Relationship Baggage

Peace Y'all,

This is not my normal build. And it is loaded with emotion. So if that turns you off, now is the time to bounce….

The God and I just got back from the metro NJ/NY area for Show and Prove. We had a really nice time at the S&P. On the way back, one of us neglected to put my luggage in the truck. We managed to drive all the way back to Allah’s Garden and didn’t notice it wasn’t in the truck. I was angry…. Very angry. But I knew that once the anger passed, I would find humor in it because that’s what I do. I asked the hotel to forward it to me at my expense. They declined. Luckily, my sister works in the city where my luggage was stranded. And she was able to ship my luggage to me through her job at no charge to her or me. So once I get my bag everything will work itself out.

This is part that has me annoyed…. A “friend” of mine made a comment that slapped me completely upside the head… She asked me if I was going to leave the 7. But she didn’t just say, “Are you going to leave him?” She called him all manner of trifling nigger and she has never even met him. (The 7 will hurt a woman’s feeling and/or administer physical justice. I don’t want them to meet because she might cause him to want to slap her) I had to restrain myself from not slapping the taste out of her mouth, myself. And that mercy is very unlike me but (a) I was at work and (b) I was the one who voluntarily offered the information… because it started to be funny to me.

Well I learned valuable lessons from the interaction….
Don’t take relationship advice from single people.
Don’t discuss my business with just anybody.
Don’t hold the man to standard higher than the ones I hold for myself.
Don’t be so quick to kick a good man to the curb.
I don’t have to defend my man to anybody. And I won’t.
And I need some married friends….

This chick has no man. None. She used to have a man, but she broke him down so deep that he slithered away from her. And he was the only dude that I know would put up with her foolishness. So how is this man-repelling heifer going to tell me how to keep my man? And my man is God, at that! She needs to shut the fuck up. That took me back to my parents’ tumultuous and ridiculous relationship. My mother has single friends and those friends were never happy for the others when they had men. Suffice to say, none of them have relationships with men. Oh, they all tried. None succeeded and now they are all old, and all alone. But they have each other. They are so close it wouldn't surprise me if I found out that they were lesbians together.

Another thing about this chick is she is a straight shit talker. Just a ridiculous mouth for a woman or anybody. A mouth like a split pocket. No refinement at all. And if I say that… me…. Who can and will curse a mug out at/in a church that is saying something. And it’s not that this woman is uneducated. She has a bachelors and 2 master’s degrees that she earned on her own dime. But she either never got the message that there is a way that you talk to people or she doesn’t care. Even when she is representing her job, she is crass. I’m thinking this is how she is, and I tend to give her passes for that reason and also because she is really very young and has limited life experience. I’m not sure she realizes this. I’ve seen other people do this too. But she went too far. She even had the nerve to ask me if I was going to leave him. Really? Over luggage! I had to check her. And I don’t think I ever did that before. She was very surprised and tried to recover to no avail.

Lets be real, I’m not leaving my man because he made a mistake that could be fixed. No. Not at all. But misery loves company and hurt people hurt people. I’m no longer in her company. I need to find some married friends.

This got me to thinking…. Women are really hard on men and make a lot of claims that I don’t believe are accurate. “All men are dogs.” Since animals rarely breed willingly outside their species, if a woman is getting dogs then that means she is a bitch. “Black men don’t want to work.” That isn’t something that you can really say unless you know ALL Black men. That’s just saying you interact with some pure fools. But I don’t. All my men work. If that isn’t your experience, then that says more about you than it does the genre of men. Women also hold men to a higher expectation than they would like men to hold them. If men are supposed to be the providers (and I’m not saying they aren’t supposed to be), then the women need to show and prove 14:14…. Like a mug. Make them biscuits from scratch honey and get on your hands and knees to scrub the floor. You want your man to stay with you in a nasty house while eating burger king.

I take full responsibility. I should not have discussed my personal business with outsiders. And it wasn’t like I was telling our personal intimate business. I was actually in shock that this happened and on some level I was working it out in my mind but out loud with other people. I’m not saying I should not have done it; I should have been more particular about who I built with. Yet another lesson learned.

Keep taking the best part.



