Today's Mathematics: Understanding Cipher

Peace.

I know it's been awhile. I hate blogging from home. It never feels comfortable to me. But I love sharing my thoughts and views far too much to just stop blogging. It's just that I'll probably be doing it less....

Today's Supreme Mathematics is Understanding Cipher. I feel it's apropos for a Build on this Jessie Williams controversy. Oh I'm not really going to comment on what he said, nor am I going to get into the light skin biracial debate. Those are internal convos for Black only audiences. What I am going to comment on is white people's response....

I saw a post where Mr. Williams was called a "nigger" by every white person that responded. Hmmm.... I know white people call Black people niggers. I don't like it, but I can't fight every white person that says it. They don't like it when we call them devils and beckies. becky.... a simple term that is an insult, but actually quite entertaining. Anywho.... Why are white people having an issue with what the God said? Every word was true. But it is their nature to cause discord so him/devil is doing what he is designed to do... Causing trouble amongst the righteous people.

Another question I have is, why are white people watching the BET awards? It ain't for or about them. We aren't watching the Country Music awards. No white person has ever won a Lifetime Achievement Award from BET. So they can't be watching the show to see their own excellence. They are spying on us. Lurking in the dark to rob us of our Culture. And as soon as we say that publicly... They mad.

Another sneaky tool of the devil is validation. Many Black folks look to white folks for validation. These sleeping black folks want white people to agree and cosign with their activities and views. Stop it.

White people have their own spaces and actively work to keep entry restricted from said places (unless we are doing menial work). But when Black people do the very same thing, they have a problem with it. Why? Black people don't need 'help' from the white man. White people REFUSE to leave us to our own devices. 8:14 speaks on this. him/devil fear that we will will excel without them. and even if we don't excel and just maintain, that means that we never needed them in the 1st place. And for people who are as ego driven as devils, that is a thought that is unacceptable to their borg collective. That one concept will cause them to self destruct.

I, an original Black Queen, I Understand the devil and his Cipher. I absolutely do. I have no choice. We all do. We live in his wilderness... We buy his food and products... We have been educated in his institutions... His face is on our money... he forced us to Understand him. But the devil doesn't have the same Understanding of who we are. Therein lies OUR power. That's why they have to observe us in our personal spaces. He knows that if we know he's watching we will flip the script.

When slavery ended, white folks didn't give us a thought outside their own comfort. And you know what we did when left all alone? We created our own communities, businesses and culture. I still remember that scene for the old Roots miniseries, when white people broke into Alex Haley's father's home and were struck by the high level of civilization of the surroundings. Even saying that they don't live that clean. And it's true. I've been to enough white people's homes to know they don't live better than Black folks. But that's not information they want you to have. I really love how white folks can't find "Black Twitter"!!!! Even went as far to say it doesn't exist. HA! And every single fucking time we excelled... white folks ruined it. Black Wall streets... destroyed. I would dare say every race riot was caused when Black folks decided they were through with the devil. Even integration has destroyed Black Culture. Integration gave Black folks the ability to use white services... At the expense of our own services. The subliminal pin that got lodged in our heads was, white stuff is better than Black stuff. Example: HBCUs. 1 + 1 = 2 no matter where you go. But white folks want you to believe their spin on knowledge is superior. Today HBCU enrollment is way down. Down to the point we are beginning to lose them even though tuition is cheaper than at PWIs. SMH.... another example is busing. Black students were bussed and integrated white schools and not the other way around. Have you ever seen a picture of white people being escorted into a Black school? No. It didn't happen. So the message is that all Black schools are inferior to all white schools. You have no chance in life if you do everything Black. You have to leave Black communities and go white to be successful. Actually that's the measure of success. Big. Fucking. Lies!

I done took the devil off my planet. I'm Blackity Black y'all. I want that for all of us.


Peace

RIP

Peace!

Prince died today! I'm a moderate Prince fan. I had plenty albums... yes albums! But for some reason, folks made you choose between Prince and Michael Jackson and I chose MJ. It is what it is. I stayed following Prince because he never got any stranger than he already was. Even through those "Artist" years. We all know that MJ went way to the left...

But the point of my build is this.... DEATH is the true litmus test to how much of a 5%er you are.

My sister-in-law and I had a conversation a few years ago that crystallized this for me... She asked me where did 5%ers believed they went when they died? I said we don't have an afterlife and when you die your dead. I also pointed out that we don't have a mystery god to give us the illusion of comfort. She got super quiet and said... "I don't like that!" Folks know religion is a gaffle but they find comfort in the illusion. a lot of us, talk the talk... but when shit gets real... we flip flop. If that's you... we aren't alike.

When my father died, I was new in this Culture. About 3 months along. I was looking for comfort something that never came. Finally I had to accept that my daddy was gone and I will never see him again. That shit hurt. But I didn't break. When my brother died.... I was years into the Culture. I already knew. And I was okay with it, because I had to be. Death is inevitable and there isn't a damn thing I can do to intercede. When you're gone... you're gone. Be respectful... but accept it.

"...In all the history of Islam it has never been revealed of a man returning from a physical death...."


