Culture-Ism

You can classify this under rant. I am wholly offended.

I have been working on this job for Power and 1/2 years. I have been righteous a little over Wisdom years. Since I'm female there were a few adjustments to be made in my external appearance to properly reflect my Refinement. That's a given. As I have previously posted (ad nauseaum) I stopped wearing pants about Power years ago because most women's pants fit the body exact and the thought that people could know what I look like without clothes on creeped me out. The attention a woman receives when she is wearing something form fitting is not complementary. (Don't comment on what someone is wearing but to say it looks nice. Not I like how your ass is jumping in them jeans!) Also I have tomboy tendencies that pop out at the oddest times and I wanted to keep them in check. Wearing a skirt/dress forces you to behave lady-like. Forces you to walk like a lady because most dresses look bad with sneakers; thereby, forcing you to wear shoes. Heels keep you from taking large mannish steps. Also sitting in a dress/skirt will force you to sit with your knees closed. So there is the reasoning behind me not wearing pants. Never once did I mention that I didn't like wearing pants. Just that I don't like the attention I get when I wear them.

Back to my Build... The only thing that changed really about me when I became righteous was that I stopped wearing make up and covered my head. That's it. Now, I knew my boss would notice, but he couldn't say anything about it. In this country we still have freedom of religion. And where as this Culture is really not a religion, my boss doesn't have to be privy to all the minor details. He assumes I had a religious conversion and I left it at that. He hears me reciting lessons under my breath and assumes that I am chanting. OK. I see nothing wrong with how this is progressing. But the clients are a different story.

This is the Bible belt. People here are a little to attached to their Jesus. I ain't knocking religion, but I feel these folks here are too fanatical and they don't get or honor boundaries. When I was a Christian, I was a devout Christian. I didn't always rest in Allah's Garden. I used to rest in New Jerusalem. There, I was a devout Christian for many years, but I didn't wear it on my sleeve nor did I slap people upside the head with it. I allowed people to do their thing and if they needed me to provide some information or help, I would do my part. Did I ever bring anyone to Jesus? I'm not sure. No one 'brought' me to Jesus so I assumed other folks could find him like I did. And if in fact I was required to pay it forward, I would do so with my children, the way my mother did with me. But these folks here... They are of a different breed on some different bullshit. They feel perfectly vindicated to judge and discriminate based on religious affiliations. They discriminate against people that aren?t southern too, but that is a different Build.

We have clients in this office that come in all the time and ask me, "Are you a Mooz-lim?" and I love this one, "Are you A-Rab?" SMH. I just laugh at them and say politely, "No" and leave it right there. I don't explain my self to older people or older southern people because I know in all likelihood they have never heard of Allah's Nation, or 5%ers or the Nation of Gods and Earths. (Although this one dude knew of us because he had been in jail but he didn't know women were a part of Allah's Nation! LOL!!!) A younger person that asks will get a different response designed for them to ask me questions rather than me trying to hook them. But most of the folk that come through these doors are older. A woman last week looked me dead in my eye and asked me if I was a Christian. Folks don't usually phrase the question that pointedly. But 11:14, so I said "No." She said, "So you're a heathen." I said, "Yes." And that was the end of our dialogue. When I got back in here this week, there is a message on the voicemail. "I wish to cancel all further appointments in your office. I don't do business with non-Christians. click" WTF?

Now why she single me out? Is she sure that everyone she deals with is a Christian? I think not. Firstly, my boss is an atheist. I asked him if she asked him about his beliefs and he said no. I asked all the other employees here and they all said no. Hmmmm.... Now I could go on and assume that she meant me, on face value, without any other proof other than the circumstantial evidence. Y?all know me. She has already released us from any responsibility by terminating her relationship with this office. So I call the 85'er and asked her what she meant by her message. Was she referring to me? She was surprised that I called, yet she remained bold. She did not want to do business with the office because of me. That's all I wanted to know so I thanked her for her confirmation and prepared to end the call. She then did a dummy move and got smart with me. 31:36? By the time she hung up, her feelings were hurt. And it would not have happened if she hadn't gotten smart with me. All I asked was if I was the non-Christian to which she was referring.

I told my boss what happened and he did the most surprising thing. He called her a blind idiot and said that he was relieved she bounced because he would prefer not to be in the company of fools like that. I was flabbergasted. Even devils surprise you from time to time.

So this is my point... in addition to venting... Is this something that is going to continue to happen? Can I expect more of this in the future? Being Original comes with expected institutionalized racism that Black folks have been exposed to from birth. But this is 'Culture-ism.' I ain't used to it yet. I suppose if a white person said they didn't want to do business with an office that employed Black folks I wouldn't be so offended. Maybe shock is a better word. Why am I so pissed at this moment? I suppose because it was new and unexpected. I feel a little better now that I got it out of my system.

