Reflection....

Peace.

I know I've been quiet. I've been fasting/cleansing. And whenever I do that I like to get into a quiet space to do some personal contemplation. I use the revelations to carry me over to the next cleansing event. This season... Not many new revelations. But the 10:36 always, Always, ALWAYS comes to mind.

I've been sick this past year. Sick enough to submit myself to western medicine. But guess what? They found nothing. They said I was stressed and overweight. That is really not a useful diagnosis. That is what they tell people when they have no idea what's wrong with you. I know this to be true because I have practiced western medicine. But there is a certain comfort in knowing that my issues cannot be identified by the physicians. It means my cure does not lie with them.

I've been a pescatarian for nearly 20 years. That's a long time. I currently don't have the problems that a person of my age has. No early signs of diabetes.... no high blood pressure... no cholesterol.... no arthritis... no nothing. That confused the physicians more than my symptoms. That is because I eat the right foods.

Food is an integral part of a given Culture. By choosing to not eat the way most Americans eat, and to not eat fast food, I have stepped out of standard American Culture. And instead of being punished for it, I have been rewarded. Justice. But I have not completely stepped out of Standard American Culture. I may not dress like American women, But I do work a lot. I stress over the acquisition of wealth, and I probably watch more TV than righteous folks would agree is healthy. I strike the balance. So I don't have a lot of the problems that are plagued by Standard Americans. But I do have some.

As far as my health is concerned, I took it back to the root. Making my diet even more stringent. And using treatment modalities that are specific for my race and gender. Not there yet, but it's coming.


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Formation

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This whole Beyonce Formation thing is ridiculous. But what it does do is provoke people into paying attention... is shows and proves that that him/devil does not like to be excluded from any Cipher. Even places that him/devil doesn't want to be. Yonce don't give a fuck and is woke af. I would call her "Earth" if she would just cover her ass consistantly... Just on her OWN gold, her great grandchildren won't have to fill out a job application to live in luxury. Never mind what her rich ass husband brings to the table.... I'm so over him/devil. Took him off in 1 day without falling victim to the devil's civilization....

But what the song Formation does do, is highlight the Culture of American Black people. I also saw a post on instagram that had me laughing that did the same thing. Black people have Culture. We have been in this wilderness for over 500 years. How long does it take to develop? We have our own ways of doing that folks TRY to mimic but ALWAYS get it wrong. And other Cultural elements we share with the devil and he bastardizes it and sells it back to us for a profit.

I think the problem is white folks are so used to being included. And they don't like when they aren't included. They get offended when they are left out. Example... the Formation lyrics say nothing to aggravate white folks. It's their confusion that has made them react as they have. Example: devils are griping on the internet that the song promotes violence against police.... point to the lyric that says such. I'll wait. And if you tripping about the song at the superbowl, then why are you complaining when there was no police car on the field? They also don't like when we have thoughts they haven't sanctioned. They really feel like we should do and feel what they tell us to. My boss is good for telling how I should feel about the work he assigns me that isn't on my job description. I should feel happy to be on call 24/7. Or I shouldn't be offended when people assume my white coworker is my supervisor and she isn't. I often inform him that for work that isn't on the JD won't happen and he only rents my body. My mind is my own. Devils filter other folks actions through the visor of their own thoughts and motivations. And we see how they think. Black power is not White power with a darker tint. But they refuse to understand. Its not in them to. Black History month is our thing. You don't have to like it... because they don't. It's for US to celebrate. And white history is shoved down our throuats every day of every year.

We have a Culture. We may not see it, because we are busy living it out daily. Jews and Muslims don't look at what they do differently and say... “Oh! we are doing Culture.” Nope. They just go on with their business and they do themselves. And that's what we do as Black folks living in America.


Peace!

Culture

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Today's Supreme Mathematics is Culture. Culture is defined as the way of life. When 85ers think of the term “Culture” They are thinking not of what they manifest but of what others manifest. The connotation of “Culture” is often external. Unless you way of life is different from the population in which you reside, you don't just go to thinking that you have a Culture. It's just what you do. It's like how white folks in the US think that what they do is the default and everybody else is exotic.

