Small Deaths

Peace.

This should have really been yesterday’s Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Knowedge abbt Wisdom; but you know. Stuff gets old. I suppose I could back date it or set it to display next month…. But I am not going through all of that. Just bear with me…

Have you ever really considered what doing the Knowledge to Knowledge entails? It means question what you know or what you think you know. Because there will always be some ways and actions that come because of it. Is it Wisdom or just some bullshit. That’s on you.

Since this whole Martin vs. Zimmerman case, has brought out all kinds of memories and thoughts in folks. Devils are just that; weak and wicked. They never take responsibility for their own actions. They blame it on other folks. Black folks are scary so they have the right to kill us before we kill them…. Even if that wasn’t out intention. It’s what we get. I have never been convicted of a crime, I don’t have illegitimate children, never been on assistance, I have 2 degrees, I’ve been married, my parents were married and college educated, etc. I beat all the stereotypes. BUT… It doesn’t matter I’m Black. And because of that, it is allowed to treat me anyway that a white person sees fit. And should I complain, I am told, “Well it’s not our fault. You Black people – insert bullshit assed statistic---.” Not cool.

The Martin vs. Zimmerman thing is extreme but not uncommon. him/devils do this everyday and sleep very well afterwards. And yes Trayvon physically died on February 26, 2012; but Original people die little deaths every day. And my question is do white people die these same little deaths?

I was 7 years old and in the 2nd grade at a white private religious school. The teacher was giving a presentation on the importance of eating breakfast. She decided to go around the room and ask every one what they ate for breakfast. I was one of 2 Black children in the class…. And parents stop assuming that your child will get a superior education at white schools. Mental death i.e. “white indoctrination” begins there… The teacher got to me first because of the position of my desk. She asked me, “Did you have breakfast?” Now why would she ask that? I was 7 and in a private school. I wasn’t there on a voucher or financial aid. If my mother could afford to send me there she could afford to feed me. I was the only student, other than the other Black student that was first asked if we ate breakfast. I said, “Yes.” She then asked, “What did you eat?” I said, “Grits.” Yes grits. Because that’s what I had for breakfast. I grew up in NJ, but my parents were from SC. We ate grits. Most of my Black friend’s parents were from somewhere in the south and they ate grits. The friends that weren’t directly tied to the south at least knew what grits was. The teacher asked my 7 year old ass, “What are grits?” How the fuck am I supposed to know that at 7? I came along in the era where you ate what was put in front of you no questions asked. I had no clue and told her as much. I offered, “It’s hot and creamy. Mommie putts butter and cheese in them.” But that wasn’t enough for the teacher. Some white child raises his hand and says, “I know what grits are. It’s what you feed to horses and pigs.” Everyone in the class screamed… except the other Black child… and started to make fun of me. The teacher didn’t stop them. But she did ask me if that was true. Again…. I am 7, and I never had any horses or pigs. I said, “I don’t know.” Which was my honest answer. At recess the other Black child came to me and told me that he had had grits for breakfast too, but when he saw how they clowned me, he omitted them when asked and just said bacon and eggs.

Later that evening, after dinner had been eaten, my brother and I were upstairs cutting a fool in our play clothes. BECAUSE…. The first thing any Black child is told to do when they come home from school, church, anywhere significant is to, “Put your play clothes on.” And you are aware play clothes aren’t meant to be seen by outsiders. I heard the doorbell ring. And of course like children we were screaming. “Mommie the door!” as she was walking to it. She looks through the curtain and curses a bit… Back then Mommie cursed like a sailor. She wasn’t the good evangelist she is now. And now that she’s old, she’s trying to get into heaven…. She opens the door to my teacher and principal are standing there with groceries. I recognize the voices, but I know not to come downstairs until summoned. So my brother and I sit at the top of the stairs listening to what’s going on.