Peace

Today's Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Wisdom

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Y'all.... I lost my job. I'm pissed but not really pissed. I'd been working there for 13 years, so I had a semblance of job security. HA! But the job was beneath me. I took this job in 2004 because I wanted to get back into the working world. My 1st husband died in 2003, and when he died I wasn't working. I started this job a year after my late husband died, just to get back to the regularity of going to work every day. I only meant to be there 6 months... Then the economy tanked, and I was stuck there. I had been applying for jobs the whole time I was employed. Here is the funny thing about Georgia... They don't want to consider you for a job if you have a job. I know... go figure.

I say this job was beneath me, because it is a job that only requires a high school diploma. I have 2 degrees; one of which is a doctorate! I was REALLY wasting my time there. But as much as I felt like it was beneath me... you know what is even more beneath me? Being homeless and hungry. Not being able to pay my bills and have stuff... To have to live with my mother.... The job allowed me to remain autonomous. I'd rather work, than not work.


So this is my mathematics.... After taking a week to plot all kind of evilness against my former employer, including a voodoo doll I made in his likeness... I have gotten to the point where I have organized a job search. Georgia unemployment is 14 weeks. 14 WEEKS!!! That's 3 1/2 months!!! and its not a lot of money. I will be living close to the cuff. I have done the Knowledge. I've decided my next job will make use of the degrees I earned. That's the most important thing for me. What was the point of all my education? It took a long time to earn and I am still paying for the doctorate. I've made a list of the places where I would like to work. I'm going to use the resource of the unemployment office to do the things that I cannot do at home. Like make copies and such. I'm not too good to use the unemployment office. My actions will be rooted in the Knowledge that I am a qualified applicant for all the jobs I'm applying. The Understanding will come with the manifestation of my new job. I won't be willing to take another shit job until week 12. Then all bets are off. I've got grown woman bills to pay....


Peace

Today's Supreme Mathematics: Knowledge Knowledge

Peace,

Today's Supreme Math is Knowledge Knowledge abbt to Wisdom. I see that to mean, Be sure of what you know before you act on it. Acting on it is often done via speech. It so pisses me off when people who don't know what they are talking about, talk.... and keep talking.

You gonna tell me about my Culture? Okay... why? Because your mama's old boyfriend from the 1980's was righteous? Awww.... Isn't that sweet. Oh your going to tell em how to sew? So helpful... But you don't know that there are different feet out there nor do you know how to make 1 adjustment. Oh you didn't know you can make adjustments??? Puddin'..... You gonna tell me how to run my office? But you don't know how to work the software or how to run at least 1 report. You've been working here what 2 years and I have been working here 15? So thoughtful. Oh, you're gonna tell me how to get along with my mother? You haven't met her and you assume that in my ENTIRE life I've never tried to have a conversation with her? Right..... Oh, you're gonna tell me how to keep my man? But you don't have one? So sweet. Oh, your going to tell me how to care for my natural hair? But you JUST went natural 3 months ago and now you're an expert. Oh, You're going to advise me on how to cook raw food, but first you need to borrow my vitamix?

Sometimes taking the best part means just to keep your mouth closed.


Peace

Reflection....

Peace.

I know I've been quiet. I've been fasting/cleansing. And whenever I do that I like to get into a quiet space to do some personal contemplation. I use the revelations to carry me over to the next cleansing event. This season... Not many new revelations. But the 10:36 always, Always, ALWAYS comes to mind.

I've been sick this past year. Sick enough to submit myself to western medicine. But guess what? They found nothing. They said I was stressed and overweight. That is really not a useful diagnosis. That is what they tell people when they have no idea what's wrong with you. I know this to be true because I have practiced western medicine. But there is a certain comfort in knowing that my issues cannot be identified by the physicians. It means my cure does not lie with them.

I've been a pescatarian for nearly 20 years. That's a long time. I currently don't have the problems that a person of my age has. No early signs of diabetes.... no high blood pressure... no cholesterol.... no arthritis... no nothing. That confused the physicians more than my symptoms. That is because I eat the right foods.

Food is an integral part of a given Culture. By choosing to not eat the way most Americans eat, and to not eat fast food, I have stepped out of standard American Culture. And instead of being punished for it, I have been rewarded. Justice. But I have not completely stepped out of Standard American Culture. I may not dress like American women, But I do work a lot. I stress over the acquisition of wealth, and I probably watch more TV than righteous folks would agree is healthy. I strike the balance. So I don't have a lot of the problems that are plagued by Standard Americans. But I do have some.

As far as my health is concerned, I took it back to the root. Making my diet even more stringent. And using treatment modalities that are specific for my race and gender. Not there yet, but it's coming.


Peace

Formation

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This whole Beyonce Formation thing is ridiculous. But what it does do is provoke people into paying attention... is shows and proves that that him/devil does not like to be excluded from any Cipher. Even places that him/devil doesn't want to be. Yonce don't give a fuck and is woke af. I would call her "Earth" if she would just cover her ass consistantly... Just on her OWN gold, her great grandchildren won't have to fill out a job application to live in luxury. Never mind what her rich ass husband brings to the table.... I'm so over him/devil. Took him off in 1 day without falling victim to the devil's civilization....