When folks think of groups in the US with a dedicated Cultures you think of Jews, Muslims, Mormons, Rastafarians.... and us! Though most folks don't know us like that since we don't have their numbers. Jews don't eat pork or shrimp. They don't work on Saturdays. They only marry each other, etc. Muslims cover their heads, some of them. They don't eat pork either and pray 5x/day face down on rugs gender separated. Mormons have a million children and do the poly-marriage thing. They also dress like little house on the prarie. Rastas have dreadlocks and smoke the ganga while eating seeds and guts. Dang Serenity that was offensive! Well 5%er all have done prison bids, have no real jobs and seeds enough to plant a garden! It's what him/devil says about they various US Cultures that aren't them.

But this Build piggy backs off a previous Build. The Do You Hide in plain sight post. I have noticed with this 5% Culture that I more and more each year have changed my lifestyle to a point where folks don't recognize me anymore. Folks who have been with me all along are cool. But when I run into someone I haven't seen in 10 years, they seem shocked at my appearance and new customs.

I was never one to show my hills and mountains.... they don't need my help. They show themselves.... So it's not like I some reformed hoe. But I was a standard BAP pretty girl. I had the luscious perm/weave. I had the right clothes and stiletto heels. My nails always 10 perfect pair. I had the perfectly made up face. I drove the lavish cars and had the lavish hobbies. Many of those same traits are still within me, but the manifestation has changed. I look different... really different. I got my work ID when I started this job 13 years ago. It doesn't even resemble me now. Different hair. Different clothes. Different me. Security periodically asks if I'm wearing another's ID. Don't get it twisted. I'm still fly as hell and you can wear good heels under a long skirt. And my headwraps... I have one to match every outfit... be giving chicks fits!

I eat differently.... No one... NO ONE loves swine more than I did. My last meated meal was a pulled pork sandwich. I loved fat bacon... and ham... and ribs.. yes ribs!... and chops... and loin... and (ashamedly) chitterlings! I actually asked for my graduation meal to be chitterlings.... My mother made them, but was pissed, but she made them. I loved lamb and my favorite snack.... Slim Jims! My plate looks entirely different that it once did. That's Culture.

I no longer do the Standard holiday thing. But more importantly, I'm no longer super loud about not doing it. But I have gotten the message out significantly so folks don't even ask anymore. Thanksgiving and the the American holidays is pretty much it. No xmas. No Easter (though I still get an outfit for Easter). None of that! And it's just how I live...

No grace. I just eat my food. No Sunday obligations. I can hold malice in my heart toward another without feeling bad. I fear no divine retribution. I don't live with the illusion that someone on a cloud is looking out for me. When you don't do the mystery god, YOLO takes on a different intensity. I manifest my Culture not just “in the mind” but out in the open. When you internalize Understanding, eventually it comes out of you. You become a Walking Understand. And isn't that what 3/4ths is? An Understanding that comes out of you so profound that it becomes your Culture.


Peace

Hello 2016!

Peace!

On the interwebs, it seems like 2015 was a pisser of a year for a lot of people. 2015 was the year my only brother died. That was the worse thing that happened to me in the calendar year. I thought about making some 2016 New Year's resolutions... But then I realized there wasn't much I wanted to change about myself. All the changes I want are external. And external changes aren't 100% completely in my realm to change. So this year I'm not making any resolutions!

4 days into this year.... I feel pretty good.


Peace

Faith/Knowledge

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What is the Science?
Today's Kwanzaa Principle is Faith – Today's Supreme Mathematics is Knowledge

The traditional Kwanzaa greeting is habari gani. Which means what's the news in Swahili. I don't do non-English. So my greeting will be.... What's the Science?

Faith is a touchy concept for many 5%ers. We say we live by the principle of “Show and Prove.” We have no place for faith. I agree and disagree. We have no place for religious faith. Just take the spookiness out of the word and this is in fact something we do. Like the way we use Islam.

The reason why we do faith is because we do hope. No one controls every aspect of their lives 100%. there are some things that we do, where we are unsure of the outcome. One of my mother's favorite phrases is, “step out on faith.” I Understand what she means by it. There are situations where you must throw caution to the wind and YOLO. There have been so may times in my life where I didn't Know what to do. But I Knew I had to do something. Every time but once, I've gone to the car dealership, I've been worried about what my credit will do. But I went anyway and I have always come home with the car of my choice. There was no white jesus involved in any of it. But there was faith in my own abilities to get what I wanted. Every time I've applied for a job, I did so not because I was certain I was going to get said job, but because I knew I wanted or needed one. I always have a job when I need one. Every time I get behind the wheel of my car, I assume (another form of faith) that I will arrive to my destination safely. Doesn't always happen. But I can't let the uncertainty hold me back. If I waited until I was 100% sure of everything in my life before proceeding.... I'd of been dead before I Knowledged 120.