Peace

5 AF:Flower Moon - Think Like a Woman!

Peace.

May’s moon was a Super Moon. A Super moon is a full moon that appears 30% brighter and 14% bigger than a normal full moon. The source that I have been getting these full moon names from calls May’s moon the flower moon because flowers are abundant during this moon.

The Actual Fact that coincides with this moon is “Hills and mountains, 1,910,000 square miles.”

I will draw these up in combination to mean that there is Power in nature’s beauty of hills and mountains of women.

The slang for breasts and ass in our nation is “hills and mountains.” And 1,910,000 abbt Wisdom…. The Black woman. I have no problem acknowledging another woman’s beauty. I do no fear that it diminishes my own, nor am I afeared of being called or considered a lesbian. I know a few lesbians; I don’t meet the criteria for membership. But a woman should be able to offer more than a beautiful countenance and a shapely body.

Yes, your appearance has Powerful magnetic, but it’s a weak charge. Once possessed, a man can easily tire of it, or find another more beautiful. A woman must posses other traits that will show forth her Equality (5:SA). She could be intelligent, she could cook, she could sing like an angel, she could keep a clean house, something damnit! Otherwise when the bloom falls from the rose… and it will… there will be something left to keep said charge STRONG!

Enjoy the Show and Prove! Look for me there. I Blog While Brown too.


Peace

This is a New Season

Peace. Way back in the day when I first became exposed to this culture (1980’s), there was ONLY one way to get at this. You needed someone to walk you through the degrees. During that walk your educator/enlightener should explain the way we interact with each other and the traditions of the Gods and Earths. For women it was a bit different. Women in the 80’s weren’t really encouraged to learn 120. Your God taught you he thought you needed and that was it. I remember how I used to go with the boy who lived across the street to get his degrees and never had been offered nothing but advice to cut the ‘pork’ (Jheri curl) out of my hair. Nowadays, if you tell an 85’er or devil that you are God or Earth or that you are in the NGE or are a 5%’er, if they have never heard of us, they won’t ask any questions. They will Google us. When we are googled, folks will learn all kind of things about us… We are criminals… You have to do a bid to become God…. The women are all shell shocked and beaten by the Gods…. We are a gang…. We hate white people…. We killed Michael Jordan’s father. You know what else can 85’ers and devils get from the internet regarding our culture? Supreme Mathematics, Supreme Alphabet and 120. Once this information is downloaded… Once the books are bought…. Why is the motivation for them to seek us out? Do they need us for anything else? Now you and I both know that this is some pure devilishment. You KNOW that just having possession of SM, SA, and 120 is not enough to call yourself God or Earth. We know that (a) it must be memorized, (b) it must be lived (c) it must be understood and (d) our duty is to the babies. But you aren’t going to get that off the internet. Our culture was not meant to be expressed in a vacuum. It was meant to be expressed in a community. The Father called 9, not 1. We also know that we aren’t like religious people (for so many reasons) in the fact that we don’t proselytize. If you want it you have to ask for it. We will make ourselves known for God is seen and heard everywhere; but you have to ask us for it. All this being said….. We have to switch up our approach because there is a new generation of individuals who play with our culture and are jus begging for universal justice and don’t even know it! Used to be you just couldn’t receive 120 without fasting a few days, and making it clear to your would be educator that you are serious. And I’m a be real, SM and SA are easy enough to remember. If you are having a hard time putting something that you already know (you already know numbers and alphabet) on cap, then you are a dumb ass and you will never earn a flag. So 120 is the thing. There are internet ciphers popping up all over the place. I know, I have been invited to join. These folks have a convoluted impression of what it means and what it takes to be true and living these days. It’s mixed diluted and tampered with. It’s run by individuals that never walked and talked with physical Gods and Earths. Yet they feel perfectly comfortable in representing our Nation. There was a God that came to one of the Allah’s Garden parliaments with a cd with his picture on it claiming he was G.O.D. When he was tested, he was found lacking. Not just lacking, he had no idea what Allah’s 5% Nation of Gods and Earths is. When it was suggested that he go under instruction of a real God, he declined. He felt like what he had and knew was sufficient. Back in the day you know how that would have turned out. Bu this isn’t back in the day. You just can’t beat folks down anymore. They don’t realize that it would be rude to call the cops. What can we do about the internet? Not much. We can’t stop people from slandering us. We can’t stop people from putting our lessons out there. But we can make ourselves a stronger intense presence. When we see the foolishness we need to speak and squash it. If you got this the right and exact way, you should be able to show and prove. Another thing is we aren’t as present in the musical genre as we once were. Brand Nubian, WuTang, Poor Righteous Teachers, Diggable Planets, etc are no longer relevant in this age. These new artists reflect sex, consumerism and materialism. This is not the conscious 90’s. So we need to stop looking to that sphere for representation. In this day and age, we have to show forth and prove our value. That was hard for me to type because when one is inherently valuable one shouldn’t have to quantify it. The explanation diminishes said value. But value cannot be applied if one doesn’t know you exist or recognize the value. You feel me? We need to be seen and heard under our own flag. Our ways and actions have to be positive and most importantly be public and attributable to only our Nation. Not so we can receive Yakub’s shine but so that we can make ourselves positively known in ALL ciphers. I rest in Allah’s Garden. This is the Bible belt. Folks give much gold to the preachers here like Eddie Long and Creflo Dollar. They give the little preacher good money too. There is a church on every corner. Folks already don’t want to give up white Jesus, but they will absolutely not give any credence to something that’s not balling out of control. “Oh you want me to come to one of your meetings? We they at? The park???? You serious???, Naw shawty, I’m busy on Sunday afternoons….” There are loads of Original colleges here too. But they are even harder to draw up. Think about it… you are say, 18 19 years old. And all you know is Jesus. You meet a man who calls himself Allah who has no car, no job, no address and he wants to turn you on to a different way of thinking that he claims will free you…. Free you to do what? Be broke? I’m not criticizing or minimizing my nation or my people’s accomplishments. What I am saying is the time has come to change the conversation. Not change the degrees or the traditions. Change our approach. We can’t build on the corners like we did back in the 80’s. Folks will just cross the street. We can’t strong arm and beat folks down. We can’t exclude women from the struggle. Protecting the Earth sounds good to my ear, but that doesn’t mean lock me in the basement and only let me out for breeding and feeding. We have to do better. I know this is for everybody, but everybody ain’t for this. But you don’t want to exclude those who it is for because we weren’t doing our duty to reach them. Peace