“We brought groceries because your daughter told us that you couldn’t afford to eat properly and was eating animal food.” Did I fucking say that? Mommie took a deep breath and called for me to come downstairs. By this time I looked like a hobo… I had on play clothes and had been rough housing with my big brother, my hair was crazy!… which only fueled these people’s suspicions. Mommie brought us all in the kitchen and I explained what I had said. She looked at the white people and asked for confirmation. And they said yes. Mommie, in a calm manner that I was unfamiliar with opened our full cabinets and refrigerator to show them our food. Then she pulled down the container of grits with the Quaker on it to show them. She explained it was corn and then she cooked some for them to try. As far as the horses and pig thing goes, I learned that my mother had some familiarity with porcine and equine diets and made that knowledge born to these devils. She also asked them in her sneaky way if they lived in a house as large as ours. They admitted that they rented. She asked if they had college degrees. The principal did, but the teacher did not. Oh, Mommie gave it to them in a fine mist. They left with new information and the groceries they brought.

When they were gone, I got one of many speeches I have gotten through the years on how to navigate the world abroad… The white world. She told me to be ever vigilant. That white folks had to think of themselves as better than us; and it wasn’t the case. Everyone was equal, but people fell into different socioeconomic categories. And to remember that white folks would always think they were better than Black folks, simply because they were white. That I had to live in a way to show them that I was just as good if not better. That is a LOT for a 7 year old to take in. I asked her why white folks felt superior just because of skin. They could have easily been born Black and we white. Mommie smiled and admitted that she didn’t have an answer to that question. Another shocker. Mommie has all the answers. She could be a seer or an oracle.

Here are the lessons I learned that evening…. (1) White folks consider themselves the default. Anything you do that they don’t seems exotic and somehow wrong. (2) Folks will make up shit to fill in the blanks. The white boy and Black boy did this to me. So that is a universal rule. (3) Your own people will sell you out. Had the other Black person in the class admitted that he had the same breakfast then the white folks may have thought that this was a “Black” thing and not that I was in need of assistance. (4) I learned about the concept “white privilege” and “Black tax”. (5) I learned that there were multiple worlds and that non-white people live in all of them, while white people only live in their own world. (6) I learned that my crazy, hot tempered mother could negotiate the world of white folks. (7) I learned that I had to behave differently around white folks. (8) I learned that my mother already knew this because she had done it before. (9) And I learned that white people will insult you in the name of helping you.

I encourage y’all to post your stories no matter how long. I will also be posting more small deaths. And if there are white people reading this, don’t feel insulted. This is one Black woman’s experiences. Y’all can post your experiences too.


Peace

Liver Flush

Peace Fam,

This weekend I finally completed a liver flush. The last time I completed a liver flush was in maybe 2008ish? What is a liver flush? I’m glad you asked. Here we go….

The What’s and Why’s:
The Liver is an important organ to cleanse. With the exception of the skin, the liver is the largest organ in the body and performs over 500 functions, far more than any other organ in the body. We cannot be healthy or recover from illness without a strong, clean well-functioning liver. If the liver is unable to carry out its full function, not only does it become congested and weak; all other organs will be more challenged as a result.

The flush I performed could be done at home. This flush can be done in just 24 hours, so it is easy to fit into a busy schedule. It is recommended that you have done a full 7-day cleanse prior to this flush, mainly to take the toxic pressure off your organs and to be sure that your body is alkaline. This is why I waited until after I completed my 21 day juice fast.

Cleansing the liver of gallstones dramatically improves digestion (agni), which is the basis of your whole health. You can expect your allergies to disappear; at least that is what I was hoping for. This year’s allergy season has been whipping my ass. I was kind of hoping for a reduction or remission of my eczema as well. Allegedly, it also eliminates shoulder, upper arm, and upper back pain. I can’t speak on that since I didn’t have that affliction to start out with. It claims to give more energy and increased sense of well being. I’m not going to say I experienced this since I was feeling good off my juice fast.

It is the job of the liver to make bile, 1 to 1 ½ quarts in a day! The liver is full of tubes (biliary tubing) that deliver the bile to one large tube (the common bile duct). The gallbladder is attached to the common bile duct and acts as a storage reservoir. Eating fat or protein triggers the gallbladder to squeeze itself empty after about twenty minutes, and the stored bile finishes its trip down the common bile duct to the intestine.

For many persons, including children, the biliary tubing is choked with gallstones. Some develop chest pains, allergies or hives but some have no symptoms. I have seen pictures which had me wondering if my liver and gall bladder looked like this. If the stones haven’t had the time to calcify, then you won’t be able to see them on x-ray and the only way to know is via surgery. Yeah…. Not gonna happen. So I figure that even if my hepatic apparatus isn’t choked, it can’t hurt. It’s advised to cleanse your liver twice a year.