But what the song Formation does do, is highlight the Culture of American Black people. I also saw a post on instagram that had me laughing that did the same thing. Black people have Culture. We have been in this wilderness for over 500 years. How long does it take to develop? We have our own ways of doing that folks TRY to mimic but ALWAYS get it wrong. And other Cultural elements we share with the devil and he bastardizes it and sells it back to us for a profit.

I think the problem is white folks are so used to being included. And they don't like when they aren't included. They get offended when they are left out. Example... the Formation lyrics say nothing to aggravate white folks. It's their confusion that has made them react as they have. Example: devils are griping on the internet that the song promotes violence against police.... point to the lyric that says such. I'll wait. And if you tripping about the song at the superbowl, then why are you complaining when there was no police car on the field? They also don't like when we have thoughts they haven't sanctioned. They really feel like we should do and feel what they tell us to. My boss is good for telling how I should feel about the work he assigns me that isn't on my job description. I should feel happy to be on call 24/7. Or I shouldn't be offended when people assume my white coworker is my supervisor and she isn't. I often inform him that for work that isn't on the JD won't happen and he only rents my body. My mind is my own. Devils filter other folks actions through the visor of their own thoughts and motivations. And we see how they think. Black power is not White power with a darker tint. But they refuse to understand. Its not in them to. Black History month is our thing. You don't have to like it... because they don't. It's for US to celebrate. And white history is shoved down our throuats every day of every year.

We have a Culture. We may not see it, because we are busy living it out daily. Jews and Muslims don't look at what they do differently and say... “Oh! we are doing Culture.” Nope. They just go on with their business and they do themselves. And that's what we do as Black folks living in America.


Peace!

Culture

Peace.

Today's Supreme Mathematics is Culture. Culture is defined as the way of life. When 85ers think of the term “Culture” They are thinking not of what they manifest but of what others manifest. The connotation of “Culture” is often external. Unless you way of life is different from the population in which you reside, you don't just go to thinking that you have a Culture. It's just what you do. It's like how white folks in the US think that what they do is the default and everybody else is exotic.

When folks think of groups in the US with a dedicated Cultures you think of Jews, Muslims, Mormons, Rastafarians.... and us! Though most folks don't know us like that since we don't have their numbers. Jews don't eat pork or shrimp. They don't work on Saturdays. They only marry each other, etc. Muslims cover their heads, some of them. They don't eat pork either and pray 5x/day face down on rugs gender separated. Mormons have a million children and do the poly-marriage thing. They also dress like little house on the prarie. Rastas have dreadlocks and smoke the ganga while eating seeds and guts. Dang Serenity that was offensive! Well 5%er all have done prison bids, have no real jobs and seeds enough to plant a garden! It's what him/devil says about they various US Cultures that aren't them.

But this Build piggy backs off a previous Build. The Do You Hide in plain sight post. I have noticed with this 5% Culture that I more and more each year have changed my lifestyle to a point where folks don't recognize me anymore. Folks who have been with me all along are cool. But when I run into someone I haven't seen in 10 years, they seem shocked at my appearance and new customs.

I was never one to show my hills and mountains.... they don't need my help. They show themselves.... So it's not like I some reformed hoe. But I was a standard BAP pretty girl. I had the luscious perm/weave. I had the right clothes and stiletto heels. My nails always 10 perfect pair. I had the perfectly made up face. I drove the lavish cars and had the lavish hobbies. Many of those same traits are still within me, but the manifestation has changed. I look different... really different. I got my work ID when I started this job 13 years ago. It doesn't even resemble me now. Different hair. Different clothes. Different me. Security periodically asks if I'm wearing another's ID. Don't get it twisted. I'm still fly as hell and you can wear good heels under a long skirt. And my headwraps... I have one to match every outfit... be giving chicks fits!

I eat differently.... No one... NO ONE loves swine more than I did. My last meated meal was a pulled pork sandwich. I loved fat bacon... and ham... and ribs.. yes ribs!... and chops... and loin... and (ashamedly) chitterlings! I actually asked for my graduation meal to be chitterlings.... My mother made them, but was pissed, but she made them. I loved lamb and my favorite snack.... Slim Jims! My plate looks entirely different that it once did. That's Culture.

I no longer do the Standard holiday thing. But more importantly, I'm no longer super loud about not doing it. But I have gotten the message out significantly so folks don't even ask anymore. Thanksgiving and the the American holidays is pretty much it. No xmas. No Easter (though I still get an outfit for Easter). None of that! And it's just how I live...

No grace. I just eat my food. No Sunday obligations. I can hold malice in my heart toward another without feeling bad. I fear no divine retribution. I don't live with the illusion that someone on a cloud is looking out for me. When you don't do the mystery god, YOLO takes on a different intensity. I manifest my Culture not just “in the mind” but out in the open. When you internalize Understanding, eventually it comes out of you. You become a Walking Understand. And isn't that what 3/4ths is? An Understanding that comes out of you so profound that it becomes your Culture.


Peace