this is who we become our best selves. This is how we elevate. This is how we get out of the plots that have been dug for us. And it is our own responsibility to do this... no one else.


Thursday, November 6, 2014

Today's Supreme Mathematics: Equality


Equality Doesn't mean that everybody gets the same stuff.

Equality means that everyone has the same access and the same opportunity to craft the existence they want.