This is what a clogged gall bladder looks like. Would you want this? No. This picture alone made me want to do this flush.


The Hows:
Preparation
~Eat a diet high in alkaline-forming foods and low in fats for at least 3-5 days before cleansing
~it helps prepare the liver by having a glass of fresh apple juice every day for 1 week prior to cleansing. Apple juice helps to dissolve the stones.

Ingredients
Epsom salts: 4 tablespoons. I didn’t know you could ingest Epsom salt prior to my 1st cleanse
Olive oil: 1/2 cup
Fresh pink grapefruit: 1 large or 2 small, enough to squeeze 1/2 cup, you could use lemon juice too. But ½ cup of straight lemon juice seems harsh and mixing it with EVOO, seems more like a salad dressing

Instructions
Choose 2 days in a row for the flush, since you will need to rest and be near a bathroom the next day. Take no medicines (if you are on Rx meds check with your MD – s/he will say no- 1st), vitamins or pills that you can do without; they could prevent success. Eat a no-fat breakfast and lunch such as cooked cereal, fruit, fruit juice, bread and preserves or honey (no butter or milk). This allows the bile to build up and develop pressure in the liver. Higher pressure pushes out more stones. I just fasted the whole day.

2:00 PM. Do not eat or drink after 2 o’clock. If you break this rule you could feel quite ill later. Get your Epsom salts ready. Mix 4 tbs. in 3 cups (750 ml) water and pour this into a jar. This makes four servings, ¾ cup (185 ml) each. Set the jar in the refrigerator to get ice cold (this is for convenience and taste only, because all of this is nasty tasting).

6:00 PM. Drink one serving (¾ cup) of the ice cold Epsom salts. If you did not prepare this ahead of time, mix 1 tbs. in ¾ cup water now. You may add 1/8 tsp. vitamin C powder to improve the taste. You may also drink a few mouthfuls of water afterwards or rinse your mouth. Get the olive oil and citrus out to warm up.

8:00 PM. Repeat by drinking another ¾ cup (185 ml) of Epsom salts. You haven’t eaten since two o’clock, but you won’t feel hungry. Get your bedtime chores done. The timing is critical for success.

9:45 PM. Pour ½ cup (measured) olive oil into the pint jar. Squeeze the citrus fruit (grapefruit, lime or lemon) by hand into the measuring cup. Remove pulp with fork. You should have at least ½ cup. I juiced mine, but in the past I have purchased grapefruit juice. Now I can see that fresh is best. Add this to the olive oil. Blend well, until watery (only fresh grapefruit juice does this). Now visit the bathroom one or more time, even if it makes you late for your ten o’clock drink. Don’t be more than 15 minutes late. You will get fewer stones.

10:00 PM. Drink the oil and juice you have mixed. Take it all to your bedside if you want, but drink it standing up. Get it down within 5 minutes (fifteen minutes for very elderly or weak persons).

Lie down immediately. You might fail to get stones out if you don’t. The sooner you lie down the more stones you will get out. Be ready for bed ahead of time. Don’t clean up the kitchen (make someone else do that). As soon as the drink is down walk to your bed and lie down on your right side with your knees pulled up close to your chest. Try to think about what is happening in the liver. Try to keep perfectly still for at least 20 minutes. You may feel a train of stones traveling along the bile ducts like marbles. There is no pain because the bile duct valves are open (thank you Epsom salts!). Go to sleep, you may fail to get stones out if you don’t. Try to sleep in this position. Sleep on a towel in case you shit yourself in your sleep. The amount of Epsom salt taken is a LOT. 1 tablespoon would have been enough to bring out diarrhea.

Next morning. Upon awakening (6:00 am) take your third dose of Epsom salts. If you have indigestion or nausea wait until it is gone before drinking the Epsom salts. You may go back to bed. Don’t take this potion before 6:00 am.

8:00 am (2 Hours Later.) Take your fourth (the last) dose of Epsom salts. You may go back to bed again.

After 2 More Hours you may eat. Start with fruit juice. Half an hour later eat fruit. One hour later you may eat regular food but keep it light. By supper you should feel recovered.