How Much Do you Weigh?

Peace

What is the weight of the planet Earth?
6 sextillion tons. A unit followed by 21 ciphers….

I will admit that this was one of my least favorite degrees. I mean what woman wants to discuss weight. You can’t even born it, because of the unit. But I have approached this degree from a different direction and have a more pleasant take on it.

I no longer see the degree as asking me how much I weigh. But I see the degree asking me how much have I evolved. 21 ciphers is a lot. And it doesn’t give you a number. It reads “unit.” Unit is defined as an individual, group, structure, or other entity regarded as an elementary structural or functional constituent of a whole. So a “unit” is something that is complete. Those that know my build on the differences between God and Earth can attest to this being my cee on the Earth. A cipher is a person, place or thing complete unto itself. And this degree has many ciphers. So as a complete individual, what is my current weight (weight is a measurement)? That is dependant on my evolution or change?

The 21 ciphers refer to the changes that have made me the complete individual I am within my own Universe. I am not the same person I was 10 years ago. 10 years ago I was a married 85er. I had different dreams then that I have now. I see things differently now than then. Go back 10 years before that. I was still in school concerned about grades, cars and what my parents think of me. And so on. 10 years from now I will be different still. Who can predict those changes? I would like to think that I will still be adding on to Allah’s Nation; but 10 years ago I thought I’d be a Christian for life. Hell I might be dead in 10 years or rich. Yes, I’d like to come into money, buy a farm, get some chickens and goats, become self sustainable, become a midwife, and open a wellness facility. That dream would have shocked Serenity of 5 years ago and before. Who knows what the future will hold. The only thing constant is change.

Change has a beauty of Equality. Everything changes and for everybody. Nobody is immune to change. Look at a grade school picture of your self. Do you look the same? Can you eat the food you did as a child and it affect you the same way? I will answer for you… NO. We do not maintain some alien stasis. We constantly change.

