Friday, March 4, 2011

I'm Still Pissed.....

Peace Y'all.

This isht happened almost a week ago and I can't let it go. I am hoping that blogging it will be cathartic...

There was a rally Sunday. The God and I went. We always go if we can. Not going means we aren't in town or one of us is ill. Otherwise we are there. The cipher here is still 'organic.' Granted, a little less, but still pretty out there; and small compared to other places. At said rally we democratically organized the cipher.

There was a God there who I knew... somewhat... who was agreed upon to be an elder. One of 4. he comes around, but not frequently. But I did know him. I suppose his new title gave him some courage, because he decided that he was going to force the Earths in attendance to build. Had he been on time, he would have seen and heard Earths build. He did preface it by saying that he wanted us to to introduce ourselves. This is the shit that pisses me off.

What was his reasoning for doing this? All of the Earths in attendance had been introduced at previous rallies. Rallies he wasn't at. And there were Gods there I'm certain he didn't know, who hadn't built. But he wasn't saying anything to them. I felt picked on. And you don't want to be around me when I feel picked on it's just a hop skip and a jump from stun gun time. Remember the last time I went to church?

For those of you unfamiliar with my Nation and it's customs, being in attendance at a rally does not obligate you to build in the cipher. Three chicks built and I and another didn't. The 'Elder God' was still trying to get us to build. I looked dead in his face as an offer to try me.

Why is it men feel especially vindicated in picking on women? Let me tell you something.... I WILL NOT be a victim. I ain't that chick that gets slapped around and I ain't that chick that gets cheated on, used and abused and all I do is sit there crying and complaining. I get involved. And I do not have the fantasy that I can kick every chick's ass or that I can kick any man's ass but I do know and can promise you won't walk away the way you walked over. You will have something to remember me by.

It's not like I can't build. I don't like to at big rallies. Gods treat Earths building like grown folks treat children talking. Also, I have witnessed Gods take an Earth's build as an opportunity to have a conversation or go to the bathroom or whatever. I find the experience disrespectful and condescending.

You want to hear me build, read this blog, or hit me up on a one to one situation. Or send me your see on the Math or any topic. I will build my ass off. But don't try to force my hand like you're my God or Daddy. I don't have a Daddy anymore And I answer to only 1 Black man.



The Original Wombman said...

I totally cosign sis! I felt this post very deeply having been part of movements where women were often relegated to the sidelines. I did feel picked on and it wasn't cool at all.

Serenity Love Sincere Peace Earth said...

Thanks for Understanding

Sheann said...

Peace sister,
New to the nation, but ive heard this....obviously theseGods r not doing the 1 2 treating Earths this way. Smh