Thursday, October 30, 2014



Here is the thing.... why would I want to be thin? You like how I'm getting right into it today dontcha?

I am not a thin person. It is what it is. But my problem is that I don't aspire to be a thin person; and because of that I'm being judged. I don't think my life would be better if I lost 20 lbs. I”m not a person with self esteem issues. You can't hurt my feelings by calling me fat. My self worth is not attached to my appearance. I like anybody like to look good, but I don't feel like I need to alter my appearance.

So... I've been asking people who aspire to be thin, why they want it it like that....

1. “To be healthy” I'm healthy now. I have eczema and fibroids but those have nothing to do with my weight. I've had eczema since I was a baby and my fibroids are hereditary (thanks Mommie), so.....? I'm in my 40's and I don't have hypertension, diabetes, or any of the chronic diseases my thin friends have; nor do I take medications. And my family history says that all the illnesses should have kicked in by now. Also, by saying thinness is healthier, is saying that thin people don't get sick... they do. And making the assumption that I am going to have all kinds of problems because of statistics just shows and proves that you have drank the KoolAid and fallen victim to the okey doke. You are sheeple.

2. “To have nice clothes” Well... I make my own clothes. I would if I was thin too. Because of my skin issues. I need to control the fabric and you can only do that if you create clothes from the fabric. So....

3. “So men will notice me” I have a man. I have always had men. My own men. And men still notice me. So again......

4. “To not be picked on” Unless you are a child, this is the dumbest reason as yet I've heard. Adults should not fall victim to bullying or peer pressure. That is some high school bull. Be grown. Either walk away, or kick the bitch's ass. If people feel comfortable in picking on you because your big, then they will pick on you for other reasons.

5. “To be more attractive” I'm already attractive. I always feel like I look good. Blame my father for that. He told me that we – our last name – look better on off days then most people look on their best. He used our last name as an adjective for good stuff. Daddy ain't never lie. He said I look good then so be it! That was all tongue and cheek, but the truth is, I do look look good at this weight. I'd look good 20, 30, 100 pounds lighter. I'd look good 20, 30, 100 pounds heavier. and that is also saying that ALL skinny people are attractive... They aren't

I was at a parliament and a – female -- stepped in the Cipher and called me short and fat. I laughed. What was her purpose for doing that? She was trying to offend me because she said I offended her. She thought I would be hurt. I wasn't. So I'm short and fat? And? Next? My coworker has said to me on numerous occasions over the passed 10 years that I should be ashamed of myself for being fat? She said this in front of people at an office meeting. I asked her why? She said she didn't think that I knew I was fat. Ok.... And I asked her why does that bother her? She had no answer. People are uncomfortable with confidence and comfort in your own self especially when they aren't comfortable with themselves. Hurt people, hurt people. I get it.

I guess the bottom line is I don't aspire to lose weight. If I should lose weight for whatever reason it isn't because I was trying. What I'm trying to do is enjoy life. And unhappy ignorant sheeple are striving to keep me from being happy.

Eyes on your own paper