So let me ask you this…. Where you stand on the evolutionary scale?

I love when a degree can be redeemed!



Peace

4:AF/Flower Moon

Peace, I am almost caught up! April’s Full moon is known throughout the Cultures that keep track of this sort of thin as a planting moon. This moon marks the time when people take the agricultural process outside. Indoor/outdoor gardeners like me sometimes often start vegetable plants indoors in March. The April moon marks the time that I would normally plant my seedlings in the ground and allow the Earth to do her thing. Trust me, the ground and the rain has more experience and information than I do. And because of the name of April’s moon, I’m thinking I’m not the 1st to recognize this. The Actual Fact that corresponds to Culture is “Lakes and rivers are 1 million square miles.” Now I have been watching the cable show River Monsters. I have learned from that show that lakes and rivers aren’t completely danger free. In fact they are very dangerous. Crocodiles, alligators, snakes, catfish, nasty bacteria and other things makes me rethink dangling my feet in the local river. Also, I have the unfortunate experience of having lost a god brother to a river when I was a child. So even though lakes and rivers have fresh drinkable water, that water can be tainted. These two different concepts merge for me when I consider our NGE culture. 47 years is a long time, but not that long. It’s sweet, nourishing, ever growing, but can be dangerous. We have Gods and Earths who where born into our culture, but the way we draw people up for the most part is through our magnetic. Now I may be biased when I say this is the best culture and EVERYONE will benefit from seeking the truth and living authentically Original. I find my beloved culture as refreshing as spring water when done correctly. But we know that isn’t always accurate. I would love to say that our culture and our people are warm and fuzzy and there is only love and affection when we come together. I would like to say that, but that would be a lie. Our culture is like any other culture. We have the same problems and issues that affect any other culture. BUT I will say that when folks live mathematically it doesn’t blow up as bad as say Judaism, Islam or Christianity. We have yet to start a holy war or treat folks shady because they aren’t us. But not everyone who professes to live this culture, is. That may sound judgmental, but I have the right to see things as I do. Some Earths don’t do 3/4ths. I really can’t see that. Whatever excuse some chick comes up with can usually be easily refuted. Earths have few requirements when it comes to our nation; why can’t we do 3/4ths? I’m just saying. Some Gods and Earths let their 120 go. Now I know it’s easy to do. I have caught myself on a decline once or twice. But I live with my God and we have a way of holding each other accountable for the lifestyle so that never really gets out of hand. 120 is 9 pages (the way I have it printed). There is no reason to forget your degrees once you have them. Some Gods and Earths are only righteous last Sunday of the month between the hours of 2-6pm. The rest of the month you call them by the names their mothers gave them and they show all the hills and mountains they want to show. Some Gods and Earths just don’t understand what encompasses this culture and refuse to live it out. And that is were the waters get murky and danger waits. One of the traditions (for lack of a better word) of our culture is violence. I’m neither proud nor advocating this violence. But I do understand it. Violence is an effective deterrent of bullshit. So when bullshit rears its head, violence takes that head off with no chaser. This keeps folks in line. Is it the best way? No. But it works. But I am concerned about the seeds being sown and the fruit that results from it. I don’t see the violence as a throwback to slavery. And violence is used all over the planet as a deterrent. But it seems like righteous grown folks should have other tools in the box other than frank violence. I’m a leave it there. Peace

3:AF/Worm Moon

Peace.

I have been remiss with my monthly actual fact building. It’s trifling of me to be in that error since it was my idea! I will beg your pardon. So let’s get on with it, shall we?

The Indian Ocean is 29,321,000 square miles. Peace.
March’s full moon is called the Worm Moon. Peace

Wisdom Born Understanding Wisdom Knowledge Cipher Cipher Cipher is abbt Build/Destroy through Knowledge God (which happens to be today’s Supreme Mathematics).

The Worm moon is the moon that heralds the end of winter which brings forth the Asiatic New Year and spring possibilities.

I see these to correlate that One can be successful (29:40) when one Understands (3:SM) one’s Universe (21:SA). Yeah, I’m dipping and dabbing all over 120 for this one.