The Results:
Even though I did as listed above, and I butt peed for 2 days. I did NOT get any stones. Am I disappointed? No. It just means my liver and gall bladder is stone free. I’m okay with that. The 1st time I did this, I got stones. A LOT of stones. Each subsequent time, I got less and less stones. Since I hadn’t done this flush in a few years, I kind of expected some stonage. But nope, nada, nothing. I’m okay with that. Did I feel better? Did my eczema go away? No. Remember I was feeling kind of great from my fast so I can’t tell. Also this…. When you are juice fasting, you aren’t really ingesting anything that requires the use of your gall bladder. So if there are stones in there, I assume (remember I’m a dentist not a liver specialist) they either stay there or dissolve since there is nothing to trigger the release of bile. This is another reason why you shouldn’t break a long fast with just anything. Your body is not ready for it.

Some folks poop on a colander so they can collect the stones.... Why? Just look in the toilet. And definitely don't photograph this nastiness. But without the photos I couldn't show them to you could I?


An interesting observation the God made was I have a clean diet… I’m a pescatarian, I fast regularly, I drink a lot of water, and I don’t eat out as much as most Americans. I’m relatively clean internally. Why would I develop stones?

The Conclusion:
I’m good and clean on the inside parts. Yay Serenity!!!! Whoot whoot!

I highly recommend liver flushing at least 1/year if you are healthy and have a clean diet. 2/year if you don’t.


Peace

Now What?

I have a simple question based on today's degree in the 1-14....

Now that you have taken back Jerusalem, what will you do with it?


Peace

Happy Asiatic New Year!

Happy Asiatic New Year!

At 5:14 am Eastern Standard Time, the wheel/calendar turned and now it is officially Spring!!!!

Many of the 85 ciphers in which I travel, think that the name think that the name is a joke. It’s not. And those of you reading probably know and understand, but I feel like I need to make Knowledge Born for the visitors. She here we go.

Most ancient Cultures do not recognize January 1st as the beginning of their years. Why would they? Julius Caesar isn’t important to everyone. That’s like saying everyone writes with the same alphabet or numbers. (If you think they do, you need to do some more research) A lot of cultures use the seasons and the moon to document the passage of time. I would stand to reason that the beginning of spring is a good time to mark the beginning of a new year. Not the middle of winter. The date of the Equinox to mark the transition is reproducible via the constellations and location of the Sun.

Many people these days still celebrate the Vernal Equinox, though they don’t realize it. Easter is a ANY holiday. Easter is calculated to be the 1st Sunday after the full moon that falls after the ANY. ANY has to come before Easter. Passover is scheduled on the 15th day of there month, Nissan. Jewish months are based on the moon. And Nissan always starts on ANY. Zoroastianism starts it’s new year with ANY with it’s holiday Noruz. Pagans celebrate ANY with Ostara. ANY marls the Ba’hai New Year, an d Nyepi in Bali. Higan is a Buddhist holiday staring on ANY and Tunisian Nation Day is on the equinox. And the astrological year start with Aries. You know when Aries begins? Can you guess? Also… the Sphinx, Stonehenge and many of the South American Pyramids are oriented to greet the Sun on the Asiatic New Year. That’s a sampling. There is more. But I will leave that in your capable researched hands.

Peace to the Gods, Earths and ALL the positive people in the Universe. Time to get your party on!!!!!


Happy New Year!!!!
Serenity Love Sincere Peace Earth

P.S. I was up at 5:14 this morning, just waiting......

The One that Got Away

Peace.

My morning commute to work got me thinking. I was looking for some music and I like to fancy myself a songstress. Not just any ordinary-sing-in-the-shower person, but one capable of being a professional backup/background artist. (I will take Tamar’s work if she doesn’t want it) I’m too shy to headline. Don’t sleep, I can belt one out like Whitney (PBUH) when I am at the top of my game. (Healthy and young Whitney. Not Crack-is –whack Whitney) But alas, my range is small. I use gospel music to keep my voice seasoned. It was that gospel music that sparked this build.

Christianity is flawed. Super flawed. And will NOT survive. I know that it has survived for 2000 years. But as more and more people step into enlightenment, it cannot co-exist with truth. And when is Jesus coming back? How long will these people wait? What is your contingency plan if he leaves you behind? I mean you might be at the club when the horn blows? Will you hear it over the music?