You can't be certain of meds because they have side effects... some they don't know of yet but they let people take them. You don't Know which foods are genetically modified or moderately poisoned. When you go to a restaurant, you didn't see the people preparing your food. But you still eat it. When you date an individual, you don't Know if they aren't a crazy ax yielding serial killer. While waiting for the bus in the dark at 5:30am I don't know if I'm going to mauled by a rabid possum. It could happen. It has happened to others, but I still go to the same spot. That's faith.

Faith, the way I'm speaking on it, is expectancy. If you prepare a recipe according to it's directions, you have a level of assurance that it will look like the picture when you're done. When you complete an experiment you have assurance of the result. That is faith... non-spooky faith. I'm not saying go in every situation with know knowledge of whats going on. And I'm not saying don't use SM and the “show and prove” ideology. I am saying that sometimes faith is warranted.



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Creativity/Understanding Knowledge

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What's the Science?
Kwanzaa principle: Creativity
Today's Mathematics : Understanding Knowledge abbt Culture

This Build was hard for me. I not a creative person. That may seem inaccurate if you know me because I'm a crafter, and a cook. But I'm not creative. I see something that I like and nigarig it. Rarely do I come up with original ideas of my own. If I can see it, I can recreate it. If I taste a recipe, I can figure out what's in it. But again... copying not creativity. Creativity is not my gift. But because I can craft, folks think of me as creative. I remember when I pledged AKA, I got real crafty with the projects we had to do. But it was craftiness and not creativity that drove me. One of the big sisters actually asked me to be on her committee because she thought I was creative. One of my line sisters piped up and said, “Angel is the go to person to get isht done. But she is dead with ideas.” If it wasn't true, I would have pinched her in the stomach.

The definition of creativity is the use of the imagination or original ideas, especially in the production of an artistic work. I might be artistic, but my ideas are NOT Original... But neither are a lot of folks. One of the things I ALWAYS say to G's and E's in person is that we cannot draw up folks the same way we used to. This is not the 1980's. In the 80's I was a teenager and there were Gods Building all over the place in various and sundry Ciphers. Looked like Parliaments popped up indiscriminately on any potential corner. Times have changed. And with those changes, we as righteous people need to change and be creative about how we reach folks. Ain't nobody just gonna see us in the streets and start adding on. I'm not saying it couldn't happen. I am saying it's unlikely. If you hand someone a flyer who doesn't know us what we stand for all they are gonna do is google us and find out that we are a prison gang who killed Michael Jordan's daddy. Is that how you want to be portrayed? I don't. My own cousin who has my cell in her phone decided to buy a book and make judgments regarding the Culture without EVER asking me 1 questions. Imagine us laughing and joking and she is harboring several misconceptions. IJS....

So what do we do to develop more creativity? We go back to the drawing board (31:40). We have to do the 1 and figure a venue for where we could reach people. And we need to release that mindset of only reaching the dregs of society. Not saying we shouldn't reach them, but we would do ourselves well reaching the moneyed and the educated. We need that balance. We shouldn't forget the past, but we shouldn't dwell in the past either. We need to do more to get more. It's Nation Building.


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Purpose/Understanding Cipher

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What's the Science?
Kwanzaa Principle: Purpose
Today's Mathematics: Understanding Cipher abbt Understanding

Purpose is one of the most difficult thing for folks to come up on. I have lived all of these years and still am unsure about what my 'Purpose' is. There have been times where I was sure what it was and it changed.

Purpose is defined as the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. So what exactly is my purpose? Well to Understand that, you have to Understand who you are and where you are. And I suppose since a person changes, and their surroundings and situations change… their purpose will change.

When I was a child, my purpose was to learn life and get an education. When I was/am married, my purpose is to be a good wife. When I was single my purpose was to enjoy my singlehood to the fullest. My purpose also changes when I change environments. Some things I'm solid on regardless of whom or what. I'm Earth. In all environments. But I don't insist on using my righteous name in all situations. To be perfectly honest.... I've never changed my name so Serenity can't cash a check. So there's that... My mom is old. She calls me what she calls me. It is what it is. My purpose when I'm with her is to be a good daughter and a good care taker. As the God's Earth, my purpose is to care for him and look after his needs. As an employee it is my purpose to meet the expectations of my job descriptions.... You your purpose is really dependent on your Cipher.

But still.... I'd like to find my life's personal pupose.


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