Resolutions for Wisdom Cipher Knowledge Cipher

Resolutions... I make them. Most folks turn their noses up at them. Gods and Earths word is supposed to be bond. So if we say it, then it should happen. But a resolution is not me binding myself via my word. I see it as a good idea rather than a pledge. Folks think that the 1st time they blow a resolution means that it is all shot to hell. I don't see it like that. The way I see it is it takes a minute for something to become part of you. So you will experience slip ups. Also when you make decisions often you don't know all that you might need to make it reality. For example if you say, "I?m going to be a raw foodist in 2010" and you don't realize that you don't have all the toys that go along with that decision because you didn't Know you needed them then it will take a minute before you can fully realize your goal. The way I do resolutions is: I make them, then I periodically check in on them to see how I'm doing or even if I REALLY want to; meaning will they really work I my Cipher. I make resolutions at various points of the Year.... Spring Equimox, my bornday, endof of the Gregorian year.... At some point, when I'm making new resolutions, do I decide if the old ones were successful or if they should be postponed or scrapped. Onto the resolutions...

For 2010, I didn't make a lot of the resolutions that I normally make. I realize that I am getting older and I Know myself a lot better. I Know what I like and what my proclivities are. I Know my capabilities way better than I did in years past. So a lot of the frivolous resolutions aren?t making it on the list this year. I have embraced my weight, and I have curbed the amount of shopping I do. I made peace with cutting the grass and yard work. And I finally Knowledged 120 and bought a car last year. So a lot of foolishness is just not up for discussion. What I am embracing this year is Love, Peace and Happiness.

My righteous name is Serenity Love Sincere Peace Earth. Serenity and Peace seem redundant and maybe they are. I look at it this way... Since they both exist, I am going to really just completely veg and relax this year. I'm going to be vigilant about keeping my Cipher peaceful. So if that means that I don't speak to my mother often so be it. If that means that other people's personal opinions will have to find another place to gather... okay. If that means I will have to completely tune out from my job and the foolishness that goes with even to the point of finding another one... If I must. If that means I will have to look at my shrinking list of personal friends and make even more cuts... Then it will happen. I love contentment. And that is the theme for 2010 in my Queendom. So that means more housework --I hate a dirty house. A ptj--I have some bills that have lingering too long and I get annoyed when I pay them so they have to go and go quickly. And really giving serious consideration with whom I share my social Equality.

Another thing that has appeared on my resolution list for a few years now is children. It has gotten to the point where I have to "piss or get off the pot." I have had that on the list for a minute now, but it wasn?t until 2009 before I found a stable partner. I have been a 'bum magnet' for a long time and last year I began Building with a True and living God so now that resolution can become reality. But there is always a fly in the ointment. I am getting hella old. The plumbing works but the pipes are rusty. Just because I can have children doesn't mean I should. It wouldn't be fair to the child to bring one forth Knowing that they may lose their parents in their 20's, have to rub liniment on Mommie's back, going to the store for the Old God's 'rhoid ointment or a number of old people things that would ostracize them form the rest of their friends. Children should get to be children without dealing with their parent's issues and not live in fear that something will happen sooner than it should. My mother was in her 30's when she had me and her mother was in her 30's when she had her. We both Know what it is like to have to deal with children taunting us because our parents are older. Folks I interact with think it's funny to make jokes that I am as old as there mothers or that my mother is the age of their great grandmothers. Yeah that's about as funny as me drop-kicking them in the mouth. Yeah, my old ass can still do that. Also, having an older mother meant that she was completely out of step with what was relevant for me at any stage of my life. My mother is currently retired and she gets confused when she calls in the middle of the day and can?t get me. When I tell her I'm working she?s like, "Oh that's right." Indeed!

So that's it for me. All that is on the list: maintaining Peace in my Cipher and children. Should be easy to pull that off. Check with me next year this time.



Peace

10* 1-14

"10) Why does Muhammad and any Muslim murder the Devil? What is the duty of each Muslim in regards to four Devils? What reward does a Muslim receive by having and presenting the four Devils at one time?
Because the Devil is 100% weak and wicked and will not keep and obey the laws of Islam. His ways and actions are like those of a snake of the grafted type. So Muhammad learned that he could not reform the Devil, so they had to be murdered, because they know that he is a snake and if he was allowed to live he would only sting someone else. Each Muslim was required to bring in four Devils and by having and presenting the four devils at one time his reward was a button to wear on the lapel of his coat, also free transportation to the Holy City of Mecca to see their brother Muhammad."