I went under 120 instruction in January of 2008. Prior to that, I was a DEVOUT Christian. I say devout, because I did everything that a good Christian does. (a) Go to church every time the doors open. (b) Tithed 10% of the gross of my income. And (c) served on as many auxiliaries that I had the time, money and energy to devote myself. I didn’t come into KOS in 2008. I did that decades ago; but I had no true way to express it that would be user friendly to the people in my cipher. I had a husband and family that were more important to me than the public expression of my mindset. Also, you have to admit church provides folks with outlets other than spiritual. I was able to sing, get dressed up once a week (I don’t club) and I had friends with whom I could share social equality all in one place. All I had to do was work for them and pay admission.

What I am now willing to admit is when I went under instruction, I wasn’t completely sure if the righteous lifestyle was for me. We do have an aggressive reputation. It’s not pretty and I am very bourgeois. I didn’t want to cut my ties with the only spiritual entity I had ever known. Also, I wanted to give the mystery god a chance to make himself known. So…. For nearly my 1st year of being righteous, I went to church, celebrated all the rituals and traditions and stayed super busy with auxiliaries. Even though I was attending services, I still considered myself a NGE newborn. I was studying my lessons, doing my assignments, wrapping my head, observing 3/4ths, stopped makeup, and so on. Covering my head presented the biggest challenge yet the biggest opportunity. These church people saw me transform, yet said nothing to me about it. NOTHING. Eventually, it got to the point that I could not remain. The inconsistencies became too apparent to ignore. I bounced. What did NOT happen was any kind of retention from the congregation and/or the pastor of the church I attended. And that is the Flaw in Christianity. They are well able to draw folks to the faith, but can’t keep them.

Christianity is big on proselytizing. They want every human to be a Christian. But they have nothing in place to ensure those who become Christians, STAY Christians. All they offer is insults like backslider and heathen. The people I went to church with, had ample time and opportunity to persuade me in their direction. Truth be told, I was looking for it! But there was nothing. Even when I resigned no one called to ask why. Not even the pastor. One female did inquire, and we had lunch and built about my decision to leave not just the church, but Christianity as a whole. She seemed relieved that it wasn’t because of the specific church. She understood explaining that she had a transformation of such, which changed her way of life from that of her truly dysfunctional family. She and I are still cool.

So what happened? Why didn’t any one put up a fight to keep me in their faith? That just doesn’t seem right. I was a perfect church member. I did have a group of people from a previous church try to reconvert me, forcibly. But Serenity likes a good fight. And I’m not sure they realized that until wigs were flying. I mean invading my house and hitting me on my head with a Bible is not going to bring me back into the fold. Quite the opposite. Quoting scripture won’t help either, because I can quote scripture too. I did a bid, I mean a semester in Bible college. But these people were extremists. The most I got form regular Christians was, “I’ll pray for you.” SMH. Is that all they had? I carpooled for the entire 4 years with a minister who never said anything to bring me back. I come from a family with plenty of ministers and evangelists and they haven’t done anything either. No, I stand corrected. They no longer interact with me. Only my mother (an evangelist) interacts with me. Actually, that’s a win/win because all they ever did was ask for money anyway. A former friend once said to me that she had nothing she could say to me. It’s not that I didn’t already know everything she knew. She also said she needed to stay away from me or else her walk with the mystery god might become affected. Or did she say infected? WOOOOW….

I am in NO way advocating Christianity. But I am saying that Christians need to do a better job if they want to remain relevant. They are getting sloppy with their excess and abuses. Folks aren’t keeping that stuff quiet anymore. Churches used to be vital to the community. But that has changed. I have seen churches that have prostitutes loitering in from of them. And they don’t chase them away. I know I wouldn’t allow a prostitute to sit in front of my house. But I suppose they are the mystery god’s children too.It’s a very recent trend for the educated media to blast education. The 1% (or 10%) knows that as people become more educated they throw off shackles of foolishness and begin to think for themselves; and religion is foolish. Education and religion cannot peacefully coexist. That’s why religious cults advocate going to the “Benny Hinn School of Healing” rather than medical school. Eventually folk will awaken and leave that foolishness behind.