Breathe deeply, Serenity....



Peace.

Happy Bornday Daddy!

Today is my father’s bornday. He would have been god wisdom years old. He died on the knowledge day of the understanding month of this past year. I miss him.

That’s enough to post by itself. But to tie it in with today’s mathematics of culture/freedom I must say that my dad truly walked to the beat of his own drum. Although he did not practice this culture. He practiced his own and he felt fully free and vindicated to do so.

At his funeral there were all kinds of people making their observations on his life. Everyone pretty much said the same thing. He was his own man. My mother did nothing but complain that he didn’t behave in the way that she would have liked. I spoke to my Daddy in the physical last December. It was the last time I saw him before he died. (I live in GA, he in NJ) he told me that he lived the exact life that he wanted to live and had no regrets. I’m happy that at the end of his life, his conscious was clear and he was free to live his life as he wanted and for the most part… always had. Makes me wonder how freely do I express my/this culture. Am I truly living as I say I am?


Peace

Today's Mathematics: Wisdom Culture/Freedom abbt Equality

Today is Christmas Eve. This is my 1st time not celebrating Christmas. I’m moderately bummed about it. I like Christmas. But I do not adhere to the belief of a mystery god; therefore have to give up that ghost (pun intended). Wisdom is wise words and actions of Original individuals. And Culture/Freedom refers to our lifestyle and just being mentally free of BS. (Forgive me for paraphrasing) So as much as I love this time of year because of the holiday, I have to man up and stand on my square and say…. I don’t celebrate Christmas.

The action of not celebrating Christmas this year has been the cause of much meditation for me. Probably more so than others that don’t observe. I have been very careful not to demonstrate the outer trappings of a religious holiday. I loved the singing and the carols. This time of year I like going to church and seeing the decorations. I like decorating my own queendom. Then I found myself considering whether or not it would be apropos to incorporate the secular aspects of the holiday in my cipher. I’m still on the fence about that. Clearly this needs more consideration. It’s hard to ask others how they negotiate around things. I’m convinced that most Black people are paranoid. And when you start asking questions, no matter how innocently you mean them, they start shutting down on you. And got the nerve to get aggressive to boot!

We have everything we need within our culture. We have our observances and celebrations. We know better than to buy into this wilderness’ foolishness and devilshment. But I ain’t lying when I say that even though BS kills us as a people…. It can be quite enjoyable. But is that ‘fun’ worth what it does to us as a people, as a Nation? And even though I don’t celebrate this so-called holiday, I’m still going to take the best part. I’m going to take a paid holiday and the time off. I’m going to partake of the sales (so to speak). And I plan to visit with my family.

B.U.T. when all is said and done, you have to be able to live a life on you own terms and according to your own system. And that is my Equality.


Peace.

Today's Mathematics: Wisdom Wisdom abbt Culture/Freedom

2- Wisdom -is the wise words spoken by the black man, black woman and black child. Wisdom is the black woman who is the moon, because she receives her light from the sun which is the black man and reflects it on to the star which is the black child. Wisdom is the manifestation of one's knowledge.

4- Culture/Freedom is one’s way of living, meaning one’s language (wisdom) and customs (ways and actions). The Original Man’s culture is Islam: freedom, justice, and equality, which is peace. Free to practice one's own culture, which is Islam. Without conflict.

A friend of mine said that today was a sister’s day because the manifestation of 2 represents woman. I like that. Since every month has a 22nd, I’m going to take it as a personal day!

But back to the manifestation…. I cee today’s math as being we should take care of the words that we Earths utter to each other. At a previous gathering of women I attended, there was another Earth present who has all kinds of animosity towards me. And I knew it, though I don’t know why. (Nor do I care) But every time I made a suggestion or offered support, she slammed me. Now other Earth’s in attendance witnessed the drama but did little to counteract it. I can understand why. They don’t want to get involved with something that’s not their business. I probably would do the same thing. But I wanted to get things on track. And being the older of the pair, I waited until we were breaking and asked her why she felt so strongly against me. She said she thought that I though too much of myself. I agreed with her. I do, but that’s me. I’m too old and unwilling to change is how I explained it to her. But the truth of the matter is I am very confident and I recognize that that can offend the less confident. So I joke about it, but never change it. Ask a confident person where that confidence comes from, and you will a long road of insults, let downs and abuse. She chilled after our talk and we were able to move on.

I could have showed my ass when the Earth confronted me in front of the group. I’m at that age where I know how to irrefutably put people in their places with a smile on my face. But I chose to be more diplomatic.

We women are guilty of being hard on each other while giving men the benefit of the doubt. We need to do better. Earth is the home to Islam. Islam being our culture means we have to watch the 2 that we speak to other 2's.


Peace