Within personal ciphers/Universes, the only constant is change. Yes you will get things were you want them, only to have them change irrevocably. You think you will live in a home until you die only to find that you have a better opportunity in another state. You think that the major you labor for will yield you a job in said field and that is often not the case. Ask a person in their Culture Ciphers if their life is as they planned in their Wisdom Ciphers or younger. Chances are, it’s completely different. So the only thing on can depend on is change.

Change has 2 sides: a change for the better (Building) or a change for the worse (destroying). Even that is relative. The best way to be successful in your undertakings is to strive to direct change for the positive. That’s all you can do. I bear witness that intended positive direction can lead to negative repercussions. But at the end of the day, I know my intentions. And if I intended good and received.. not good, I will still be able to sleep well at night.

So there is my build, y’all.



Peace

That Chick

Peace!

I freely admit this is a rant. So feel free to skip it….

I hate people sometimes. I really do. One of my dealbreakers in any relationship is lack of reciprocity. If I do something for you…. especially something YOU asked me to do; you better be willing to pay it back. On Demand. I am a good friend. Not everyone that has my cell number is considered my friend. Some folks are just associates. I go all out for the people I care about. I need that for that to be mutual in order to maintain ‘friendship’ standing.

I need to clarify that I am not a "That Chick". You know that female who is always in need of aid. I can say that in complete honesty. I have had all manner of bad shit happen to me and I bare it on my own back. I don’t go off all ham needing other people to hold me up. In fact, I am the one usually holding other people up. So let me get into what is pissing Serenity off today….

I have a ‘friend’ who doesn't think twice about calling me last minute requesting that I ride with her to AL, LA or some other mystery god forsaken locale. And I went it every time she asked me. AT MY OWN EXPENSE. I buy my own food and entertainment and sometimes chip in on gas. She once wanted some barbequed swine and I drove 6 hours to SC to procure it. I’m a good friend. When she was sick, I cooked real food for her family for a week on my own dime. When she was taking care of her mother in another state, I cleaned her house and looked after her husband and children. (and she has a son that I don’t like) But when I asked her to ride with me to niece’s baby shower more than 2 months away, she couldn’t be bothered. Guess who is getting cut off?

I have another ‘friend’ who, when I was single used to invite me to everything going on in her home. I was invited to breakfasts and dinners and parties. I spoke to her at least 5 times a week and we used to hang out like pseudo-ballers. And now… Nothing. Now that I have a live in God, she doesn’t want to be hang out with me. Now that’s not me projecting. Those were her words. She doesn’t feel comfortable around him. She met him once… In a grocery store parking lot…. He didn’t say much and gave her the hug she asked for. But now she acts like he threatened or molested her. Yeah… I can’t.

There is are Earths in the cipher that add on regularly with each other and NEVER include me. Not that I need to be included. But it’s disconcerting to find out that such social equality existed and I was purposefully not included. What, I don't have feelings?

There are folks that would argue that they are jealous. But …. No. Folks say that to help them sleep through the night. Others have said that I intimidate people that’s why they don’t want to be around me. And I have had the experience of paying for services and not getting what I paid for because the people are scared of me. That’s some punk bitch shit right there. Your scared of dealing with me so you take my money and don't give me what I paid for? You really think that will work in your favor?

I have never been the type of female to have a load of female friends. Call it however you see it. I was raised in a house with 3 other men and I was the baby and only girl. That means I never shared anything with another female. I am more used to how men do things than the politics of women. And growing up I had female friends but not a lot. Yes I used to sit on the phone for hours at a time, but with the same circle of friends. And no I haven’t always kept the same friends but it has never been more than say 4 or 5 friends. That includes cousins. And I have had the experience of going into situations were I knew no one and still managed to get by. So it’s not that I need this interaction. It just would be nice.

Recently I was told it’s because I’m strong that this shit keeps happening to me. Really? That’s some bullshit if I ever heard of one. So because I strive to keep my business in good working condition, and not need to rely on others outised my personal cipher (and very few within) this precludes me from social equality? SMH…. I hardly believe that. But whatever the reason is, I want all these chicken heads to welcome and accept my finger with a gooey turd. I’m done with y’all pathetic asses.


Peace