Peace

2:AF - Snow Moon

Peace,

I was having a hard time drawing up this build. But through circumstance I have clarity for how I want to impart this degree and tie it to the Snow moon. Pardon my tardiness.

The Atlantic Ocean is 41,340,000 square miles. Water is often given a female attribute and combined with emotions. But water is one of the most, if not the most powerful force on the planet Earth. Water is required, and bathing or swimming in it is considered a pleasurable experience. But water is responsible for the formation of the Grand Canyon and has killed the majority of the population of the planet at least once. So I’m thinking. Maybe you want to tread lightly with water.

The Moon in February is considered the Snow Moon or Hungry Moon because it is the month that traditionally receives the most snowfall. That same snowfall keeps hunters from hunting and gatherers from gathering. Hunger is not an unexpected occurrence during this time. But Chinese are more hopeful by calling it the budding moon. The plants are beginning to come back and that means we will eat once more. Hope arrives in February. February marks the beginning of the transition from winter to spring. The days are getting noticeable longer and the early flowers begin peaking through. Who’s heart doesn’t melt at the site of the a tree blooming.

The Mathematical break down of 41,340,000 has 2 Cultures, a Knowledge, an Understanding and 3 Ciphers that born Understanding through Knowledge Wisdom. I take all of this into consideration when I draw this up to mean that those of us who Know our beloved Culture Understand that it has dual nature. We are a peaceful group of individuals that is… until you fuck with us. Then you see the other side. And I don’t see anything wrong with that.

When Allah started his work to civilize the 85, he was initially rejected. Then he changed his focus to those who no one wanted to touch because of their level of griminess. That undercurrent still exists in our Nation. You do something disrespectful and despicable, be prepared for someone to go to your head. Why shouldn’t this be the way? It keep you relatively honest. And the Christians/Muslims do this. They just don’t serve their own justice. They wait for a mystery God to punish folks once they die. Why should people expect to do dirt to others and be embraced in a warm current of love? You want that? Join a church. They love anybody with no respect of person. That is not me however. Nor my brothers and sisters.

The Atlantic Ocean expresses great duality. It’s the 2nd youngest and the 2nd largest of the Earth’s Oceans. It exists with warm currents as well as cold ones. I allowed the devil to obtain great wealth at the price of Original people (African slaves & Native Americans). It houses the Bermuda triangle and is responsible for the Gulf stream. This is a wonderful yet perilous Ocean. The same as my nation.

Embrace the duality of the moon, the seasons and my Nation.


Peace

The Reason for the Season

Every Christmas I hear the Phrase that Jesus is the reason for the season. I have to shake my head over the foolishness. The season would occur with or without Jesus. That is weather, not religion. Also, I am noticing that more and more folks are wearing white, real white, not winter white, more and more during the autumn and winter months. Now I am an advocate of grown folks doing precisely what they want to do. That is the value of being grown. But be mindful that we live on this planet. And as free residents we should be living in harmony with our benefactor. Follow me on this…

We have, in this hemisphere, 4 distinct seasons; spring, summer, autumn and winter. Spring and summer tend to be the warmer seasons and autumn and winter tend to be the colder seasons. The reason you don’t wear white during those seasons is because white is a cool color that reflects the light away from the body. Now that’s cool when it’s 90* but not so comfortable when the weather is 14 below. So that is the reason for white prohibition . Nobody is trying to hinder your style. They are just trying to keep you warm.

Also, you clothes need to not just change with the season, but your diet as well. Heavy foods like potatoes, meats, starches, etc. are great in the cooler months when their isn’t (a) that much light and (b) that much food available. They keep you full and sleepy. In the spring and summer when the weather is warm, you need to consume more water to stay hydrated. Enter wet foods. Eating juicy fruits and veggies is like drinking water.

We have become so disconnected from the planet that we no longer know and understand (like how I threw in today’s Supreme Math?) the reasoning for the change in seasons. The Asiatic New Year is just not a time for getting your ghetto party on, but a time for you to reflect and start thinking about what the change in season means, practically. Spring cleaning is a traditional activity because it marks a moment when you switch over from your cold weather ways to your warm weather one. And it just changes you mentally.

So do I wear white from Easter to Labor Day? No. I wear it from The Vernal Equinox to the Autumnal one. And I strive to eat in season too.