This is a very scary degree for folks that look in the windows of this Nation. People sans 3. But the term ‘devil’ doesn’t have to literally mean the colored man. The devil is 100% weak and wicked. And if we are honest we all have ways and actions that aren’t 100% righteous. Those w’s and a’s are devilshment and now is the time to end that foolishness.

I can only speak for this Earth. I have devils within. I have a huge problem with anger. I have a friend who says that's not unusual for a Scorpio. Most of my life’s troubles can be traced to anger. 4 qualities that make up my anger’s process is (1) impulsiveness (2) seething (3) grudge holding and (4) planning.

Do something to me to incite anger and you will not witness a pretty scene. My life’s experiences has taught me that allowing my anger to explode and acting on that never yields the results that I’m looking for and often causes more problems. Think of children that throw tantrums. Those children are angry, but what does that expression get them? Punishment. I learned early on to channel my anger so that I could receive maximum satisfaction from it. I must admit sometimes I can be impulsive and do the 1st evil thing to reciprocate the devilshment. Yes I feel vindicated, but often I’ll get angry at self later because there might have been a more ruthless alternative that I overlooked.

I also seethe in anger. I have sat in unoccupied rooms alone causing premature wrinkling due to anger. I’m certain on those occasions I have damaged vasculature being angry like that. I don’t always sit, though. I remember being so angry with my father that while preparing food for myself and my then fiancé, that I accidentally cut through my hand and bled all over the meal I was preparing. My then fiancé came in the kitchen looked over my shoulder and quietly and easily moved me away from the counter. I was sooooo spaced out that I didn’t feel the injury.

There are still people that wronged me in childhood, if these said people stepped in front of my car, I wouldn’t brake. I am well aware that is not right and exact. I'm working on it. To me the planning is the worst and last stage. If it gets this far, the other party is going to have a problem. I have never been able to put the brakes on my anger once it gets that far. I will need intervention at this juncture to prevent me actually realizing my goal for foolishness. Not many are bold enough to step to me at this point. Only person that consistently can see all the deviousness signs is my Old Earth. And we no longer live close to each other. She relies on intuition. Her accuracy is eerie.

Example… And this is personal… Don’t judge me…. Just 1 the example…. An ex cheated on me and knock up some child. I say child but she was technically legal. Anywho… trying not to add on emotions…. He tells me this on the phone. We had been in a relationship for a total of 9 years, though not sequential. He knew better than to present himself and this information at the same time in the physical. I made a few a jokes and assured him all would be well. Not with us, just him and his situation. After a good night’s sleep (and it was good) I awoke angry. I bypassed the seething stage. This was full blown planning. I supposed I seethed in my sleep. After a few playful calls and emails (from him, not me), I was on my way to his home wearing a black outfit with a brick and a golf club on the passenger seat. For the life of me I don’t remember how I got to this point. I needed intervention. My mother called repeatedly on the cell but I knew better than to speak with her. I was on a mission. Then, my tire blew. That epiphany and/or intervention and triple A turned me around and put me back at home where I needed to be. The ex didn’t get off so easily. His mother was visiting from out of state for a party he was giving on Labor Day of that year. I was invited but I decided against attending. I said that we had dated for 9 years, I knew this man’s proclivities as well as his social security number, date of birth and address. I had his lights and water cut off. Knowing full well that he would not be able to get them cut back on until after the holiday. I’m not proud. But satisfied.

Now… If I could kill these 4 aspects of my anger at one time can you imagine the peace that would reign in my cipher? Not just for me, but for anyone that passes through. I’m talking about complete control and banishment of these devils. Never to be triggered again. To never hurt another. Another reason why I wait to bare fruit. I would hate to get angry at or with them. The button on my lapel could be the countenance on my face and the peace that pervades my being. Everyone could cee it. And I could exist in a blissful place such as Muhammad’s presence. And do you notice that the lesson says nothing about returning from Mecca.

Imagine….

Peace